Tuesday Oct 31

Tuesday Oct 31, 2000 - Happy Halloween! I went and seen the Movie "Best in Show" today. It's worth waiting to see it on Video Tape or even waiting to see it on tv. I'm cooking Pork Chops and Rice a Roni for dinner. I'm starved and waiting for it to get done cooking. What is up with the kids these days. I'm sitting here on halloween and there isn't many out trick or treating, so I can scare them in my halloween costume while I pass out candy. Some of the kids that have stopped by didn't even dress up! When I have a kid I'm going to dress up with them! Quit a few kids ended up showing up after I complained so we scared a few. Someone in my family sent me this joke and I just have to post it. I got a good laugh out of it.

As Big As a Grill
A couple had been married 15 years. One afternoon they were working in the garden together. As the wife was bending over pulling weeds, the husband said, "Honey, your butt is getting big. I bet it is as big as the gas grill now." The husband, feeling he needed to prove his point, got a yardstick, measured the grill & then measured his wife's butt. "Yep, he said, "Just what I thought, just about the same size!" The wife got very incensed and decided to let him do the gardening alone. She went inside and didn't speak to her husband the rest of the day. That evening when they went to bed, the husband cuddled up to his wife, and said, "How about it honey?" How about a little lovemaking?" The wife rolled over and turned her back to him, giving him the cold shoulder. "What's the matter?" he asked. She replied, "You don't think I am going to fire up this big grill for one little weenie, do you?

Monday Oct 30, 2000 - We got up and went to the Mall today because I wanted to get some Christmas shopping done early. I came home with an $85 dollar silk sweater from Macy's (for myself) and a whole bunch of Halloween stuff. I have got to stop myself from doing that kind of stuff. How am I suppose to get any presents that way? I did a halloween show tonight and got a little bit bloody with the fake blood. I'm sure I turned a few people off and they left. By the end of my show it was just me and some of my members who have been here since I opened my site up. I think the rest of them didn't think the blood was very sexy.:) You know what i hate. Every time I read something sad about an animal I start balling my eyes out. I don't know why, yes I do. IT'S SAD! I have to stop reading when Jeff is around so I don't start crying. He'll get all concerned that something is wrong if he knows I'm crying. What am I going to say? Someone elses dog died..?

Sunday Oct 29, 2000 - I got up and cleaned out my refrigerator this morning. I ordered some food called Essex Cottage Farms (Holistic Food) for my dogs at the beginning of this past week and am hoping to get it in the mail tomorrow or the day after. You add your own fresh meat to it and maybe squash or sweet potato and mix it with the mix with about a cup or so of water then bake it. Your dogs have their own fresh baked meal and it only takes a little bit of your time. It's a lot healthier then kibble. This is also all human grade. No nasty preservatives. I believe most of the illness our pets get in this country are caused from what they put in the foods of our Animals. We'd get sick to if we were feed that kind of trash. I wouldn't buy any food that is in our Supermarkets or pet stores. Here is the Food I am getting them Essex Cottage Farms. If you are interested at all at what our Animals are feed take a look at this Food Not Fit for a pet. If you read the labels you'd see that there isn't a food in the stores you can buy that don't have most of these things. I defiantly believe that we are what we eat and I want my pets as well as myself to live a long and healthy life. I sometimes can't believe what our own country allows.

Saturday Oct 28, 2000 - I made a family album of my immediate family and will put it up for you all, to see who the gorgeous people I came from are.:) My Family ..

Wednesday Oct 25, 2000 - I put my dog Bookie in a contest today to see if he will be French Bulldog of the month. You have to write a small Paragraph about your dog and send in a picture with it also. Here is what I had to say about Bookie and it's all true. I also attached a picture of him sitting propped up beside Jeff sleeping while Jeff works on his computer.

Our dog Bookie is probably the sun shine in all of our days, (even our other Frenchie Nemo thinks Bookie is what makes the world go round). When we wake up in the morning he is trying to grab our towels as we dry off and running off with our socks as we are trying to put them on. As I walk down my hall he will be tugging on my shirt begging for play time. He does all the funny things he don't know he's doing funny, Like walking around after chewing on something he shouldn't have been chewing and having the evidence hanging from his lips (the evidence gets stuck in those big lips of his). It's hard to discipline a dog like bookie and maybe that's why he acts so silly most of the time. But the best thing about bookie is his Love. At the end of the day when all is done and said bookie comes right up to us and just wants to lay in our arms to be cuddled and held like the little baby he really is. If we are working and to busy to hold him he will make a spot beside one of us no matter how much space isn't available on our chair. Just to be close. Bookie could teach a lot of people about Love because bookie has a lot of love in that little body of his.

Tuesday Oct 24, 2000 - Disregard what I said on Sunday. I was having a bad case of PMS. I really am this week. I do feel like a roller coaster though. Before I went to my mom's I was doing great on my diet. Now I just don't want to even try. It's so hard to diet. It really is and I just don't have the passion for it right now. Some of you might say oh hell get your act together, but I do. I just don't think dieting is really worth all the damn trouble. I'd rather run ten miles a day then diet! Shit, I like my damn sweets. I don't want to put up a front like a lot of people do and lie to ya. Hell, if I got some fat cells then yehaww. Good for me. Bad for you.:) I'm only human and can only do so much and it just isn't my time. When I'm ready it will happen so just keep hanging. I am a member of some chats and just love to chat with the other people in them. Besides resizing pictures for my members area and cleaning my house that is all I've been doing. Chat, chat, chat. I got my Mom a computer for her birthday and I actually like it better then mine and have wished I had hers. My husband is like that guy on Home Improvements but instead of the house it's computers. Well anyway, he's always got something screwed up on my computer and our Network seems to be messed up every so often.:) I got to tell ya, he don't need to be fixing nothing that isn't broke and he tries to anyway. My mom's computer was really nice because it has a cool keyboard that you could push the email button and your email would pop up and all that. Very convient. I guess It's just newer and we buy all our stuff from price Watch and they don't come with all the neat stuff like the user friendly ones where I bought hers.

Sunday Oct 22, 2000 - I added a bunch more pictures to Bookie and Nemo's pages. Sometimes I feel like I've given up in Life. Maybe I have to much time on my hands and think to much. I miss my family but they are bussy. I don't have any "real" friends here. I don't feel sorry for myself, I just get.......bored. I could do more shows but I get tired of people who go in there being assholes and are just plain mean. After awhile that wears on you and you just don't feel like taking the hassel. I control it very well and kick the one's out who are being that way but it just starts to get to you after awhile. In the Clubs it was better and you could deck someone if you needed to but usually people are more polite in person. I love doing my shows though, don't get me wrong. It's just like any other thing I guess. You have good and Bad days. I just started reading a book and ran across a name I find interesting, "Nemesis". I thought I'd put it in here for later reference for me.

Saturday Oct 21, 2000 - I talked to my mom a long while back and she nor my family don't mind if I post a gallery with a little Family Album of them in it. I will post it in here so you know what a knock out my mom was back in the day.:) People say I look a lot like her. She did start dying her hair in her twenty's and became a strawberry blond but she is an original brunet just like me.:)

Friday Oct 20, 2000 - I took some pictures of Bookie and Nemo last night. I edited a couple of them and put them up on their main page. They are so cute! Go check them out at Bookie and Nemo's place.. I wish I could take them out in their costumes for Halloween but bookie tries to get out of his so he can chew on it. But at least I got some cute pictures out of it.:) I've been trying to join a French Bulldog webring but Yahoo Webring's SUCK! They keep giving me errors. I am hunting for a webring program, so I can put it up on My bulldogs site so anyone can make their own webrings and so they work right.. Yahoo's suck.

Thursday Oct 19, 2000 - I worked on a free website I made so we could get it linked on some of the Free Adult links sites. I am done, it was a fast job because it don't need to be all that since it's not a "big" website. It's called cybrgrl.com. I'm not sure if it has a dns entry yet since we just put it in the DNS server. I was working on Bookie and Nemo's page's last night also but didn't get much done there. I was trying to embed a java script applet into the html but it wasn't working right for me for some reason so I gave up. Not a biggie.

Tuesday Oct 17, 2000 - I went and got my Nails done and a Pedicure. It's hard to find a person who is good and who can get it done fast. Then there are those you find who use that damn drill way to much and just about make you want to grab them and break the damn drill. They could just about drill the damn nail off if you let them! Yes, I get fake nails.:) I'll post my diet on here again since I've been getting a lot of people wanting to know. My Diet!

Monday Oct 16, 2000 - I am back on my diet and as soon as we get done with our Morning Email and work we will be heading to the gym for Squats. I'll be working on my Teenage Clips and News Paper articles page this evening. It don't look professional at all and I need to make it look more orderly and Neat.

Sunday Oct 15, 2000 - I went to the dog Show this morning and Seen the judging of the French Bulldogs. I got some pictures to. Tomorrow I start dieting and exercising so I can be prepared for the Ms Galaxy in the Spring. I'll make it in plenty of time it's just I get side tracked at times. I need to stay focused and have fun while I'm at it. I am doing this to have a fun time while I try to get myself back into the best shape I can. The bodybuilding competition I was in last year was probably one of the most Messed up comps I've ever done and I had a bad trainer who didn't know how to do the diet very good, it just messed my whole system up trying to stay on the damn thing. Since I trained with Diana Dennis she taught me a lot more about dieting and training then anyone probably could have. I know I can do the dieting without making myself go nuts, while still getting to the body fat percentage I want. I'm home sick and want to go visit my family again.

Saturday Oct 14, 2000 - I went to the Dog Show that is here this weekend and only saw one French bulldog but I didn't get there till 1pm. I got a show book and they are having the French Bulldogs again at 8am Sunday Morning so I am getting up early so I can go watch the Judging on them, the Boston Terriers and the Bulldogs. First thing tomorrow morning. Jeff is coming along so I hope he can hang.:)

Friday Oct 13, 2000 - I really had fun talking with my Sister when I was at my mom's. We have never been real close. She moved out of the house when I was still small and so we didn't really become close. I feel like I may owe her an apology for not being all that sociable this time when I was down visiting. I was so frustrated about the way things were between some of the family that I let it distract me, I really didn't spend all that much time with her. I should know better. My whole family is so accepting at what I do, then I turn around and have a mood. I didn't put my two cents in but I felt like it and that is the whole point. I just need to let things be and just have a good time with my Sister, Mom and everyone else. I worry to much I guess. Just like my.....mom.. hummmm. I always said I would never be like my mom to.:) It's not so bad! I wish I could take away the resentment or whatever it is that is brewing (talking about family here and not myself). I down loaded Macromedia Flash last night for a trial and started to look into learning it. I didn't know they had Lessons all ready programmed into the program so you can learn it that way. I will know it by the end of the month at this rate.

Thursday Oct 12, 2000 - I went and got a Facial and eyebrow wax Today, at the Day Spa I usually go to. I am going up to the Community College and picking up a schedule to see when their Next Macromedia Flash/Advanced Photoshop course will be. I am going to learn that by the end of the year if nothing else. I didn't gain weight when I was at my mom's so I am happy with myself. Monday or as soon as this cold is gone I'm going to start dieting and exercising again. I hate being sick and trying to diet. You stay sick longer if you don't eat enough.

Wednesday Oct 11, 2000 - We meet at Guy who owned a Website called LVTV a couple years ago and we did a little Interview/skit called the Stalker and he Interviewed me about my website. We got it put up again, so anyone who has Real Player can download it and watch it on their computer. Here is the LVTV Interview. It's a bit funny to. It was done a couple years ago so it's not current and up to date (if ya know what I mean).. I don't dance at any of the clubs here in Vegas anymore. I wish this cold would go away. I don't think it's the flu, just a bad head cold. Since Halloween is coming I put "Halloween" Midi in my diary. I've been talking to my Mom over the Hear Me program the past two days since I've been home and it's a lot cheaper then making a long distance phone call.:) I'm so glad that she has that computer now (she is to)..

Tuesday Oct 10, 2000 - I am back! I am very sick to. I caught the Flu or something the last day or two while I was in Kentucky. My Mom loves her computer, I got it for her Birthday on Oct 7th. I got her a Compaq Persario 533 K-6-2, CD-RW drive, 64mb SD Ram Memory, w/ web cam, keyboard, Mouse, ladadalad.. Anyway I found it for a great price and it's a good computer. Maybe I can convince her to come live with me.:) I am not feeling all that well right now and I'm in a bad mood so I'll get off for now. I will have a show this Coming Saturday so I'll catch you then. I'll be writing in here before then though. A word of thought before I leave, "Don't be mad at someone for long, you sure will regret what you didn't do or say after they are gone".

Sunday Oct 1, 2000 - I leave to go visit my mom first thing tomorrow morning. I am excited but I don't want to leave Jeff and the Boys behind. I wish they could all come with me.:( I'll be back in ten days though. I get to chat with him and see him over the net so it will be just like being home.:) Goodbye for the next ten days. But I'll drop by the chat room to say hi while I'm at my moms. I'll have my Laptop with me. I feel like puking because I'm just a bunch of Nerves tonight.

Saturday Sept 30,, 2000 - I'm going to have to resume my regular schedule when I return from my mom's. I Canceled the show I had for today because I have way to much cleaning to do before I leave Monday. I will be gone for ten whole days. I'll have my laptop with me so I can broadcast from my mom's house. I'll stop in to say hi and that gives me a great chance to chat with Jeff without having to make long distance calls. I feel like I'm leaving and I want to cry! Shall I start sucking my thumb...?

Friday Sept 29, 2000 - Well, three more days and I'll be at my mom's in Kentucky. The closer it gets to going to more I don't want to go and leave Jeff, Bookie and Nemo. I sure will miss them. At least I'll get to chat with Jeff over the Net and be with him that way. I've been working on Bookie and Nemo's pages the last few days and added some links to their website. I cheated on my diet yesterday but that is good because I feel good being on my diet today without having withdraws from sweets and stuff.:) I still lost weight so it's going well.

Wednesday Sept 27, 2000 - I got up today and weighed myself. I am now 149 Pounds and dropping. I am so glad I can stay on a diet now. Shit, that sure was hell when I couldn't. If I can get to 139 in another month then I will be jumping for joy. Going to my Mom's isn't going to help with my diet though. She loves to help shove food down her Children's mouth. Kind of like those Italian Mom's, "Come-on eat this and this to.." If you try turning the food down she pouts and try's to get you to eat something else. It's usually not Healthy food either. It will be Snitzle that was sizzled in Butter flavored grease or something of that nature. Last time I went to my mom's I gained five or so pounds. I'm going to cook healthy and eat during the day and maybe have what she cooks for dinner. She just tries to make sure we are comfortable and eating well but I really don't want to eat that well. My stomach will end up exploding. Then I'll have to train it all over again on my diet when I get back. That is one of the hardest parts of the diet. The shrinking phase the first couple weeks.

Tuesday Sept 26, 2000- I called my Grandma on my Fathers side and talked with her for awhile today. She broke her hip in Aug and isn't doing well at all. I have a feeling by the end of the year one of them might not be around any longer. I haven't seen any of my Family except immediate since my Father died 7 Years ago. My Mom's side of the Family die before they should and I don't think any of them live as long as my Fathers side. My Mothers mom had 8 children and do you know how many have died of cancer or related illness? Four. Then there leaves four left. How many have cancer or are in remission that are alive? Three. That leaves one that don't know if she has it and won't. She won't go in for tests because she is to scared of the test. Kind of scary odds if you ask me. My Mom had Breast Cancer but is in Remission so I'm relieved. So even though I look Genetically perfect, I am probably loaded with Cancer Genes. Then there is my Father who died of a Malignant (Cancerous) Brain Tumor. I think that is one of the worst ways to go. You die slowly. I hated that. I prayed every night that God would either make him die and be in peace or Heal him all the way and stop his misery. Other then one of my Fathers sisters, his side of my Family is Fairly Healthy. My mom always says it skips a Generation but that would mean my Kids will be a good Candidate for Cancer. Besides that I lost another pound and a half. I all most gave in last night, then I got so mad at myself that I was giving in that I just shut off the stove and went to bed. I've been thinking a lot and deciding when I want to have a Baby. I'm going to wait two more years then start trying. That would put me at 28 when I started trying. I want to be pregnant by 29 or 30 but I wanted to give myself time in case I have any problems getting Pregnant. I've never been pregnant so I'm not sure how it's going to go. By the time I hit 28 I'm sure my Biological clock will be ticking in my head.:) If not I may just wait another year or so. I want to start planning early because the past 3 years have went so fast I wonder where all the time went. When I start my endeavor to get pregnant, pray I'll have a girl.:) Kind of warped I'm talking about Genetics and Baby's in the same diary entry but, oh hell I don't want to get old then regret never having a kid. I'm a stable person and would take good care of my Kid. I'd make sure he/she would be smart and study.

Sunday Sept 24, 2000- Well we have been redecorating my house and moved the living room down stairs to where the other living room is kind of sunk-in. I am going to make the upstairs room more like a quiet Room so I can read my books with No Big Screen TV blaring in my ear. I need to get more furniture though. I have nothing for my upstairs living room. I want to make the upstairs more elegant looking then the one Down Stairs where it's more of a Relaxing room for watching TV. I feel asleep on my couch after my show today. I was reading my book with Bookie sleeping beside me and dozed off for an hour. Now I've got a head-ack. Nothing like waking up to a Head-ach, is there. I've been running to Aaron Brothers Down the street buying new frames the past couple of days. We are framing our awards and certificates and need frames. I'm all most through. A week from Tomorrow I'll be on my way to see my Mom in Kentucky. I sure can't wait. I wish myself a safe trip.:) I don't like flying. It seems like all the planes are getting old and we are hearing a lot of things going wrong and crashes lately. I am always scared to death when I take off. I could just about hyper ventilate. If my plane would crash I'd probably dye of a heart attack before we hit ground. I could all most have one on take off, thank god I'm young or I would. I have flew a LOT and still can't overcome my fear of heights or flying. I have always had dreams of falling to my death and I think that is a big reason I hate it (flying). I don't show any outwardly signs of being scared to death when I fly but inside I'm a mess.

Friday Sept 22, 2000 - I Like living in Las Vegas, I just don't like all the flaky people that live in this darn city.. Man, makes me think of Wichita as a really stable City. I think we all have our "Flaky" phases, I for one should know that to be the truth. But man don't make a life time of it.. These people out here on the West Coast are just too much. I do miss my Best Friend Mina so very much. I think about dying to much. I think about how everything is going to end one day and we will never in our entire life see anyone we know again. I'm scared that I will not see the people I love. I am probably the luckiest women on this earth to have the Family and Husband that I have. The only thing that makes me sad is knowing I will not have them all one day. That I will also be gone. I am lucky to have a man that truly Loves me and thinks our Marriage is worth a fight. There are just to many people out there that just don't know the true meaning of Love and Marriage.. My husband and I have built everything we have "together" and that feels real good. We didn't marry because of Pregnancy, Money. We Married each other because we Loved each other and still do. We have been through our worst year "last year" and I really think it will be ok now. Everyone goes through doubts in their marriage and if you can pull through the very tough times then you got a lot going for you. Most of the time people let go to soon and don't tough it out. Don't take the easy road or you just may be left alone in the end. I thought I didn't love my husband at one point or he me but he stuck by me anyway. I love him more then anything for being there for me even though I was the worst to him. This man I have is worth more then all the Gold and Fighting in this world. He showed me just how much he did truly love me and that is what I needed (but shouldn't have)..

Thursday Sept 21, 2000 - I forgot to tell everyone my Brother had a New Baby Girl Yesterday Morning! Well, His wife did. I got them one of those Baby Books at Hallmark. The one where you fill in all the First Year Info on the Baby. I want to have a Girl! Not today though.:) I sent it out earlier today.

Wednesday Sept 20, 2000 - Well I tip toed around my house this morning after the flooring guys got here. I was just waiting for them to ask who was on the downstairs floor but he never did. I herd them pounding the cement to get the blocks off floor up.:( When we were leaving the house my husband went and told them we were leaving for a bit and asked them if the flooring was ok and told them about me stepping on it. It was fixable thank god. The guy didn't want to ask us and make us think he was blaming us for something. He thought he might have leaned on it and was just going crazy.:) We let him know he wasn't and I had trampled on it. We took my car down to order the back part with the dent that needs replaced. On the way back we Stopped off at the Toyota dealer and looked at a Toyota Tacoma 4 Wheel Drive pickup. We paid off the one we all ready have (which is not a 4 Wheel Drive/No AC either!). He is down there now seeing how much it's going to be a month. In Nevada you need an AC! We will trade in our Tacoma we have now. It's handy to have a pickup like that when I use the Home Store so much. Oh great! Jeff got his truck, now we can do all those manly things in it.:) Now we don't have to wait for the other person to get home and if we need to go someplace we don't have to be miserable in a hot truck. This one has AC. Thank God..

Tuesday Sept 19, 2000 - They got finished with my office floor yesterday and we moved our computers back in. Here is the marble flooring I had put in. It's just beautiful. They are doing the downstairs now. I am back so everyone needs to stand back so I can bust a move! I've lost 4 pounds this week. I have been able to stay on my diet without going nuts and I will be having some major changes in my body the next couple months. I have to email KC from Certified Amateurs today and see if she knows when they'll have my server up and running so I can move everything. This slow shit right now is just ridicules. Oh, Fuck Shit Die and beat me stupid..... I fucking walked on the downstairs floor tonight so I could clean out the cat box and fucked up the Marble they set on the end. They are going to kill me when they start laying the rest of it tomorrow. I am a fucking Idiot and should have went through the garage, but of course I wasn't listening when they were leaving and told my hubby not to walk down there! Shit, Shit, Shit... Lets hope they can fix that pretty easy without having to pull up the whole damn side of the room. Damn, Damn, Damn, Damn, Damn, Damn, Damn... Who hit me with a Stupid Stick. Ahhhhhhhh, I'm going to worry about it all night now.

Sunday Sept 17, 2000 - The word for the next 3-4 Months is DIET. I won't be on it while I'm at my moms but now till Oct 2 when I leave I'll be on it. I plan to be looking model quality by the time we attend any more conventions or outings. I'm ready and am not hungry like I use to be and am back in my high motivation mode. I'm really disgusted with myself and WILL be back in great shape in that amount of time.

Saturday Sept 16, 2000 - Man, what a start. First thing this morning I was down at Lowe's and a guy backs up and hits my right side back end. His Insurance Company will pay my full deductible and any rental car fees if I need. I don't want to pay that 500 dollar deductible and thank god I don't have to. I have a 99' Chrysler LHS and don't want any more cost then I have to pay anyway. My Brother Birthday is coming up very soon also and I don't know what I'm going to get him. His Wife is such a self centered greedy ugly Bitch she don't even have one thing going for her. If she was nice she would be great and I wouldn't even care about her being so Ugly. But her being such a Bitch on top of Ugly just adds to the whole package. Supposedly she was Bitching about my mother not getting anything for her child for his Birthday. My mom has to work and is helping out my niece who just had a baby and she sent them a shit load of things for Christmas. They didn't even get anything for her and she wants to bitch about my mom not buying anything for his birthday! They didn't buy anything for us either and we got them a bunch of presents. I wouldn't usually mind it but she has the nerve to bitch so I will. I hate people who are like her! We didn't even care when they didn't get anything for us when Christmas came around, that is the way it should be. Gifts are just that a "Gift" surprise it should not ever be expected of someone.. People like her are Losers and will not get anywhere in life! I don't love her so the (Passage from Corinthians) on top of this page does not apply.:) I don't Hate anyone I just dislike her very badly..

Friday Sept 15, 2000 - I am a little ticked off with the people we had hosting us for the few weeks they did host us. I have been on the Net too long and have been with too many Shity Hosting services to Fuck around with that kind of bad business decision. We were hosting our self but we needed more bandwidth and it is more cost efficient for us to have a company with more bandwidth do it. By Monday Night the site should be running 100% faster again. We got our server and sent it off today. Lets hope they will have it Set up by Saturday night but I can't be 100 percent certain on that. On top of that we had that Company who was hosting us (Cave Creek) build us a computer and they didn't even have the correct Mother Board we had paid for in there! I am now having Cert Amateurs Host us. I can bet that since they are Amateurs they will do a better job since they want the business and won't mess around like the so called "Bigger Companies" do. I've heard they are great at getting business done the same day so I'm looking forward to it. My server that I have at my home now isn't holding up with the Demand of the Net "Hits".. Way to slow and I'm loosing business. They are still working on our Flooring in the Office today and I think they should be done laying the Office today. I'll take a Picture of it when it's done.

Wednesday Sept 13, 2000 - Guess what!!!!!! yeeehaaawwwww! We went to Lowes today and are having marble flooring done in our office and my Rec Room down stairs. It's going to look so Pretty! It don't even cost as much as I had once thought! Anyway they are coming first thing in the morning to do the office and should be done with that room in 2-3 days. Then they will start laying the down stairs area probably on Monday. I've been putting sealing on my Grout all evening today. I first got down on my hands and knees and scrubbed the Grout and Flooring with Grout Cleaner. I think it had some kind of acid in it. Made my damn toe nail Polish smear. Guess I won't be doing that bare foot anymore. It didn't eat my feet so I think I'm safe.:) I'm taking it upon myself to know how to do home repair and all that good kind of fun stuff. Jeff gets on me and tells me we should just hire someone! Fuck that, I can save us money and have the house done in no time (after I learn how to do it, which won't take me long). I'll get a book like I do with most things.:) Maybe even a Video tape. Hell, HGTV has all ready taught me how to Change out a Toilet! Oh yea! Paul Goode has sent me the pictures Diana and I had taken with him this past Winter. They are good but man am I Hee Woman. I'm really having a lot of fun learning all this fun house repair stuff. I really need to learn how to do wood repair and also lay flooring. For now I'll let the pro's do it. For now..;)

Tuesday Sept 12, 2000 - I just made a webpage for my Baby's! Here is their webpage! I got a book yesterday and have all ready Finished it. I don't know if I exactly get the ending of it though.. It's called, "A Walk to Remember" by Nicholas Sparks. It's on the Best Seller list. If anyone reads it email me your opinion of the ending.

Sunday Sept 10, 2000 - I really hate canceling my shows, makes me feel so lazy. I did reschedule them for later this week. I just need a few days to get better. I really want to lose weight but I don't give a damn to be on a diet so fuck it.. I'll be back on track one of these days. Thank god I didn't get any more Confused and stupider last year. I'm glad I stopped before I changed in appearance. If you really need to know I took some Steroids and just fucked my body up some. Not only was I starving no matter how much I ate but I looked like Ms. Amazon of the Giants. How many ways is there to spell Idiot?:) I know we all do stupid things but I think I toped them ALL last year alone. I guess I could say I learned most of my wisdom in one year.. Hard on a relationship so I don't recommend going all out in one year (even a life time for that matter).. I've been watching HGTV and am learning a lot about home repairs. I even know how to install a toilet now. I like watching it to get different Ideas how to decorate and repair my own house.

Saturday Sept 9, 2000 - I canceled my show today because I'm suffering from a Female problem. It will be gone in a few days (It's a girl thing, you men wouldn't understand).:) We went to the movies last night and seen, "The Watcher". It was good. I was going to do my Buns of Steel workout last night be we had to drop by Diana's pretty late. I am to tired all the time and am trying to drag myself out of it. I've been redoing my down stairs and setting up my Backdrop and canvas for photo's well be taking this weekend. I went to a photography store and bought all the necessary equipment. I go Visit my Mom on Oct 2 and I am looking forward to seeing them all again. My Sister lives in the Same area as my mom.

Tuesday Sept 5, 2000 - The more I watch the presidential Election Campaigns the more I like Gore. I was thinking Bush at first but he is to stuck on himself and isn't for the things this country is in need of. I am keeping an eye on it but right now I'm wanting Gore as President. I did my workout last night. I plan on doing it five days a week. My home workout Video's.. The first thing I had to eat today was Chili and I always add Louisiana Hot sauce and onion's. I regretted eating that afterwards. My stomach was feeling like it was on fire. Not a good thing to eat for your first meal on an empty stomach without any kind of protective coating.

Monday Sept 4, 2000 - Please Lord, give me the motivation it takes to do my workout video tonight.... Please, Please, Please....I didn't do much today but clean my house. I took Bookie and Nemo for a walk with Jeff around 8pm. Not really to much going on. I've added another show to my schedule so I'll be having more shows also.

Sunday Sept 3, 2000 - Just great... Jeff was watching a show on TLC about air plain crashes and I just had to watch it with him. I want to cancel my trip to visit my mom in Kentucky now. It's next month. I don't want to fly!

Saturday Sept 2, 2000 - I had an awful dream last night. I had a dream that we were driving real fast down a Freeway and suddenly came upon this car accident, we got off the freeway not to far from it. While I was was sitting there in the car the Paramedics arrived and went down the hill to where the Car Crash was and brought up their first victim in some kind of Half body Chemical bag. I saw it was a little girl who had been crushed by the impact and was frozen into the position she was in on impact. Her hands were brought up just in front of her face to the sides of her head as if she were protecting herself from hitting the other Vehicle. She had the most freighting expression on her face. I really hate dreams like that. They make me sick to my stomach.

Friday Sept 1, 2000 - Wow, It's September all ready! I'm so happy. I just finished putting up the kitchen curtains I got yesterday and they make my house so much more brighter and homey... I even took a picture of them with my digital camera and will post it so you can see what they look like. I'm so proud of myself..:) I put them up without any help to.. Here is the Curtains and Curtains 2.. I added some new content today and earlier this week to the members area, Voyeur Dorm and Hotel Sluts.. I added Voyeur Dorm because I didn't like Hotel Sluts all that much and didn't think you all would either so I went ahead and bought Voyeur Dorm also. I think that is some good quality content. Especially with all the other Feeds and Girls that are on. I've been asked why I don't get a lot of Votes since my site is so big. I don't put my Voting stuff as Pop up's like a lot of the other Sites do, that just sends traffic away from me and most people don't like having that happen (having windows pop up on them ever time they hit your pages... I put my Voting on a few pages and if they see it they will Vote and if they don't want to then that's ok to. But if you do I really do appreciate it.:) Anyway that's why. I love my Bookie so much.. I got a cute picture of him today.. Bookie. We went to Best Buy last night and bought a really good Fax/Copy/phone machine. I can Fax and receive now, we have been needing that for our business for a very long time.

The more I know of the human race,
the more I love my dogs.
(Alphonse de Lamartine)