Nov & Dec 2000

Sunday Dec 31, 2000 - I will be broadcasting a live broadcast from my Balcony tonight at midnight (pacific time) of the Fireworks on the Las Vegas Strip, if you would like to see them just go to my live video in the members area or you can go to my "Webcam" page in the guest area to see the live broadcast also. I took the Voting off for Bookie and Nemo today. They started a new contest and Bookie and Nemo didn't win the last one so I took them off till I come across another contest I think they'd do good in. I don't want to have to keep voting so I'll give it a break for awhile. I will go buy them some chew rawhide bones when I feel better, just because they are number one to me anyway. I don't feel good but we planed to stay home for new years anyway. From our Balcony we can see the entire Las Vegas Strip and enjoy all the fireworks without leaving our home. I hope you all have a Safe and Happy New Years. Don't forget to get someone sober to drive if you've been drinking. Play hard but be safe about it.:) Happy 2001!!! My New years Resolution is to be 135 pounds by June and to be healthier then I have been in my life. I will cut down on the sweets and start eating more Greens and Veggies. I thought I'd put this little poem of how I love thee (My dogs).

How do I love thee?
Let me count the ways...

I love thee agreeably -
enough to let your stinky doghide on the bed after a run through damp
leaves, mud and slug infested gardens.

I love thee steadfastly -
enough to devote a year to raising you from a wobbly speck into a 
strong healthy adult (who promptly attempts to seize control)
.
I love thee passionately -
despite your repeated efforts to probe my ears, eyes and mouth with the
same tongue you use for various other atrocities.

I love thee well -
despite the amazing odors you produce.

I love thee deeply -
though you use me as a napkin at every opportunity.

I love thee madly -
despite the various bodily functions you have performed at 
inappropriate moments - in inappropriate places.

I love thee constantly -
despite the dog "bladder curfew" I have lived by for 16 years.

I love thee truly -
despite the "doggie landmines" hidden in the grass.

I love thee absolutely -
because you never (well hardly ever) hog the remote control.

I love thee gratefully -
because you stay by my side (or on my side).

I love thee devotedly -
more than clean carpeting, clothing, furniture, floors or walls.

I love thee bravely -
enough to battle the indomitable flea on your behalf.

I love thee monetarily -
enough to put the vet's children through college.

I love thee openly -
I will bear any embarrassment for your furry sake.

I love thee totally -
more than free time or excess cash or a predictable life.

Saturday Dec 30, 2000 - I have been laying in bed the past couple days, I've been sick. I hope I get over it soon. I am feeling a lot better today though. We've known quit a few people in the past couple years who gotten divorced. It takes effort on both parts to make a marriage work. Most people give up and don't try. If you get married you should put effort into it. Nothing is easy in life. Too many try to take the easy road. No matter what relationship you are in, they all end up having their downs. No relationship is without problems. You may find some man or women who you think your happier with but in a couple years that will tire and have it's own problems to. Some people are always trying to find something better, not knowing what they are leaving could be the best thing that would ever happen to them. If your with someone who is Nice and loving then you better hold on. That world out there isn't any better. No matter what you think. 

Thursday Dec 28, 2000 - Don't get me wrong on the comments about Bush. I don't dislike anyone for Voting for the guy or anything. I just dislike the man himself. He makes me Sheath out every poor. Let me put it this way, put me in a ring with him and I'd try to knock him out the best I could. I made dog food today so they would be supplied for the next week. I freeze the half I don't use right away. The convention is coming up next week so I am getting prepared for that since we will be busy. I couldn't sleep worth shit last night so I have big old dark circles under my eyes today. I feel like a zombie. I had been talking to my Mom a lot on email and stuff but she's been too busy working and I really haven't talked to her that much lately. I called her on Christmas and Wished her and my sister a Merry Christmas.  

Wednesday Dec 27, 2000 - We are broadcasting a live broadcast on Wednesday Jan 3 at around 8:30pm Pacific Time (11:30pm Eastern) from the Certified Amateur Party from the Venetian Hotel. It will be a free broadcast and you can go to it from my members area or if your a guest you can go to the "Web cam" Page and it will be live on there with Streaming Video that night. I started my New Years resolution early. I started to watch what I eat and exercising today. I weigh 148 right now and want to be 145 in another week or maybe a little more. I want to be back down to 135 by June so I am getting started now. I don't have very much to lose but if I can get to my Ideal weight before then I will be happy. I had a very tough year (with weight) but I am back from that crises. If I am not doing it for myself, I don't do it at all. My first comp was for me, then after that I couldn't do it because I didn't know what I was doing it for any longer.  Now I want to be my happy old self again and can be dedicated. When you lose track of why you are doing something you need to take time off to re-evaluate. Clear your head. I took my Cat Tiggy to get groomed today. She looks so nice and pretty. I bet she feels better. Long haired cats are just to much to take care of. She is the last long hair I'll ever have. I've had Tiggy for 7 years now. She is getting old.:( She was my first Persian and my Last. At the end of Janurary we are going to a cat show. We need to get out of the house for a day. I drag Jeff to all these Animal shows, lol.. He don't complain anymore. Poor man, I need to do something special for him, when I can think of something that would be real good that he'd like. I want to take Bookie and Nemo but we can't "explore" as much when they are with us. So I think we will get our Pet Sitter to come and feed/water/play with them for the day we are gone. 

Tuesday Dec 26, 2000 - I have been watching MSNBC this morning and following the Story on the Shooting at Edgewater Technologies in Mass. How Sad. The day after Christmas to. I'm sorry but nothing is Worth Killing someone over. Unless they are trying to physically harm you. I bet he was getting fired or something of that Nature. That is a major reason people go psycho. How Crazy! I hope all you who voted for Bush is still happy. You won't be when he starts fucking up everything. I have a feeling the economy is going to start doing worse, after he is in full swing of office. A few people will lose jobs and the Market is going to suck. It's already started. The man is so full of Himself. He's rude and cocky, I don't trust him. I've been watching a lot of the News on Internet Downsizing.  These company's don't understand that you can't spend 13 billion dollars to start up your website and think you'll make it up. They won't. If you start small and build your way up it works a hell of a lot better. We did it right the first time. Although when we started this site 3 1/2 years ago it looked like crap, we started when there were only 3 or 4 other sites that had web cams (No Streaming Video, no one had it yet). Those Web cams at the time didn't even get naked. I figured when I started I'd strip since I danced at the time. So the first "Naked Dancer" or Whatever you want to call it was Born. I think the Internet has a way to go and these company's don't know what the hell they are getting into. Keep your Jobs and don't just dive into the unknown. I never expected to make anything and worked up till this site became to much to handle. Since it was a fun Hobby we weren't expecting to much, if my site didn't do well we were going to shut it down when we couldn't afford to keep it any longer. It never happened but we worked our ass off day and night, the first couple years. It's been just this past year we've had a lot more freedom because we have things the way we want them and don't have to work as much fixing or changing things. But we are always here in case something goes wrong, so don't expect not to work. You work a lot more with this. We know people who start up their website and quit their jobs. If that isn't the biggest mistake! I don't know who they have been talking to but it isn't someone who's very experienced. I had a glorious day at the spa today! Oh I was in Heaven.

Monday Dec 25, 2000 - Merry Christmas Everyone! Wednesday I am hitting all the after Christmas sales and Getting decorations for Next year. It didn't feel real Christmassy because I didn't decorate this year. Next year my house is going to look more like Christmas.

Sunday Dec 24, 2000 - I received a present from Copter today. It was a white terry cloth rob with "Venus" and a Mickey mouse logo below it. How wonderful. Thank you Copter!  I also received a package from my Mom yesterday that was packed with Divinity and Chocolate Chip Cookies, Wahoo! She also sent me a porcelain Angel that is just beautiful! I am having a very good Christmas. I feel like scrooge though. I should have sent a few more people presents. Next year I will defiantly go Shopping earlier so I can get Everyone on my list something special. There are a few more people I need to add. Shit, I am going to start at least 6 months early so it don't feel like I'm spending all that much. I get very money conscious. I worry to much. I called my Grandma on my Dad's side tonight. I sure do miss her and my Grandfather a lot. I haven't seen them since my Dad's Funeral 7 years ago. My Brother and I use to stay with them almost every summer when we were little. You grow up and move away, then you start growing distant from your family it seems. Someone Sent me a present of Video tapes Called, "a Dog's Life" made by the Discovery Channel. I just finished watching them and I was balling my eyes out at the end. I just loved the Video's and I can't find the person's E-Mail Address who had sent me them. I just want to thank you for those tapes. They are Very touching, all I could think when they were interviewing the Pet Cemetary and the people who had lost their dogs was how I'd just lose it If I lose Bookie, he's my sole mate, along with my husband Jeff of course. Nemo is my baby to it's just bookie has something very Human and Special that you don't find very often. Don't tell Nemo that, I don't want him to think I got a favorite.:)

Saturday Dec 23, 2000 -  I hope everyone has a Happy Christmas and a very Prosperous New Year! I woke up this morning turned over and there was Nemo laying on his side looking at me in the face, ahh! What a sight to wake up to.:) Just melt your heart, rofl. After I got up I made my appointment to get my Facial, Body Wrap, Sports Massage, Spa Mani & Pedicure and a Eye Brow Wax.. Tuesday will be a glorious day! I made my cat Tiggy an appointment to be groomed on Wednesday again also. She has a few mats. I never use to get myself pampered until a few years after I started Dancing. I found out massages were heaven after a night of dancing. Better then Sex when your that sore.:) I could just about moan when I get a massage but I don't want to freak them out so I wouldn't.. Oh, God! Bookie and Nemo are at Number 20! Nooooo! Keep Voting DAILY! Pretty please, with Sugar on top? Go here to vote for Bookie and Nemo! Since they win a cash prize I will buy them all squeaky and Chew toys if they win! Oh shit, I cut my own hair agian, I might as well give that up! It looks all funky again. My new Years Resolution is to get my ass back into shape and lose fifteen pounds. I hired a new trainer to help get me motivated. As soon as I talk to her I will start training with her 3 days a week. I am focusing more on cardio then weights this time around so I can burn off this fat first. I've got plenty of muscle on this body of mine. We have been talking a lot and decided not to get that swimming pool. We don't want to have to get it on Credit. So we are going to hold off until we can pay for it in Cash, if that is possible.:)

Friday Dec 22, 2000 - I am taking a class for Natural Healing for Animals to learn about herbal remedies and proper nutrition, homeopathy, flower essences and muscle testing. I just may open up my own Natural Pet Food store or something of that nature someday. I like taking classes to learn more about things. I am having Nature Week (PERIOD) this week so I canceled my show for tonight. I really don't see a reason to do a show when I am on my ....... I have everyone complaining because I'm not doing anything sexual, I am not going to when I am like this. Yuk! I have so many other Girls doing shows and so many Porn feeds I don't know if anyone really notices anyway. I REALLY didn't want to put Period but I had to,  people are writing me and are upset that I canceled because they didn't know what Nature Week ment.. We went to the movie, Ms. Congeniality today. That was a very funny movie! 

Thursday Dec 21, 2000 - My Brother called me last night and we talked for a few minutes. After we got up today we went and picked up my suit from the Armani Store in the forum shops. On top of the suit, I got a long black coat and a Grey outfit that was On Sale. Jeff got a black Sports Coat and two shirts to go with it, man is he hot looking in them. We are thinking about going out tonight but haven't decided yet. They forgot to take off the Alarm tag on my Black coat so I'll have to take it back down tomorrow to have them remove it. I got home and cleaned the kitchen and started on the bathroom but didn't finish it. 

Wednesday Dec 20, 2000 - Ahh! You know what Jeff got me for Christmas! A whole day at the spa!!!!!! A package that includes: One Hour Deep Tissue Massage, Sea Weed Body Wrap, Extensive Exfoliating Facial, Salon Mani & Pedicure! I am going to be in heaven!!!! How can I top that!!!!!! I love that man! I have been talking to my mom and her Christmas gifts I sent out in a Package two weeks ago still hasn't arrived. I send it by UPS and lost the darn tracking number. Now I don't know what to do about it.

Tuesday Dec 19, 2000 - Bookie and Nemo aren't at the top anymore so can you guy Vote once a day for them? Pretty please? Go here to Vote and Vote for "Bookie and Nemo". I sold Pixie. The lady will be here in a little bit to pick her up. I am glad and relieved. She didn't have the temperament we wanted and after I got her, I did realize she was one to many. That is what I get for shipping her in from out of state. I don't want another dog till my boys get old and I don't have them both any longer. Two seems to be perfect. They aren't lonely when we do have to leave them at home.

Monday Dec 18, 2000 - I was watching a TV program the other night about Females and eating disorders. Can you believe I have been email by guys asking if I was worried about getting fat when I eventually get pregnant! These people have to be Idiots! Gaining weight is part of the whole process, how the hell you going to support a living being if you don't got some fat on you? I feel sorry for any women who is with a man that the only thing they Judge on is her weight. My Husband could care less about how much weight I gain. I have been on a major weight change the last year and my husband has loved me through every fat and skinny Inch of my life. He don't even consider the fact that I gain or lose weight. We are with each other because of Love and not anything else. I love him to, I wouldn't care if he gained 50 pounds!  There are some sorry people in this world if that is what they consider Important in life.  To me it's more important to love and put your family first then to have someone for looks. Of course you go for looks at the beginning but when you marry that person, you have just made a commitment for life. Who gives a crap if you gain some weight. If you love the person then it should not matter! Some men are pathetic. Also are any women who have that outlook. I don't feel bad at the weight I am now, even though some would say I put on a few pounds.:)  I am happy and I also am not going to lose it just to please Mr. Josmoe from Mars. I will lose it when I feel like I want to and when I want to,  for me. I've always been athletic and like everyone on the planet, I go through my up's and down's on my weight. I mean come on, no one can diet forever. If you can then good for you, I personally would rather enjoy life to it's fullest. For those of you who don't like reality then you can stay in your delusional perfect weight world. Besides that I woke up in a very bad mode today.:( I think it's because, I'M ON MY DAMN PERIOD THIS WEEK! I know, way to much info. We went and saw the movie, "What women want" last night. Oh, that was way so good! You gotta see it. Good, Good, Good, Good and FUNNY!

Sunday Dec 17, 2000 - Saturday after my show we went downtown to the Forum Shops to look at suits. I am not one to spend a lot of money on one suit. Jeff had me try on a few he liked and ended up purchasing a gray one for the convention in Jan. I could go to Dillards and find a decent one and Not spend as much. We were in the ARMANI store so you can Imagine how much my suit cost. I could just about make myself puke! I don't like materialistic things to "show off" or "Impress". I don't like being fake or be around people that are like that either. I did need a new suit but I just think the cost is Ridiculous and would have passed it up if it weren't for Jeff. I know I spend as much purchasing my dogs but they will be around a lot long than that suit. Don't get me wrong, I'm very happy with it. We went and looked at the layout for the pool Today and made some changes to it. In about a month, maybe a little more then that they will be starting on it. I think I'm crazy.. I was reading a Magazine yesterday, as I was waiting to get my Legs Waxed at the Salon and actually read a Baby article. Next year I think we will start to try to have a baby but we will wait and see for sure. I am wanting to loose about 15 pounds first! I'd hate to gain weight on top of my recent weight.. wa! I am wanting to have one around 29 or 30 but I want to make sure I can conceive first since I've never been pregnant. We figure we will start trying when I'm 27 1/2.

Saturday Dec 16, 2000 - The other night I took Bookie to the pet store and got him some party hats and a happy birthday Bandana for him to wear. He feel asleep on my lap while I was on the computer and I had Jeff get a picture of both of us. Here it is Bookie and me. He is the most precious dog I've ever seen. Yesterday was his birthday so I sang him the birthday song and their Food came in that I make for them so I made up a couple batches and they just loved it. I also gave him some Cinnamon roll for his birthday treat. I felt drained yesterday and almost slept it away! I did my show and had a lot of fun! Some of my older members where there and we just talked shit to each other like we always have done. I did my workout Video for the first half of the show. I have a show today at 1pm Pacific Time so I need to go finish getting ready.

Thursday Dec 14, 2000 - Guess what tomorrow is!? It's Bookies 1 year Birthday!! He was Born Dec 15. I'm throwing a Doggie Birthday Party!!! 

Wednesday Dec 13, 2000 - We went down and talk to a company about having that Pool put in. It was so hot this past summer that we decided we can't live here without one. Tomorrow they will be coming out to measure the yard. They are a very good reputable company. It will be in by spring so I'll make sure we install a pool CAM..:) We are having holes put in the ground of the pool for a Valley Ball net and also one for a hoop so we can play water basketball. Since we are getting the pool we are skipping the trip to Jamaica we were planning. We were back and forth about where we wanted to take a Vacation. Now it will be in our own back yard. I figured we can take that scuba diving refresher right in our own pool. If we can't get to the ocean well scuba diving in the pool just so we can practice for the big water. I cleaned up the kitchen when I got up. I talked to my Mom on Email and she is Iced in. There is no school and she didn't have to go to work because the roads are covered in Ice. Yuk! At least they can get all cozy and stay indoor. I feel sorry for the animals..

Tuesday Dec 12, 2000 - I took Tiggy down to Petsmart today and had her groomed. She seems to feel better. I am never getting another long haired cat. They are my favorite but they have to many mental problems and shed to darn much. I never said anything about what I'm about to say because I hated the fact that I had to do it. I had to put my cat Gizzy to sleep when my mom was visiting me. He pissed on my couches and my bed's. I had him on some kind of mental medication, had him tested for everything the Vet could think of. There seemed to be nothing wrong except for the fact that he was scared of everything and every noise. I tried to sell him and the people brought him right back and told me he was pissing on everything. When I bought my new furniture I had Jeff take him in to the Vet. I tried to cure him with Mental medication as a last resort but that didn't help either. I don't mention Tiggy all that much because she is a loner and isn't as sociable as the Boys. My mom could even see how sickly/withdrawn and scared gizzy seemed to be. We put him down back then but now I feel good about it. I know he isn't "Sick" anymore and I know now he was the only one doing it. I ended up buying two brand new beds and new couch and Love Seat all because of Gizzy. We can only afford so much. I still think about him a lot, I think about my cat Boo a lot more. I gave my boo away when I was having my own self inflicted problems a little more then a year ago and now will regret it for the rest of my life. I actually cried myself to sleep a few nights ago. I hope Boo is out there healthy and alive and knows I would have him back if I could. I hope he isn't lonely or scared or hungry. I hope the people we gave him to knows he thinks he's a human. My dog Bookie remind me a lot of Boo.   We had our carpets steamed cleaned today. Nothing real exciting happened today though.

Monday Dec 11, 2000 - I didn't do much this past weekend. I cleaned my house today. I had to clean my closet out also and boy was that a chore! We also went to Petsmart and got Bookie and Nemo a Stocking with play toys in it. They will like that. Bookie is so funny! I can sit outside and watch pixie chase him around the yard all day.. I think it's so funny that Bookie loves for her to chase him. He acts like a big old burly brother. Bookie has gotten so grow up and big, I didn't want him to ever grow up. He's still my Baby though, he loves to sleep in my arms. A guy (Mike_P) I talk to in my Chat room all the time sent me a book called, "Pack of Two - The Intricate Bond Between People and Dogs", I just love it and want to thank him.  I love to read almost anything about dogs. I got a copy to the January Issue of IA2000 and my add is in it. It looks pretty good. I made out the bills we had in and mail them off today also. Mondays are always the day I like to get House cleaning and bills done.

Sunday Dec 10, 2000 - Can you guys and girls vote for bookie and Nemo? Here http://www.ratemydog.com/index2.html Just click on Vote then Bookie and Nemo's Name and submit the highest rate. Pretty please, with sugar on top.? Your allowed to Vote once every day..

Tuesday Dec 5, 2000 - Pixie is doing great at potty training! Thank goodness, bookie was the hardest one. She is starting to do better and better, I will keep her for sure. I am getting attached. I have felt real good the past couple days. I worked out during my show last night. I had ordered bookie and Nemo some coats awhile back and received them today. I took a picture of them in them but I will post it later on. I spent my day cleaning yesterday. Today and I'm baking a Turkey for our dinner. I got a small one on Thanksgiving and it only lasted a day. Taxes are coming up and I never look forward to that. I don't think anyone does though. My Brother asked us to come down for Christmas but I think we will wait until New Years. Friday evening after school let out someone went by on the road that is behind our house and slung rocks at the houses. 4 Houses including mine had shattered windows. They happened to hit my sliding glass door and shatter the first panel of glass to bits. I found the rock laying on the balcony but I didn't catch them or I'd have chased them down and called the police. Those damn kids. Parents don't know how to raise kids these days! I contacted the Police and filed a report just in case they caught those fuckers. Their parents should be responsible for paying the $276 dollars it's going to cost me to replace that darn window. When all else fails and your Kid is just plane mean or destructive they need a good ass whippen and this is one of those times. Sometimes Corporal punishment is the only alternative. Anyway, for the thousandth time in my life. Do I really speak like I'm depressed? I get that way sometimes but doesn't everyone wonder about life? I don't consider myself depressed. I consider it.........Spiritually aware of how fucked up people are.:) They are!!! Just like O.J Simpson! Am I tired of hearing about that Murdering Fucking Jail Bait! Shit man, if it's not one thing with him it's another. I don't give a shit if all the Blacks Scream Prejudice! HE'S A FUCKING MURDERING PIG AND NEEDS TO BE PUT AWAY! SO GO STICK YOUR PREJUDICE UP YOUR ASS, BECAUSE HE DID IT! ahhh... He got away with Murder and now he thinks he can get off the hook on all things. 

Sunday Dec 3, 2000 - We went to Jane's Wedding from Jane's Guide yesterday and had a great time! . Her and her new husband Jim seemed real Happy about getting married. We all went out to Breakfast together then took them down to get their license at the court house. We then were going down Las Vegas Blvd and saw a pawn shop that had rings. So we stopped so Jane could get her partner/boyfriend/new husband a temporary wedding band until they could get a permanent one. We got to the Little White Wedding Chapel a few Moments after that. We waited around and talked about the web mostly and how everything was going in our lives (which is very well). They tied the knot around 1:00pm Pacific Time and they were on the Live Web Cam that the Chapel has. I was so happy for them! I could have cried but I didn't let myself.. We went out to get a bit to eat then drove them real fast to the Airport, since we were running late.  If we would have been any later they wouldn't have made their flight!! ahh!

  I am so very depressed tonight, I've been this way all day. I get to where I don't want Jeff saying anything to me because I feel everything is so Negative! I really feel disgusted! I mean it. I use to think how thankful I was and I still am to have this life working at home. It has it's disadvantages though like, being bored, staying around the same person all day every day. Then I am really unmotivated and just feel like a total fucking zombie. I use to clean my house constantly but anymore I just don't feel like doing it unless I know we are expecting company. I always tell myself, what is the point? What is the point in anything if you think about it? We are just living our life day to day waiting for our time to come and then were dead. I feel really mad, depressed, scared. Caution: Time bomb waiting to explode. Where did I go? I hate living in the city now. I use to like it but I don't like it anymore. I want a house with land and a barn so I can have horses. I have these times where I don't feel loved at all (which I really know deep down that I am). Then I feel like I just hate and I don't like myself when I'm like that. Why do I hate anything anyway? I'm going mad! Not really.. Has anyone really figured life out? No it's all a fucking scam! Give me ten percent of your income for the rest of your life so I can help serve God better kind of scam! Sorry but there was a time when my parents got divorced and we lived off $400 dollars a month and they still asked for money (the church), I don't think so! You want to know my opinion about the Bible? I'll tell ya anyway! As fucked up as this century has been and what some of our Governments and the stupidity of looking back on events that has happened. I can see Kings of many centuries ago writing their little stories into the Bible to help make it suit their way of thinking better. I believe that most of the bible is just stories produced to help the Kings, Priests or whoever get their way or have their laws be justified. I believe in God but I don't believe half the shit the bible says. How could this book we call the bible be the exact things god wanted us to know when there was so much corruption and fucked up people translating it centuries ago. We all know how many fucked up kings and how stupid people were back then. I believe those are just stories and only a small fraction of the truth. I believe there is a God but I don't believe he said all that. I guess we have to have some kind of "Bible" or standard or this world would really be Fucked up and chaotic. I don't believe in these colts that are formed either! Talking about some really lost and fucked up folks! These are the kind of people that like to twist the bible to their way of thinking to or just plain adding to it, lets hope they never get in a position of power.

Friday Dec 1, 2000 - Pixie is a cute little thing but she isn't fitting in here. I don't feel like she is going to fit in either and she needs someone who is going to make her their baby. I am going to keep her for awhile and see if she starts to fit in but if she doesn't I might find a good home for her. 

Thursday November 30, 2000 - They called today and Pixie got shipped out this morning. She will be here in Las Vegas Late this evening. I can't wait to see her.  Well, Pixie is here now. She sure did stink, whew! I gave her a bath, took her out to pee then let her eat when we got home. I am crate training her so she will be in the crate a lot. I need to give her a bath for the next three days to get that stink off of her.  She loves the food I make for them. She gobbled it down every time I feed her. I put her hard food in and she don't touch it. She needs to put on some weight so she needs to keep on gobbling. I am going to workout to my Corey Everson arm and shoulder workout tonight also. We are going to a wedding on Saturday, Jane from Jane's Guide is getting married and asked if we would like to go. Unless they don't make it here or something comes up on their end we are going. That will be fun, we haven't been to a wedding since we were married. I am happy for them, they are finally going to tie the knot. I've been thinking of calling my Aunt just to say hi and see how she is doing, life is short and I may never get that many more opportunities to. I am pulled by another force not to. I don't know what to think at times. The people who teach us in life to "Forgive and Forget" are the same people who don't do that very thing. I wish I understood why there is so much.... bitterness. I would forgive I guess. I don't know the whole story why bitterness and hate are staying though. I do know that my family (NOT immediate) talk shit a lot and like to talk about everyone else. I don't like gossip or hypocrites any more then the next person. But I would forgive if asked to, then if the same problems occur that made it that way in the fist place I guess I wouldn't want anything else to do with them. Then again they have lived more lifetimes then me so maybe more then I know has went on, over and over again.

Wednesday November 29, 2000 - I made a mistake about Pixie being here today. They got her Vet Paperwork done late so she will be getting shipped out tomorrow and will be here late noon Tomorrow. We rented some movies today and are going to watch those after I do my buns of steel workout video tonight. We went to the movies this past Monday and watched the Movie "UNBREAKABLE", what a ending! I didn't like the ending, it leaves you wanting more. You have to see it. I won't ruin it for you.

Tuesday November 28, 2000 - Yesterday the sun was going down and it looked beautiful out so I had Jeff take a picture of me with the setting sun behind me. Here is the picture Sun Setting. I've went Christmas shopping but I have a hard time knowing what to get. I am just going to send money to the few I don't have presents for. Pixie should be to her New Home (with me) tomorrow night! The Lady is going to call me and give me all the flight info and such after she ships her tomorrow. My Pixie little girl, yehawwww!!!

Monday November 27, 2000 - I am waiting to call the Lady about the Female Pup. I am suppose to call her back at noon my time. We are going to do a little Christmas shopping today. Pixi will be here at the end of this week sometime! You want to know what I'm going to put as her full Registered Name? Here it is (Drum roll in the back Ground), "Alabama's Pixie Dixie Parr",  Pixie for short.:)  Since she is coming from Alabama and she is a Girl that sounds cute and appropiate. I know a lot of you are saying, "Holly shit she got another dog!" As long as I don't go overboard and can take care of my baby's properly I think three dogs are fine. I take good care of my Animals. They even sleep with me. Even though my husband is starting to cling to the sides of the bed at night, lol..

Sunday November 26, 2000 - As I was surfing the net yesterday I ran across Frenchies for sale. I don't know if I'm going to get her yet but the lady is going to find out how much shipping will cost and if it don't cost an arm and a leg I will get this little girl puppy, she is circled in the picture I'm posting. I will call her Pixi if I do get her. Here is what she looks like Pixi.

Saturday November 25, 2000 - I noticed for the first time today how big bookie is getting. I'm going to have to start watching his food intake. Pretty soon he is going to be fatter then his head and that won't look right. He always acts hungry though! I think he has a never ending pit in that stomach of his. I sleept all day! I had one of those days I didn't feel like doing a darn thing and I didn't. I am putting us on a budget because we have not been putting that much into Savings and we need to dearly. I want to Retire and we want to have a good chunk in the bank for when we need it. We don't have much and that is a shame. Something always seems to come up but we need to start thinking about how important it is compared to saving the money for later in life. We will regret not having enough saved when the future becomes the present. I for one need to stop buying costumes for my dogs and stuff like that. Enough is enough. I am planning on taking a sewing class very soon. I want to make my own clothing for dogs and myself. I think that is a very productive hobby. The store up the street from me has classes and I am going to be in the next one. It's overdue time for budgeting!

Friday November 24, 2000 - I made some new buttons for Bookie and Nemo's website last night. I put them on their website all ready. If you do go to their website can you email me from their main page and let me know if their website loads fast or not? Anyone.. There is a link to email me from their main page toward the middle of that page. I had to go to the Grocery store this morning and pick up some ground chicken for their food I make them every 4 days. I have to clean again today, never ending task. 

Thursday November 23, 2000 - Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I made dinner today and I finally made a good Thanksgiving Dinner for the first time in my Life! Ha! I ordered Bookie and Nemo some sweaters so I can take them on a walk when it gets cold out. I ordered them from a lady who makes them for French Bulldogs. The one's in the store don't fit them because of their unique shape and size. I saw an ad in the paper today and the PetSmart up the street from me is doing some kind of fund raiser and you can get your pet pictures taken with Santa Clause so I am going to do that. Other then that I am a member to a email list and one of the members died on that list early this morning. That is so sad to hear. Since it is thanksgiving I thought I'd pass something a long to you all. Be Thankful for what we do have. 

 If you woke up this morning with more health than
 illness...you are more blessed than the million
 who will not survive this week.

 If you have never experienced the danger of battle,
 the loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of
 torture, or the pangs of starvation ... you are ahead
 of 500 million people in the world.

 If you can attend a church meeting without fear of
 harassment, arrest, torture, or death...you are more
 blessed than three billion people in the world.

 If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on
 your back, a roof overhead and a place to sleep...you
 are richer than 75% of this world.

If you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and
 spare change in a dish someplace...you are among the
 top 8% of the world's wealthy.

 If your parents are still alive and still
 married...you are very rare, even in the United States.

If you hold up your head with a smile on your face
 and are truly thankful...you are blessed because the
 majority can, but most do not.

If you can hold someone's hand, hug them or even
 touch them on the shoulder...you are blessed because
you can offer healing touch.

 If you can read this message, you just received a
 double blessing in that someone was thinking of you,
and furthermore, you are more blessed than over two
 billion people in the world that cannot read at all.

Have a good day, count your blessings, and pass this
 along to remind everyone else how blessed we all are.

Wednesday November 22, 2000 - I got a call from the printing company yesterday and they are done printing the Advertisements I had made. I have to go pick them up this morning. Jeff and I went out to eat at the Cheese Cake Factory in the Forum Shops for his Birthday yesterday afternoon. I was going to have them clap and sing a song for his birthday but I know I would want to crawl under the table if he did that to me, so I didn't do it.:) I did my Buns of steel workout at 6pm last night and I am starting to get into shape. I wasn't breathing so hard this week.:)  I went to the Grocery Store last night and picked up a Turkey and a few other ingredients for Thanksgiving. I hope my Turkey don't come out Dry like it did the last time I made dinner! Errrr.. Geez, Bookie and Nemo has a website and No one is signing their Guest Book, Whaaaa! My Niece did though. Both my nieces are gorgeous, it runs in the family.:) I have been thinking of Volunteering at the Animal Shelter once a week. There is a downfall to that. I would try to save them all! I would like to help though. Since I do have a little time to spare once a week. Not enough people who care out there, especially for the little guys who can't speak up. I spoke too soon about help sponsoring a party at the IA2000 convention! opps. There is a certain party that don't really want us to since we do Video and all so we will be there but just as a guest. All in all that's ok since I can put that money into my IRA.

Monday November 20, 2000 - I got up and went and got my nails done today. Jeff's birthday is tomorrow so we are going to do something special for that.  I got home and made out some bills then stopped by the bank and made a few deposits. We talked with Certified Amateurs today and are going in with them, sponsoring/hosting a party for Amateur Websites during the IA2000 convention. There are all ready 66 web Girls signed up to go and we are thinking at least 150 will end up going.  I have been trying to figure out what else to get in Alcohol/drinks since we are setting up the Bar.  I can't believe how much costs these things involve. I think it will be worth it. I haven't meet some of these other amateurs and will enjoy meeting them. I stay in the house way to much sometimes and am looking forward to a party. My Post Card advertisements will be made later this week so they will be done in plenty of time. I am cooking for Thanksgiving so I wish myself lots of luck! I worked out during my show tonight and I am looking better and better. I have been doing my workout tapes like I use to.

Dogs Prayer

Saturday November 18, 2000 - Geez! Jeff and I went to the Mall today and didn't even go in, we turned right around and went home after we seen how crowded it was. The Christmas Rush has all ready started! Since it has I thought I'd change the music to something more appropriate. I always look in the paper now, looking at adds for French Bulldog Puppies. There are only a couple of adds placed a year if that, because the rarity of the Frenchie. I have to confess something. I am against Puppy Mills and Pet Stores. That isn't what I have to confess though. One day in March of this year while I was waiting on Nemo to get old enough to come to his new home I saw an add in the paper, it listed other dogs but in big letters it said FRENCH BULLDOG. I told Jeff and he said, "we can just go down there and look at him to see what they actually look like in person", since we never actually see one up close, just in pictures. So we went down to this Pet Store to see what they looked like in person (VERY VERY VERY BAD MISTAKE, DON'T DO THIS). We walked in looking at the open pen to the left and was just about to ask the lady where the Frenchie was, as I looked down into the Pen up by the Register, I see a Fawn little Bat Eared man with his head slightly tilted to the side looking up at me. My heart went to mush at that moment. Jeff went around the pen and asked if he could hold him (VERY VERY BAD MISTAKE NUMBER 2!) . He just sat in his arms and laid that little head on jeff's shoulder and licked his ear lobe and cheek. I then had to hold him and at that moment in time my heart no longer belonged to me. We were about blasted by the price and I knew I shouldn't buy this little guy, but my heart told me yes and I usually go with heartfelt feelings. So I did the bad thing and brought my little Bookie home. The Moral of this story is don't even walk into a pet store that sells puppy's, especially if you are interested in getting one! If you don't  know much about why you shouldn't buy from a pet store here is a website you can Read to learn No Puppy Mills.  My dog Bookie has a few problems to say the least and I just hope I can help him lead a long and healthy life. Nemo I got from a very reputable breeder and he is as healthy as a horse. I feed them a Holistic Diet food called Essex Cottage Farms and you make it with fresh meat and it's very good and they love their meals. I just hope with this good diet that Bookie can over come the problems he has as he gets older. I love him to much to ever have taken him back.

Friday November 17, 2000 - We dropped off the disc yesterday and had them touch up the Graphics for the Advertisement we are having made. They called us this morning and we went and looked at the Proof. It looked real nice and they should be done printing them next week. I came home and read all the email I had waiting. I have been doing my exercises every night at home. I go two days on one day off. I am so sore I can hardly straighten out my arms. They are starting to get more relaxed tonight though. That's what I get for not working out like I should have been. My brother called and asked me to hunt for a website for him since he don't have a computer. I will do that sometime tonight. Jeff's Birthday is on the 21st, that's just about 4 days away! He will be the Big 35. We were talking about age today and neither of us feel that old.  We are healthy and feel good and young. That is not an Old age but who thought life would go so fast and we would be there or shall I say here.:) I sometimes wonder if we will ever have a kid. I want one (little Girl!) but not now. Life is going faster then I ever thought it would. It seems it goes so slow when you are a teenager. We started this website in June of 97, that seems like yesterday! Three and a half years ago now. If time keeps going fast I may wind up being 40 years old and decide it's the right time then. With Our business and all it don't seem possible to ever have one. My Frenchies sure make up for a child though. They sure are a breath of fresh air in my life anyway. I don't know if I will really ever be ready to have a baby.

Wednesday November 15, 2000 - We got our Lazy Boy Recliners in today and they are Recliners that don't look like Recliners if you know what I mean. My Upstairs is looking like someone lives here now. :) I called around today and I am having Full colored Post Card Advertisements made for the IA2000 convention coming up in January. Advertising the Banner Program and the Amateur Streaming Video program we have going on with the other Sites we do Video for. We also have a full page add in the IA2000 Magazine, January's Issue. I will be going down there tomorrow to give them the disc and help the guy know what we want touching up the Graphic. If you are a Amateur Webmaster and want to know how the Streaming Video Program works and want live Video, Just click on the link I just put. If there is info I need to add, to let you know more let me know so I can add it to the page. I made it and sometimes I don't realize how much extra Info I need to add. For all of you that are just visiting I leave my Guest Web Cam on again during the day. I turn it off when I go to bed though and turn it on when I get up in the morning. The Guest cam takes up to much Bandwidth to leave on when I am in bed. Damn, the only other dog I am really in Love with so far and it's an expensive one to! My Second love is the Cavalier King Charles Spaniels and they cost to.. Figures! Not that I would buy one right now. I have two boys that I love dearly but I was checking up on the Cavalier and finding out Info about the Breed. I found out how much they cost to. Just as much as the French Bulldog! Some of you might get tired of me talking about my dogs or dogs in General but I love them. I work on my dogs site just as much as I do mine lately. Even though I don't have but a couple pages on theirs, lol..

Tuesday November 14, 2000 - I found this poem and had to post it..

God Created Dog

When God had made the earth and sky,
the flowers and the trees,
He then made all the animals 
the fish, the birds and bees.
And when at last He'd finished 
not one was quite the same.
He said I'll walk this world of mine 
and give each one a name.
And so He traveled far and wide 
and everywhere He went,
a little creature followed Him 
until its strength was spent.
When all were named upon the earth 
and in the Sky and Sea, 
the little creature said "Dear Lord, 
there's no name left for me."
Kindly the Father said to him
"I've left you to the end.
I've turned my own name back to front
And called you DOG, my friend
Author Unknown

Monday November 13, 2000 - I got up today and got a delivery for the life insurance company I had applied life Insurance for. I don't think so! They not only are starting on this 6 months after we applied but they are charging me 350 dollars extra a year for the insurance! Heck no.. As long as it's taking them, we may never see any money if either of us would die. We went to the gym around noon today and ran a mile and a half. I have to make sure they send me my 150 buck I sent them for the life insurance policy. I will stick with my old company since I know they are fast and frank with you.. They are more reputable to. I did my show tonight and did 30 Minutes of my workout tape for the beginning part of it.  I worked on Bookie and Nemo's Website and added a Guest Book to it for people to sign. You know I love my family a lot and probably shouldn't talk about things I think when I am upset with situations that is not in my control. I'll probably cause more hardship then fixing the problem by putting it in here. I need to learn to keep my mouth shut when I'm worried, upset... I do love them all even though I don't agree with things whatever the situation. I thought this was a good thought for people and wanted to post it.

Saturday November 11, 2000 - I hope I didn't freak anyone out who saw my entry about believing in God. I do, it's just I have my doubts at times to. I believe something is out there no matter what name or Language we call him/her.:) I know it's not good to go back and forth but I think everyone wonders at times. I went to the Dog Show in Rancho Santa Fe California today and Watched the Judging on the Bulldogs and French Bulldogs. Most (Not All) of the people who show dogs are just plane snobs, maybe it's just California Folks for ya. Showing dogs isn't like the gun ho thing to do and if you have watched that Movie "Best in Show", I think I know now why there are so many weird people in it. I think it's like those clicks in High school. If your not in their group, they don't want to talk to you.. I just have to shake my head, some people are just real immature and want to belong so bad that they will try to act like everyone else and have what they think is their own little "click".. If I were to ever show a dog I don't think I would talk to anyone who acted like that to me not even if they came around and started to talk to me. I don't need that kind of person to be around me. To many bad vibes. I loved to see all the dogs though. The dog shows are quit boring but there are so many different types of dogs I couldn't list them all if I tried. I just love animals and like going  to see them. I thought I'd have you read this story that needs to be told "From the Leash to the Labratory"..

Thursday November 9, 2000 - It looks as though Bush will win this thing, I just hope he makes a better president then what my Vibes are sensing. I just don't feel he is what he has people believe. I am pretty good a judging character although I don't always let that be a factor and I usually give people the benefit of my doubt. If he makes a good president I am not complaining. I do think Gore will be a good President though. At least I did my part and all I could do for the man I want as president.

Wednesday November 8, 2000 - Oh Hell, they should throw away all the ballots and do a Re-Vote in Florida. Things are so messed up. Friday we are going to a Dog Show and we have to Drop off a Computer for Re-location in California. We are putting our video server on two T-1's down there and free up our T-1 we have here in our home. The video we have in our home is going to be broadcast from our T-1 here and we are going to use the two T-1's we are purchasing in California for all the other girls (and guys) we are hosting Video for. It should be much faster by next week. I ordered a entertainment center/book case for my upstairs living room that I am slowing furnishing. I want to make it into my Reading room and I am slowly furnishing it. People probably think I don't have nothing when they look at my Camera because I moved my regular living area downstairs and I don't have my Camera down there so I look like I got no furniture! I bought the pieces from the Bombay store in the mall and it also comes with different levels for books and stuff like that but I only ordered the bottom so far because it cost a lot and I am not wanting to buy and spend that much at once. It came in yesterday and Jeff and I finally got it put together last night without making it look too bad. I got a picture of it Bookcase/entertainment center... I can't wait to buy the attaching pieces and it will look superb.

Tuesday November 7, 2000 -  I voted today, and Yes I Voted for Gore of course. I don't think anyone got my Joke about the Yank so I think I'll shut up.. An inside joke usually don't make anyone else laugh anyway(has to do with Donkeys and Yanks). If Gore wins you can just think of me Jumping around my house having my own little private party. 

November 5, 2000 - My Mom works way to much and is paying taxes on her home and she has people living below her who don't pay her rent or do anything like that for her! Of course they are related. She makes excuses for them about, "They need time getting on their feet then they will probably start helping me out",. It's been what 7 years they have lived their and paid nothing! I hate to break it to her but I told her straight up that they are financially ready as they will ever be with regular Paying jobs. They are not the type to ever help her out and will run her home and budget as far as they can, to get the most they can because that is how they are. She needs to sell her home and get something smaller for just herself so she don't have to pay an arm and a leg and let, "I know who" live scot free from rent and not help her out and make her home look like the Ghetto! Of course she don't listen to me because they are family and it is hard to do that to family but sometimes doing something like making them live on their own is the best thing. She never should had asked them to live with her. I am mad that people can be so heartless. They have an obligation to keep that home looking nice and helping her out with bills since they do live there RENT FREE! They have 3 kids (the fourth kid they would have kick out on the street and left her for dead if it wasn't for grandma telling her to stay with her "How Sad!"). Talking about shitty parents! My mother has all ways been kind and that shit just infuriates me.  If you guys have a high speed connection and love animals, check this spca video out. 

November 4, 2000 - I have been downloading Wav files all night and getting different sounds and stuff for later when I need them. I just love them. All I did today was clean up my house and do my show. We went to Club Rio in the Rio late last night and danced for a couple hours so we didn't get up till 11:30am or so. The clubs here don't open till around 11pm and I wish they would open up at least an hour earlier. I put a sound effect on Bookie and Nemo's page also. hehe.. 

November 3, 2000 - I got up and cleaned up my house a bit. We went to the Cheese Cake Factory for lunch and I had a chicken Salad dinner meal, that was good. I didn't have any Cheese Cake.:) I got home and made my dogs some hamburger and a wallop of cottage cheese over their kibble. They love that. I had a show at 6pm Pacific time and had fun doing that tonight. Ariel Called me today! Her and her husband are wanting to move back to the U.S. from Finland and I will be sending her an apartment directory and a Local Newspaper from here. They are wanting to move to Vegas but are not sure yet. I sure hope they do! She has been my only real friend since High School. There aren't many people you can call friends. If she can't move to Vegas I'll be happy with her moving to the U.S. Period! At least I'd be able to visit her. I'd hire her to do shows like I did before she moved. I feel like being a Bitch and want to say, Fuck , fuck, fuck! That did not make me feel any better at all. I got a serious problem. I need some sleep addiction Therapy. I sleep like there is no tomorrow at times and life is going so FAST, ZOOOOOOOOOOOOM! Shit!. I have a belief that when we die we will just lay in that grave and Rot like a dead man. I wish I could say I believed that we had a soul that went to a good place or went somewhere. But I don't see how we could. I think most people believe we go somewhere because it gives us a sense of purpose in life and most of us were brought up to believe that. But if you think about it, we probably just lay there and rot away and not exist like we did before we were born. I can truly tell you I don't remember a darn thing from before I was born. So I guess I won't care after I die because I won't have a brain to think about it. Even though that thought is so scary. I was brought up around religion so I'm not naive about it. I do believe that in the end of our life who we are does make a difference and the Good people will have a special place in the people they have touched. I don't like Rude, Mean and Hateful people. Usually when your Rude, Mean or Hateful you will die alone and what good is that.

November 2, 2000 - I went to eat at a restaurant today and boy I sure didn't feel good after that. I am going to have my Legs Waxed today. I've been letting the hair grow out for two weeks so I can start having them waxed. When you have them Waxed the hair starts to grow out thinner and softer. I need to clean my house today, so that is what I plan to do all evening. I watched a show called, "Sex, Law and Video tape" last night on TV and I have to admit that most of the people in the adult industry are very dysfunctional. I think owning your own site like we do and the Women (Me) calling the shots and having a set of standards of what you will and won't do make it more appealing for me. The only person I have sex with is my Man and I wouldn't be in this business if someone said I had to fuck everyone on this side of the planet. Hell with that, I'd rather work in a different field. But since I do own this site and I do what I feel is "Normal" (if that's what you call what I do, lol), I love it.

Whoever said you can't buy happiness forgot about little puppies.
- Gene Hill

November 1, 2000 - It's November all ready!