Thursday Oct 31, 2002

3:08pm

Happy Halloween. I don't feel like dressing up or anything this year so I don't think I will. We had to install wing root seal around the wings and that took a little while last night and this morning. I came home then did my show at 11am pst. It was good to. I need to clean up my kitchen, bla. Last night after we were working on the plane for a bit we came home and I searched on the net for a easier way to install that root seal. I bought some clay sculpting thingy's but they didn't help that much. The mechanic came over not to long after we got there this morning and helped us. Now I know how to do it. Las night I went to Michaels craft store and bought the clay tools and I have been wanting to learn how to draw for a very long time. While I was there I got a couple books on how to draw and sketch. The other book I got is how to draw dogs. I think the dog book teaches you more about shading. I got a sketch pad and some pencils to. I've been practicing and actually drew a decent eye today. Like they say practice makes perfect.

Tuesday Oct 28, 2002

11:47am

Yesterday evening I did my Cory Everson Video tape called "Arms and Shoulders". I finish the rest of the book I was reading last night then chatted online for a bit. This morning I went to the "Rebook Core training" Aerobics Class. I'm starting to get into better shape. I don't feel as if my lungs will explode any longer, during that class. It's a full hour and it works you very good, I'm usually drenched with sweat afterward.  I have a show later today so stop by and at least say hi! If your around that is.

Monday Oct 27, 2002

10:29am

Over the weekend I bought a Wall Tapestry online on ebay. Here is a link to a picture of the Tapestry I bought. I don't have any Wall "Art" so I wanted to get something. The movers lost my Angle art so I don't have much.

Sunday Oct 26, 2002

1:32pm

I went to the gym Yesterday evening and ran on the treadmill for 20 minutes. This morning I got up and went to the Rebook Core class. That class is very good.. I got home cooked lunch then cleaned the Master bathroom. I scrubbed the shower till It didn't have a germ in it! I didn't go anywhere this weekend. That weather has been rainy so we just stayed in, worked on the computer. I am getting addicted to ebay. I need to stop going to that site! I sold some things on it but I shop a lot on there as well. I am reading a book by Jude Deveraux called "The Mulberry Tree". It's very good so far. I sure feel sorry for the lady in it. She is so nice! I know it's just a story. I just got done updating my schedule so don't forget.

Friday Oct 25, 2002

11:07am

Guess what? Eight Weeks till Christmas. I better start my shopping. I stayed home this morning and mopped the kitchen floor and dusted the furniture in the house. I don't think I'll do to much else today. Maybe clean our master Bathroom but that is it for cleaning.

Thursday Oct 24, 2002

3:35pm

I made it to the Rep Rebook class this morning. I'm Glad for that! Not much else happening besides cleaning my house. I think I'll mop the kitchen floor tonight. It's taking willpower  not to go back down to that bed and Linen store and buy a couple more blankets. They would make good Christmas gifts to. 

Wednesday Oct 23, 2002

9:34pm

I had a wonderful day today. I went to a bath and linen store and they were closing and having a closing sale. Everything was 50% off or more. So I got two blanket that are very nice "Ralph Lauren"  (queen size and a full) and also two table runners and lacy thingies to put pictures and stuff on. All under $30 bucks to. I was very surprised when she told me the total. I thought it would be more.  I chatted in my chat for awhile tonight. I had a lot of fun. I stay home a lot so I don't know many people anyway. Having everyone to chat with is a lot of fun for me. I will be going to the Morning aerobics tomorrow. I haven't been for a couple days and I'm motivated to go again.

Tuesday Oct 22, 2002

1:44pm

After I got up and cleaned up a bit around the house, basset furniture brought the replacement table top over from when they delivered the last one and accidentally drilled the bolt all the way through the other. We went down to get something to eat and my car is starting to break down. Figures the year I go ahead and buy the thing it starts having mechanical problems. I am feeling good and healthy, that is what is important. I hope all of you are as well. I am so tired of hearing the News. Why do so many people in the world hate so much? Seems like that is the Norm anymore. I think half the world (or more) need anger management classes. I even receive email that try to degrade and cut down. If a person don't have something nice to say then don't say it. No need to hurt anyone more then what life does to them in the end. If someone has a flaw, who cares? We all do. What's more important in life? Being happy and making the best of what and who we are. I know to many people who go through life unhappy about most things. This society depends to much on what I got or what I can have and want! I pray to god every night and thank him for the things I have been given that some people don't, Love..

Monday Oct 21, 2002

1:21pm

I got up and cleaned all my bathrooms today. I'm in such a bad mode right now for no reason at all. It must be PMS coming on. I feel like everyone needs to step away slowly or I may explode on a sudden movement. I really don't like feeling this way. Earlier I felt like crying my eye's out for no reason at all. I don't like this. Not a good thing! I think I may go to bed and pull the covers up over my head and hide the rest of the day. I may need to put a Warning sign on the door for Jeff.

Saturday Oct 19, 2002

3:33pm

We got up this morning and Flew to Laughlin, NV in our plane, ate Breakfast at the Casino then returned home. I'm feeling more and more comfortable with flying in the small plane the more we fly. Yesterday I went to aerobics at 4:30pm then came home and had my show at 7pm pst. It was fun I just wasn't in the mood to listen to any kind of music, so I chatted a lot and did a strip show. I have felt like a cat in heat lately. I need a big cock to just fuck me till I'm satisified. I had a boyfriend when I was 16 that had the biggest dick I've actually seen in real life. If I could just fuck him every now and again! That dick would fill me up and then some, maybe I could get some SATISFACTION. When I did have him as a boyfriend back then I was really to young to appreciate that big dick, it was BIG and kind of well, BIG. Now times like these (when I feel like I'm in heat!) I wouldn't be that shy girl I use to be. I'd fuck him and then some. He's probably married and his fucking days are over with.:( I'm in such a nasty mood, I could fuck someone's big dicks Brains out. I need it big because lately, I HAVEN'T BEEN FILLED UP ENOUGH, OR LONG ENOUGH. NOTHING IS ENOUGH FOR ME RIGHT NOW. Help....

Thursday Oct 17, 2002

7:18pm

I have done aerobics classes the past two nights so I took today to myself. I posted more Hard Core Video's of a blond girl getting fucked. Here is a sample of it Blond Girl fucking. I was online chatting tonight for a while. Not much happening with me at the moment.

Tuesday Oct 15, 2002

9:27pm

I went to aerobics class tonight. It was full to. After I returned home we took Bookie and Nemo for a good long walk. I made their Home Made Dog food tonight also. I had a show earlier today at 2pm pst. We just got the plane out from being worked on. It now has a new radio, GPS that is IFR certified, audio Panel, transponder, CD Player.

10:26am

Oink, Oink, Oink, Oink! I didn't even go to aerobics last night. Six o'clock rolled around,  I was starving so I made dinner and ate. I took Bookie and Nemo for a walk after. I also made some Muffins last night. Got up at 2am and ate to! I will be going tonight, I'll have to eat a little around 4pm so I am not hungry when I have to be going to the gym.

Monday Oct 14, 2002

3:34pm

I added the Show I did Yesterday to the Video on Demand section in the members area. It was a good show, toys and all. I also added some video clips this past weekend of a blond girl getting fucked.

9:48am

I went to the Dog Show here on Saturday. While I was there I bought a drawing with French Bulldogs on it. I framed it and hung it in my loft. I finished putting low Voltage lighting in the yard this past weekend as well. I bought some stepping stones that cost to much but they look good. They look like tree stubs. I also got my Garden Frenchie in the mail last week and put it in my yard, So now my yard is the best on the block.;) I am going to go to aerobics this evening. I'll clean up my kitchen and bathrooms today. I am going to start taking the aerobics classes in the evening so I've scheduled a few of my Weekday shows early so that I can go. The only reason I hate going in the morning is because I take a shower when I get up. Going to aerobics after makes me have to take another shower before Noon. If I don't I feel tired the rest of the day. So I'd rather take the classes in the evening so I can get stuff done.

Friday Oct 11, 2002

5:33pm

I didn't go to Aerobics today. I got up feeling like crap so I cleaned up the house a little then took a bath. I went to Home Depot and got some Garden lights and installed them around the yard. They were very easy. It even has a timer so they come on and turn of at the times you tell it to. I also got some stepping stones and put a path in the front yard. I'm tired and dirty now. When I first got back with the stuff from Home depot Jeff did nothing but get on my Nerves about the stuff and not the kind he wanted. After he left I installed everything, I didn't hear any complaints after he got back and seen it was installed.;) I think a major thing for him is having to read instructions and installing things. I like to do it, as long as it isn't a book for an instruction manual.

Thursday Oct 10, 2002

8:47pm

Well, I did NOT wear that outfit I ordered. I have about ten pounds to lose before I can even attempt to put it over my hips! I think it was made for a Barbie doll. Actually I know what the problem is, I'm just in Denial. MY ASS ISN'T THAT BIG! That outfit IS small though. I am going to 6 aerobics classes next week.

11:50am

I went to the Rep Rebook aerobics class this morning. I've been taking my Vitamins since I bought them and I am feeling much better now. I missed the last two days of aerobics class though, made me feel like crap. I still have energy and I did that class this morning. I must have been needing those vitamins. I ordered a Sexy Army drill instructor outfit for my shows and it got here today. I'll wear it for my show at 3pm pst.. I have another one on the way that is like a white tux, sexy..We rented some movies last night and I got "Enough" with Jennifer Lopez in it. What a good movie. She is one of the three female actresses I just love. It's her, Ashley Judd and one other, I can't think of her name though. Maybe later. There is a dog show here this weekend! I have to go. At least an hour or two anyway.

Tuesday Oct 08, 2002

11:25am

I went to Aerobics Classes Sunday and Yesterday so I'm taking today off. Two days on One day off kind of thing. I had to take today off either way. I did an hour of Aerobics yesterday morning (Rep Rebok class) then last night I went back and did the 30 minute (Cardio blast class). I then went by WallMart and picked up some Vitamins and some protein powder. I played with Bookie and Nemo when I got home then after about ten minutes I started to feel sick. I came up to check email then went and took a nice semi cool bath. I was still feeling bad so I ate a few strawberries then went to bed for the rest of the night. I think alot of it had to do with the diet change, I am eating a lot more protein then I was. Not as many carbs but I'm not following any guidlines either, just eating better to lose fat.  Anyway, I'm not use to doing that much Aerobics and I think being that hot and eating different did me in. The Rep Rebok class made me very sore. During the day yesterday I posted some new video Clips and Pictures in the members area, very good hard core stuff to. They are of an amazon model named fox. The other girls are several video clips of some really good facial cum shots.

Monday Oct 07, 2002

10:36am

Whew, I am making a good tuna dish. At least to me it's good. If you don't like it HOT dont try it. I put a whole can of tuna and mix with it a big tablespoon of Jalapeno's (diced), dash of Garlic, dash of pepper, dash of red pepper, pinch of oregno, dash of Season All, heaping tablespoon of Soy sauce and couple tablespoons of canned green beans and heat it for a minute in the microwave, Wala! It's so good. Would probably give most people an Ulcer though.

Sunday Oct 06, 2002

9:54pm

I did the Aerobics class first thing this morning. I wish I would not be so exhausted after I'm done. That class wiped me out,  for the rest of the day. I had to keep sitting down during my show because I was depleted of energy. I should get more vitamins. I got my kitchen cleaned up tonight, walked the dogs also, made out the bills. I read my book for awhile. I am going to another Aerobics class in the morning. I'm going to be doing 4 to 6 classes a week for while.

Saturday Oct 05, 2002

4:21am

A lady I know here in Vegas who has two Frenchies called me yesterday, about placing an add on my dogs website. She is having puppies!!! I will have to go over after the puppies are born and play! Only three more weeks of waiting. Ok! Enough of that. I am happy I got my table, it's so comfortable I sit and read at it now. Someone the other day asked about Heather on the Venus cam Network. She is still here, she is just on Vacation. She will be back on when she returns.

Friday Oct 04, 2002

11:10am

I got my dinning table and two chairs in!! Now my home actually looks like someone lives here! I just need to add a few touches later on. Maybe at the beginning of the year. I'll be on the computer most of the day. This evening I'll be chatting and hanging out if anyone is going to be at home. So join me! "hint";)

Thursday Oct 03, 2002

12:38pm

I went to Aerobics class again this morning. That makes my thrid class in a row, yipee. I'm exhausted! The first couple weeks, until your body is use to it, your always tired. But I feel like I've actually been working out. With my trainer I didn't feel like I was accomplishing anything. These classes are so good. I do a different kind every class. The first one I did was a new one called "Rebook Core training", it's a very high impact class. The second one I do is called "Power Sculpt", it uses bands and weights to sculpt and define your body. The class today is called "Rep Rebook" and it rotates monthly between strength, power and endurance formats. So I'm getting an all around workout. I feel it to. I go again Sunday. I'm doing 4 classes a week.

Wednesday Oct 2, 2002

8:00am

I went to Aerobics yesterday morning, I'm sore now. I'm going again today. I'm going to at least attend 3 aerobics sessions a week. We ordered a dinning table with two chairs at Bassett 4 weeks ago, I called yesterday and it was in. They didn't have our right phone number. They will be delivering on Friday! Now I'll have a place to sit and eat. I bought a cheap one when we moved into this house and it broke within a couple months! I won't buy anything cheap like that again.

Monday Sept 30, 2002

7:28pm

This year is going way to fast. What happened to it? I worked out this morning then mailed off some packages. I then came home and cleaned my house. I also opened a Post Office Box while I was out. I called my mom this evening and talked to her. Not much happening where she is. I'm going to get my Aerobics Certification for the gym so I can work a few classes during the week. Besides that nothing new. Same old same old. I need to start doing something original to do during my shows, kind of hard to come up with something different. Have any suggestions? My yard is looking better in the front yard, a few more plants and it will be very nice.

Saturday Sept 28, 2002

5:34pm

I've been sitting here studying and lord, I can't stop smelling cow dookie! I have been planting earlier today and I took off my gloves, the soil I planted with has some kind of poop in it, for fertilizer. I was patting down the soil with my bare hands and the SHIT won't wash off. I washed my hands real good three times and I can still smell turds!! yuk..

Thursday Sept 26, 2002

4:59pm

I got up and cleaned up the Kitchen, worked on my computer then ran a few errands. After we got home we started pulling Weeds in the front yard and there were about three plants that were almost dead or very dead. They gave us the Ugliest plants they could think of. I have no idea why a person would buy them, so I went to Home Depot and bought two Oleander <SP?>, they get big as a bush and have pink flowers. I also got one Tropical red bird or something like that, it turns red.

Wednesday Sept 25, 2002

9:20pm

I went and got a Facial today. I also took Nemo to the Vets because he has allergies to something. He was in good shape just needed some stuff to help him quit itching his feet and ears. After I clean his ears each day I'm suppose to put some ointment they gave me in them. He had a little yeast infection in the ear as well. Caused from his Allergie most likely. Since he keeps getting a recurring infection in the ear even when I clean it twice a week with Derma Pet. I got my Adobe Premiere Classroom in a book in yesterday, I'm almost done with Chapter one. I'll start Chapter 2 on Sunday or Monday.

Tuesday Sept 24, 2002

10:30am

If any of you Scuba dive and are interested in a Ladies OR Men's Wetsuit or BCD I'm selling mine on eBay. I don't use it enough to justify keeping it. I have only used it on a couple dive trips so it's practically new.  Just email me and I'll send you the links.. Also have Regulator with pressure gague.

Monday Sept 23, 2002

6:23pm

I got up around 6am this morning. I got my kitchen cleaned up then mailed off some packages. I meet with my trainer at the gym then came home and ate. I've been working on the computer a lot. Still waiting for my Book for the Adobe program I want to learn. My Mom called me first thing this morning and told me she is going to put her home up for sale. She is going to move out here somewhere. At least she will be close and I can visit her and Cookie often!  Now that Cookie is gone I miss her a lot. If my Mom ever can't take care of her I will be glad to have her little attitude self back in the house.

Sunday Sept 22, 2002

2:34pm

Oh gosh, I just learned a great thing to use for clipping your dogs nails if you are afraid to go to far the clip the Quick. Get a dremel Mini-mate at Wall Mart and use the sanding disk to file down their nail. It's much easier to do and you won't get the Quick unless you are really careless. The Breeder that I took Shelby (the foster dog) to told me about doing that. I bought one the other day and I just used it. It's a lot better to do that way, for me at least. If you have a small enough dog (like mine) you can lay him/her back on your chest and do it that way. The importance of that is the nails don't get to long and end up giving your dog arthritis or joint problems from their nails being to long and their toes always at a odd angle because of it.

Saturday Sept 21, 2002

7:11pm

We went to Long Beach, Ca yesterday and got back early this afternoon. There was a dog show near there and we did go to it, for about an hour this morning. Right after that we left. I put the cams on where my dogs hang out the most, that way I could check in on them. I only got to log in once. We both wanted to go home after we got there but we had to wait till morning, the lights on the wing tips were out and so we couldn't fly at night, then in the Morning we had to wait till after the fog cleared and it was VFR  before we could leave.  We had an interesting trip. It's Very busy out there in California. Lots of air traffic. While I was at the dog show I got another figurine for my collection of French Bulldogs, now I have three figurines. Here is the one I got there French Bulldog Figurine #3.  On the way back it was real choppy and I just about SWOONED! I thought the wind would blow our plan over, then I stared thinking of all the ways we could die when we hit the ground. I started praying in my head. "If only I could live, I would not fly for another couple weeks!" I'm so very tired and disappointed with training at the moment. I am not to big on my trainer either. She is nice though.

Thursday Sept 19, 2002

7:48pm

I just got back from picking up a Classic Single at Wendy's. On the way back I just seen the strangest thing. It looks like something blew up or they are doing missile test over the mountain. The whole back side of the mountain was lit up and the smoke that was rising behind it glowed like there was a light in it. I've never seen anything like it.. I'm not sure how far it is since the desert can be deceiving, on how far away something is. I cleaned my house real good today. I haven't been to the gym but I need a break.

Wednesday Sept 18, 2002

2:44pm

I cleaned my house up some. Worked on the computer for a bit and had to go grocery shopping. Not much else happening today.

Tuesday Sept 17, 2002

8:44pm

  I just ordered Adobe Premiere 6.0: Classroom in a Book. I'm going to make DVD's from people's favorite parts in all my recorded shows and sell it online, so I'm going to learn how to edit all that stuff myself just like I did with Photo shop. It's an Amateur site and will be in that Category, with a professional look at least. My Mom called tonight and she got home tonight. I was on the Net chatting for quit a few hours today. Had to take a break for a bit this evening.

1pm

Ahh, We are on the Im4cam right now and it's working great! Sunday night we'll have a show/get together on it. Here is the link to download it, it was wrong the other day when I posted it.

Monday Sept 16, 2002

9:34am

Damn, I still am not able to hang on! I last a day on the diet, then I say fuck it when totally hungry. Why, because I just don't have it in me. I'll workout and see if just changing little things will help me, but I still won't be able to do that comp. I just need to lose a good ten. I'm such an animal lover. I've been talking to a lady who has a very Beautiful Persian. The last time I dieted I had lots of self induced problems and I gave my cats up. Ever since I've beat myself up over it. I still haven't gotten over the fact that I could do that. It still hurts but I'm sure they hurt worse when they went to their new homes. Bookie and Nemo would not do well without Jeff and I. They are like my little Shadows. Anyway, here is a picture of him. I can't get him though. I'd have named him Casper. I have a life time to find another like the one's I had. Although Casper would be totally different. I've never had a pure white. I suppose there is a reason for those kind of mistakes in life. Like learning to never do things you'll regret.

Saturday August 14, 2002

12:24pm

Hmm, If I diet hard I may be able to get into competition shape in 4 weeks, you think? There is a Natural Show on Oct 19 in Phoenix, AZ at that time. I'm going to get the diet together and start today. Please everyone pray for me. I need the will power and mind power to do it this time. I haven't been able to diet for a very long time and I'd like to get back with it!!!!!! Pray that I don't turn into bitch from hell either.

3:31am

Every Saturday Starting Next week I will have a show that I'll be able to see everyone who wants to join. It's kind of like Cusee Me but it's called im4cam, it's free to. You can download it here.  HalfShell sent me the link and I think I'll be great.

Friday August 13, 2002

7:12pm

We flew Shelby down to her New foster Mom yesterday Morning. She took a little piece of my heart with her. I was very sad to see her go, more then cookie even. But she is getting good care and going to get Vet attention. She was so very sweet. She loved Women and would follow me everywhere I went, then want in my lap. She was very sweet and a good dog, she was not treated well by those men. Here is are a couple pictures I got of her when we went on the trip. Shelby and Shelby in Plane. Bookie and Nemo didn't like her and also fight more with another dog around so I couldn't foster her long. The lady don't live far from here at all and she breeds frenchies! She has 20 at her home and several puppies under six months old. I wanted to beg Jeff to go visit her for a couple hours but he was in a hurry to get back. So I'm going to have to convince him to go and visit her one day. I'm sure one day someone will come by and Judge me and kick me off the Rescue just because of what I do here for a living. So at least I have my dogs to lick my face and accept me for the way I am.

Tuesday August 10, 2002

8:39pm

I got everything with Fostering straightened out this evening. Shelby is going to be Fostered by a Lady in California, we fly her out on Thursday Morning. I'm glad since she has a vet that Does not charge her anything.

2:02pm

We picked up jeff's truck from the dealer today, they had to replace the battery. I returned home after that and picked up Poop in the yard and Mowed the back yard. Bookie, Nemo and myself went to PetSmart to get a couple things. I then Went grocery shopping, came home.

Shelby won't eat anything I've given her. I did give her a little cottage cheese 20 minutes ago and she ate it. I asked if there was anyone else who could foster poor little Shelby. I don't want Bookie and Nemo to be fighting again, they do when there is another dog. She needs so much Vet care. Her teeth anyway. She don't look healthy really. Bookie and Nemo look like Polished Marble (they shine) next to her, poor thing.

Monday August 9, 2002

10:56pm

I try to do good and help with Bulldogs. The Foster I just got in tonight hasn't been taken care of one bit. Her teeth are awful. I went to brush them and they were swollen and bloody. She is in awful shape, I don't know if I can foster. I don't have the stomach to see Animals that aren't treated at all! I don't think she's seen a day of Dental care in her life. Her nails haven't been cut at all and she was so dirty that I had the car window down most of the way home. I feel sorry for her because she has had the unfortunate life to end up with people who were to stupid to know how to treat a living being. I got her fairly cleaned up tonight. At least I can tolerate her smell. I was laying in bed thinking of how I could get her gums to heal a little. I figured Listerine helps with fighting Gingivitis so I took some and put some on a Qtip and massaged her gums with it. It's better then nothing, until the Rescue can send me the money to take care of her at the vets. She is so overweight that she has breathing difficulties. Never leave food out for a dog. Always try to monitor how much they eat. And please learn to brush their teeth at least once a week. It is life and death. If there is love at all for the living things in your life, then once a week seems like nothing.

4:33pm

I volunteer for bulldog Rescue and I go pick up my first Rescue tonight. I will foster her till the Rescue finds a good home.

Sunday August 8, 2002

8:10pm

I spent my evening cleaning, that is a never ending lifelong task. I put the weather thingy up top. Figured I could read the weather when I updated this diary.  There are some weird folks out in this world. People never cease to amaze me. I finished my Book. I suppose I'll read this other one I have. I ordered another book that comes next in the series, after the one I just read but it doesn't come for another few days. I'll probably start on "The Cursed" by Dave Ducan tomorrow. My brother called me tonight, he's doing good. He said he don't work Sundays since Football season has started. He's been working Overtime so has been working Saturdays. He's a Prison Guard. Sounded like he's doing good.

10:39am

I am making a page for Las Vegas Strip Clubs and review. It's still under construction and isn't linked yet. So If you have a review just submit it to my Email. I know, my diary is getting to be a website of it's own.

Friday August 6, 2002

2:16pm

Well I folded clothes then clean up the kitchen a bit this morning. I'm on the Third book in another Triology I'v been reading. This last book is called "Prophecy: Child of the Earth" and was written by Haydon, Elizabeth. I really like this series as well. Not doing much else besides working on the computers.

Thursday August 5, 2002

7am

I spent some of the day yesterday working on the computer. I put up my show from Tuesday on Video on Demand and all that kind of stuff. I've been doing cardio and need to go and work legs today. I really need to quit eating so late at night. I had such a bad night sleeping the other night that I sleep for quit a few hours yesterday. I did make it to the gym at 4pm though.

Monday August 2, 2002

1:45pm

I got up and went to workout this morning. I did 30 minutes of cardio then worked out on Weights for an hour. I am going to do 30 minutes every day 5 days a week! ra. I get to go to a dog show week after Next!! Yipeee. I don't show my boys but I like to go and watch the French and English Bulldogs then look at all the dog stuff they are selling.

Sunday August 01, 2002

9:15am

My Mom and Frank left this morning, with Cookie. I went back to bed after they left and had bad dreams about Cookie and life all morning. When I got up I called her on her cell number to make sure everything went ok. They were in Bolder City then. I have been depressed ever since they left though. I'll go visit her before Christmas. Yesterday we took them to the Cheese Cake Factory to eat. They have some awesome food. I have a online Show tonight at 8pm EST. So I'll clean my house and maybe do some cardio before that.

 We went and visited my brother and his Girlfriend for the day last Saturday. I just love her! My brother is almost 30 and is stuck in his 17 year old Brain. I so wish he would grow up and think about the important things in life. He made a comment about people staring at him when he is with her (She is 100% American but of Hispanic Heritage)! Like it matter what they think.. NOT! She is so nice and it's the first girl of his I've actually liked in so very long. His Ex Wife was and is such a bitch. Sorry but she is. Anyway, he cheats on everyone no matter what! That so infuriates me when that girl is a good person. I don't think he's cheating but he goes out without her and parties at night. That would not go in my Home. I'm ranting but my lord. The guy has two kids and nothing to show for all the work he does in life, he drinks or blows his money to. I think I'll adopt his girlfriend as my Sister and when they break up she will still be my sister! That way when she dumps his sorry ass I will still visit her. I have made and done very bad stuff to the one I love in life at times as well. The difference is I learned my lesson and know what is more important to me. My brother just does not take those things for a learning point of view, so he will never do the harder thing in life and take the road less traveled. Be Faithful!! I mean come-on. It's easy to just give up and break up or cheat on a person. Where in the hell do people learn about Commitment? He certainly has Not. That is sad.

Friday August 30, 2002

7:05am

My Mom is staying here for another day or two. I believe they plan to leave by Monday. They are not sure yet. I've been cooking since they have been here and Everything has come out very good. I Surprised myself! I need to start working out as soon as they leave. I feel like I'm a big blubber butt not doing it this week.

Tuesday August 27, 2002

8:45pm

My Mom got here today. I wasn't expecting her to be here till this evening. She is staying at an RV park. She traveled down here with her boyfriend in her RV. It's a very small one. Not much room in it. She is welcome to stay with me but she likes staying in her RV. We had lunch at my house then she went back to take a nap. I will see her again in the morning when she is fully rested. The long trip is wearing on her. We went flying for an hour and a half at 7am this morning. I probably won't fly with him just to fly, gets old. I did take the controls and fly though.

Sunday August 25, 2002

7:42am

I laid down at 8pm last night and sleep till 7am this morning. I did wake up around 1am last night but didn't get up. My Mom is suppose to be here on Tuesday. She is going to stay for a week or two. I was explaining everything about how to feed Cookie and the whole works while I was there. I hope everything is going ok, I tried to call this morning but their cell phone is giving me "All Networks are busy" recording. I miss my Mom very much. I miss my brother to but I miss my Mom more.

Saturday August 24, 2002

7:55pm

We got up at 4:20am then went to Visit my Brother and Mom in our Airplane. It was a very nice flight. We have Auto Pilot and that helps so much. Fly's better then most people.;) I'm very tired now so I think I'll call it a night.

Thursday August 22, 2002

2:30pm

We are going to try and make it down to Arizona on Saturday. My Mom is staying to Visit my brother an extra weekend so I would like to visit my brother while she is there. I was so very busy this morning. I had to pick Gizzy up on the other side of town and didn't get home till Noon. Before that I cleaned the downstairs and got my hair trimmed.. I have been working out with my trainer 3 days a week. Not much else happening besides working on the computer.

Monday August 19, 2002

9:15pm

I went to the gym and Worked out this morning. I did 15 minutes of cardio before then did Legs for an hour. I then had to go to the post office and mail out a few Packages. While I was in that Area I stopped and got some hair coloring and stuff. I am back to my Natural color again, no way am I ever dying my hair again. That red just wasn't the color for me. I have always looked good with what I was naturally born with. I got home ate then took a nap. I have Not had energy since I don't legs earlier today. My Mom is suppose to be here the end of this week. I hope she makes it all right.

Sunday August 18, 2002

10:24am

I like my hair it's Natural Color so I'm dying it back. That way it don't look like two different hair colors when it grows out. We didn't go to Arizona this weekend. The annual Inspection got done Friday morning but Gizzy had to get Signed off by someone who was Familiar with the plane before we could take it. He didn't get that done till Saturday Morning since no one was available on Friday, my brother was disappointed. We were going to go on Sunday but the Aviation report on the Weather for that evening wasn't looking to good, so we didn't go today either. Just as well since I have a show tonight. I want to move and have my own farm! Ok, I'm not going to do that for at least another ten years at least! My husband likes living in the City so I'll have to be content. I am, but I do dream of having a house with some land out in the country. We went out to dinner last night. I got done with my book yesterday morning. I felt sad when I had to shut the book and be done with it. I felt like I knew the family and wanted to read more! It was a Fantasy series. I all ready sold that book this morning.

Friday August 16, 2002

8:33am

I've been reading a very good book and have been putting off updating this diary. It's Called "Child of the prophecy" the third book in the Series I've been reading. We went flying Yesterday morning and we finally made it past the Mountain without me asking to go back. We flew to Laughlin then back to Vegas. I have to sit back and Erase my mind of all thoughts and think of something that makes me happy (my dogs mostly!). After we get up to altitude a little way, I get better. Tomorrow morning we are flying to Arizona to see my brother. My Mom is suppose to be there tonight. I'm taking Cookie with us because my Mom asked me if I would. She is going to take her and raise her. I will let her have Cookie as a Companion until she don't think she can take care of her any longer (she is getting up in her years). I've been working out this week like I should. I just haven't been dieting like I should.

Monday August 12, 2002

1:49pm

I went to the gym this morning and worked out for an hour and a half. I did Cardio for the first 30 minutes. I pushed myself harder on the resistance level and then worked out with my Trainer on Weight. I don't have any Energy left. I ate hoping it would help give me a boost but I still feel as Fatigued. I called my mom just a few Minutes ago and they left today. They are on their way to Visit. It will take them awhile to get here since they are making a Vacation of it. I've doing ok on my diet. Not bad at all.

Sunday August 11, 2002

10:22am

I've been working on my Bio page, also chatting a lot the last few days. I'm reading a book to "Son of the Shadows". So I haven't been keeping this diary updated like I usually try to do. Our plane is getting it's Annual inspection and stuff replaced on it. The guy was suppose to be done yesterday but he hasn't finished yet. So we'll have to wait to fly anywhere till next week. I've been eating better and exercising two weeks now. I HAVEN'T LOST A DAMN POUND! I know that you get more muscle mass and stuff but shit man. As much as I've been working out I should have lost SOMETHING. I don't let that discourage me though. It seems at times that when I lose the weight it will come off all of a sudden and fast. I started letting Cookie out past the Kitchen Area, only in the downstairs portion of my house. She has been good and not peed once, yet... I only use to let her in those area's, supervised only.. Since I've prevented any accidents in the past two months she has got the idea that she only can go outside.;) French Bulldogs are a little slow so you have to stick to it a little longer then the Average dog..

Wednesday August 7, 2002

7:33am

I'm wanting to do a Fitness competition sometime soon. The only reason I have not is because the dieting is so hard for me. I just can't seem to stick to them.. Hopefully this passes. I go workout with my trainer later this morning. It's upper body today. As much as I've been training lately I should be made of Iron, ra!

Tuesday August 6, 2002

9am

I think I'll be going to the gym in about an hour or so. My Mom is suppose to leave on the 10th to come visit, hopefully she comes. Cookie is going to go live with her for awhile, but by the time my Mom gets here I'm not so sure I will be able to part with her. My Mom wants a small dog for a companion (she loved cookie).. At least I will still be able to go visit and see them both. I hope my sister is doing ok. I'm not so sure how much she likes her life,  we all can be to hard on a person. My Sister drinks and it's the Hard stuff. I just hope she is happy, I just don't think she is a very happy person. Why would you need to drink to be happy or have fun? Life is tough but we are the key to our own destiny.

Monday August 5, 2002

12:35pm

I'm so very tired now. I went to the gym this morning, did 30 minutes of Cardio then workout with my trainer for an hour. She kicked my ass on legs. I am not sure if I have enough energy to mop my floors now. When I got home I ate a Bagel with tuna and Miracle whip light and carrots.

Saturday August 3, 2002

9:34am

Well, I ate too much last night. I got up at 11pm and Snacked on chips and then a bowl of Ice Cream.. I feel like a big Turd now. Ho hum!!!!!!!!! My abs are sore from the workout yesterday, she knows how to work the abs! Jeff is taking his Check ride this morning. He started at 6am and still isn't back. It's only suppose to be 2 hours long. I prayed that he passed. If he didn't pass then there may be a reason, like it just isn't time. I'm suppose to take the Steam Cleaner back this morning but I still need to do the couches so I'll have to do them after my show. But then again I just might wait till the next time I rent it. They don't look dirty. I did the Carpet and our Mattress yesterday.I've been waiting for that Movie "Signs" to come out and now that it's out I haven't been able to go yet. Jeff has been busy with tests. We may go tonight but I'm not sure yet. Yeaaaa, he passed he just called me!!!!!!!!!!! Yipeee! I knew he would. He's one of the Smartest people I've known.. That means were going to the movies tonight, hehe.

Thursday August 1, 2002

3:06pm

I got some pictures of the kids last night and today and just had to post them.. Here is Bookie being rotten! Here is one I got today of Cookie..

8:20pm

Here is a good one I got of Nemo from today. I didn't have the time to edit it earlier.

Wednesday July 31, 2002

10:15pm

I workout with my Trainer on Monday, Wednesday and Friday's. I've been doing fairly good on my diet.. Not to bad at all. It gets a little old listing everything I eat, so I'll do it a couple times a week only.. We worked legs today and I can feel them very good tonight, oweee. Besides taking care of my baby's and cleaning my Home/working on the computer, nothing new has come up. My Mom will be on her way to see me on Aug 6. They are going to stop a few places as they travel so they might not be here for a couple weeks after that. She fell in love with Cookie and I told her she could Co-own her and take her, for a Companion, as long as I get her back anytime she can't take care of her properly. I hope everyone is happy and healthy out there!

Sunday July 27, 2002

5:51pm

I've got to admit. I cheated last night but it wasn't very bad at all. I ate a cup of Seedless grapes around 10pm.. But I still feel like I'm losing some weight so that is good. I did my on-line show at Noon then cleaned up the kitchen. After that I sleep.. I have been so tired this weekend.

5:40pm- Meal 4 of 4

1.2 Cups Rice-white-cooked
1.5 Cup Green Beans
3 oz-wt Atlanta Halibut-baked-broiled
1 Multivitamin
1 Lipotropic and Transport (Supplement)

3:00pm- Meal 3 of 4

1 oz-wt Tuna in Water (drained)
1 tbs Miracle Whip Light
1 Bagel-small 
.75 Cup Cucumber-peeled-sliced

11:30am-Meal 2 of 4

Apex Chocolate Peanut Butter Cup Bar
1 Orange-Medium

8:53am

I've never really been into Meal Replacment drinks but when I paid for the 18 Session Training Course, they gave me a couple packs to try out. I really love the Chocolate one (Apex High Performance). It taste like a real milk shake. 

8:00am-Meal 1 of 4

1 Cup Cereal-Oatmeal-cooked
1.5 cups Milk-1% LoFat
.25 Cup Cottage Cheese-Creamed-Small Curd
1 Cup Orange Juice-Chilled
1 Multivitamin
1 Lipotropic and Transport (Supplement)

Saturday July 27, 2002

7:40pm

I get hungry at night but I need to make myself not eat after my last meal.. So I will not.. I have got to stick to this thing for me. I went up and bought some hard kibble dog food. It's called "Wellness" and is made by old mother Hubbard. It's a Human grade kind of food you can only get at specialty stores. Anyway, I was lazy today and sleep for a long time. This diet is so well written I'm Not suffering on it at all, like I do with my comp diets. I think the Fruit helps. I'd recommend it to anyone, 24 Hour fitness is the one that makes them up.. They are real for everyday living. The cost is included with the 18 session Training pack (they give you all kinds of goodies to). They are a lot better then a seperate personal trainer because the diet is included with the cost. The trainers are taught how to train you, all anyone really needs of a trainer is to be there to push you a little..  The diets are better then any single person could make for you (for less I might add).  A Trainer to make you a diet will cost at least 300 bucks and then it might not be something you can actually stick with. So I really recommend the bigger companies that have put money into making out some well thought out diet computer programs.

6:00pm- Meal 4 of 4

2.5 oz-wt Chicken Breast-Roasted-skinless
1.2 Cups Rice-White
1 cup Romaine lettuce
1 Cup Mixed Veggies
1 Multivitamin
1 Lipotropic and Transport (Supplement)

3:00pm-Meal 3 of 4

1 1/2 cups 1% Lofat milk
1 scoop Apex High Performance (added to milk)- <Meal Replacer Powder>
1Tbs Peanut Butter-chunky
1 Apple w/peel-Large
1 Lipotropic and Transport (Supplement)

Noon- Meal 2 of 4

1 oz-wt White Tuna in Spring Water (Drained)
1tbs Dressing Miracle whip Light
1 Small Bagel
.75 Cup Cucumber-pealed-sliced

8:49am

I fucked up again last night. I had a big piece of cake late, I was hungry. I will be on the ball as soon as I make myself not eat at night. Takes a few tries..:) We worked legs yesterday and I'm sore. Feels good!

8:30am- Meal 1 of 4                        

1 Piece Bread-Whole Wheat
1 Cup Milk-1% LoFat
1 Egg-Large-Whole
1 Banana
1 MultiVitamin
1 Lipotropic and Transport (Supplement)

Friday July 26, 2002

5:30pm- Meal 4 of 4

1.2 cups Long Grain rice-white
.74 cup Cucumber-peeled-sliced
1 oz-wt Tuna Canned with water (drained)
1 Tbs Dressing Miracle Whip Light
Multi Mineral Vitamin
1 Lipotropic and Transport (Supplement)

2:30pm- Meal 3 of 4

2 pieces Bread-Wheat Bran
2oz-wt Ham-Whole-Roasted
1 Orange-Medium
2 Carrots-Whole-Raw (7.5)
1 Lipotropic and Transport (Supplement)

11am- Meal 2 of 4

2 pieces Bread-Wheat
1oz-wt Turkey-Skinless Hen-White-Roasted
.5 oz-wt Cheese-Cheddar-Diced
1 Cup Grapes-Thompson Seedless

8am- Meal 1 out of the 4

1.5 cups Kellogg's Bran Flakes
1Cup 1% Milk
1 Egg (hard boiled)
Grape Fruit wt .75oz
Multi Vitamin
1 Lipotropic and Transport (Supplement)

8:15am

My hair color didn't turn out as light as the package. It's more a medium Reddish-Blondish..Well I started the diet (officially) today. I got hungry around 1am last night and ate some chips. I'm not letting that get to me. I'll just start off good the next meal. I figure a change is better then none at all, even if I do slip every now and again.

Thursday July 25, 2002

12:02am

I went to the gym yesterday and will start working-out with a Trainer on Friday. She took my weight today and I got so depressed from what I weighed. I told my Mom about it, so she sent me this little Inspirational verse and I thought I'd share it with you all.

3:10pm

It's Makeover day!!!! In just about 25 more minutes I'll be a Strawberry blond.. My trainer made up my new diet today. It's a diet I can stick with to! I started the diet at noon today. In just over a month I should be the new me.  I plan to lose a good ten pounds with my trainers help. I'm fed up and am doing it!

Attitude
(written by Charles Swindoll)

The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than the facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failures, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company; a church; a home. The remarkable thing is, we have a choice every day regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past...we cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% how I react to it. And so it is with you...
We are in charge of our attitudes

Tuesday July 23, 2002

9:43am

There is one thing I haven't had for a while and that is "will power". To lose any weight you have to have that.

Monday July 22, 2002

11:37am

I need to start getting up early again. I've been laying around in bed all morning Watching "The Shinning", never even saw it before. I finally made myself turn it off and get my shower and clean the house up. So I didn't get to see the ending. Ho Hum! Hopefully someone will see me on today and come and Chat! Hint, hint. Mornings are just so dead.

Sunday July 21, 2002

9:04pm

I did my online show at Noon. I went up to the Airport with Jeff and took a picture of the plane we just bought. Here it is Piper Cherokee <SP?>. It's a great little plane and we are planning on flying it to Lake Tahoe at the end of the Month when he has his license. It was a great price. We are putting the plane on a Business account since we are letting the school he is flying with rent it when we arn't using it. We will make a few hundred extra then the payments will be for it, so it's a good business decision to do that on our part.

Saturday July 20, 2002

5:04pm

I was busy getting things mailed of this afternoon. Then at 3pm I had my online show, it was so good. You had to be there to know. Not much going on but the usual, working on the computer.. I've been messing around in Photoshop trying to learn different things to do but I need to read the advanced book. It's time consuming and tedious trying to learn it by messing around. Cookie's Hernia is healing. The stitches come out Friday. I've been doing my cardio and will do 35 or 45 minutes tonight around 8pm. Most likely 45 minutes. Jeff Does his Solo flight next week. He will have his license by the end of this month. I think I'll take a nap. I know better then to take those darn sleeping aids. I did last night for the first time in a very long time. I could hardly wake up this morning. I know better.

Wednesday July 17, 2002

11:21am

I took Cookie in to get her Hernia fixed. I was fine when I got up, just tired because I didn't sleep well at all last night. I went back to bed when I got back from the Vets office. I was just grumpy but in an ok mood. When I woke up at ten O'clock I was so depressed I almost couldn't make myself get up.. ugh! I hate that. I had some God awful dreams that I half remember. Life Shattering dreams. Now I can't even get in a happy mood! Help!!! Now some Girl called and I want to punch her face in for asking for Jeff. Not like they have anything going but the fact is, it would maybe get me some relief.. Good thought, but I wouldn't actually do something like that. Do you mind if I just complain today?

     Ho, bitch, fucking Moron, damn scum, ^%&%#%$@#$%^^()(_)+_&*^&$%#@##@@##$!#!@$%&^$%@#$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, shit. I don't feel any better.

10:17am

Don't forget my Show today is at 6pm PST or 9pm EST..

Tuesday July 16, 2002

10:39pm

Anyone out there real good at Internet Advertising? Let me know, you can email me V.. I've got to take cookie to the Vet tomorrow to get her Hernia fixed. I'm wondering if I should wait till she is a little older.. I'd hate for the meds to hurt her.

6:38pm

I found a gym real close to me finally! It was hidden.. Right down the road.. I went and did legs today. Whew, that wore me out. Now I just got up from a nap and look like I was dragged through the pits of hell.

12:13pm

I didn't want to sounds like I felt like I "had" to have a child. I was just reflecting upon my thoughts about having one.. I don't want to have any regrets if I decide I will not have any is all. Anyway, I got my kids all ready! :)

Monday July 15, 2002

5:00pm

Fuck it, I'm going to the gym tonight. Tired of slacking when it comes to lifting.. Here is a little motivation to inspire you , it does me..

Sunday July 14, 2002

11:17pm

I had a good day. I had my online show at Noon then made myself some mac and cheese for lunch, with a chicken sandwich. I took a nap around 3pm-4pm. Then at 5pm I did 40 minutes of cardio. I'm working my way to an hour. I'll do 40 minutes for a week then hit 45 minutes. So on and so forth. Tonight at 10pm we Watched the "Dead Zone" on the USA Network. That is my favorite show. My second Favorite right now is "Monk" on Friday nights at 10 or 11pm, same channel. Next Monday I am taking Confirmation classes with Cookie. I may show her for fun.

Saturday July 13, 2002

9:55pm

Well today is Ten years of Marriage come and gone. Whew, made it this far! I'm proud and happy of that fact. I don't think the rest will be as hard as the first 7! I ran on the Treadmill tonight then after I ran,  I ate some chips and dip and watched TV. I gave some to my kids (dogs) to. Anyway, I was watching TV and not paying a whole lot of attention on how much I ate. Lets just say that Cardio is going to have No affect on me at all! My stomach hurts from eating so many chips.. Bla!!!!!! Now I look 5 months pregnant from eating so much.. err....

Thursday July 11, 2002

11:42pm

Man I can't sleep right now. I guess I went to bed to early now my head hurts. I'm so very worried about stuff. Makes my head burn. Poor head of mine. I'm to much like my Mom (not necessarily a bad thing), I worry to much. I ran on the Treadmill today for 30 minutes and had made some snacks for the dogs before that. After my show this evening I watched some TV then cleaned the bathroom. I haven't really had anything new to put in here so I haven't been writing all that much.

Wednesday July 10, 2002

11:43am

Can't think of anything to write. Since I help with Dog Rescue I posted a little story at the top.

Sunday July 7, 2002

3:09pm

I got up and feed the kids (Dogs) at 6am. Cleaned up the kitchen and made some waffle sticks. I went back to bed around 7am. I did my Show at Noon then made lunch. The other day when I was at the Vets office I was looking at the supplies they had and seen they were selling seat belt restraints for dogs. I've been looking for something like that for awhile. It hooks right up to their harness and then attaches to the seat belt. So I got two. I really liked this Vet to. They are all female and they sure know what they are doing. I feel safe taking my dogs to them. I haven't found a vet I liked in years. Now I have.

Saturday July 6, 2002

11:07AM

I got up at 8am (kind of late) and feed the kids. After Jeff left for his Pilot lesson I took a bath then cleaned up the downstairs. He's suppose to call me soon because we are going to take an airplane on a test ride. It's for sale and the guy is selling it for what he bought it for. It has a new engine and everything, Seats 4. We have half of the payment but will have to get the other half financed if Jeff does want to buy it. I'd like to start getting our savings account built up. I have a show at 3pm Pacific Time so I'm glad I looked at the schedule today. I was thinking a later time for some reason. I think I'll give my Mom and Brother a call today.

10:23pm

I went to Home Depot today and got a mesh wire covering for my gate. I moved back into an association when we moved back, they mailed me a notice about the baby gate I had on the inside of the Gate to keep cookie from sliping between the spokes in it.  So I went down and got a mesh cover for the gate. I have to say I did a good job on that.:) I had to screw it in and stuff. It cam out good and aligned. I also went up in the plane with Jeff and his instructor. It wasn't a good time to fly with them since they were doing touch and go's. I get motion sick. I told him before, that I don't like too much up and down stuff, so on the 3rd touch down they let me off (thank god for that). I really would have gotten sick if they would have done more with me on the plane.

  I feel bad for even thinking of Giving Cookie up. Like where in the heck would I find a good enough home? I'd be to picky and no one would be suitable but me. So even if she was sick or what ever I'd keep her right here. She don't deserve to be taken away from her new brothers and me. Don't mind me when I freak out and write in here. I'll usually get my brain function back to normal the next day.

Friday July 5, 2002

11:23am

Ok, I over reacted! That tumor isn't a tumor. It's just probably a reaction from the immunizations. Not a big deal. I have an appointment for her hernia to be fixed in two weeks.

Thursday July 4, 2002

9:33am

I took the link for the Diary out of the guest area so now only Members or past Members can view it. So besides the Members area the only link for it is if you have a bookmark for it or something. I get tired of just anyone viewing it and writing me their opinions. Happy 4th of July you all. We are going to a concert tonight. I think it will be fun to get out. Nothing new happening. I skipped my cardio last night and today we will be busy, so I will just have to do it tomorrow. The main reason I don't have a whole lot of shows listed this week is because my Aunt Flow visits again..:)

11:04pm

Well, I knew Cookie had a hernia when I got her. I found a tumor on her tonight and will be taking her to the Vet first thing tomorrow. If and when I find out and get these things fixed on her and tally the cost I might end up finding her a home where she is the baby. I haven't gotten attached to her like I am to my baby's (Bookie and Nemo).  I always tell myself nothing in life is Guaranteed and would you ask for a lifetime warranty on your own baby? I don't think so. That is why I usually am not concerned with getting one. In this case I'm starting to reconsider. To bad I'm not a Vet. I'll have them do a biopsy to check it out..

Monday July 1, 2002

7:18pm

I did cardio tonight, just got done. Felt good to. I do 3 days on then one day off on cardio. I cleaned up the kitchen and made some Dog food around 3pm. We went to look at a airplane they have for sale up at the airport at Noon. I had to go get stamps then mail out some bills while we were at it. I picked up some Groceries but I don't have anything in the house that I want for dinner at this moment.:( I hate when I do that.

Sunday June 30, 2002

6:00pm

I'm Not up to much. I cleaned the house today. I had an early online show at Noon today. We did go see a Movie a few days ago called "Mr Deeds", it was very funny.. I am glad I went and saw it. I called my Brother today. I'm not stingy or anything like that but most of the time he's broke or something. I use to be broke all the time but I had my bills paid and food in my fridge. As long as those two things were ok, I didn't feel broke. How does that guy never have a bill paid but can afford to buy beer or go out?  I don't like feeling like I'm a parent but I went without a lot and still lent him money when I didn't have a very good job. I offered to send him a little bit, so I will. I offered before I thought, then could have stuck a shoe in my mouth! I don't mind helping out when someone needs it. But I believe my brother blows his money and never learns his lesson. So why should I give him anything? I love the guy but I don't like calling him or going to visit him, I feel like he's always going to say he's broke, even if he can afford to buy beer! I would tell him how it is, but he'd just get mad. Someone remind me before I go visit him again and forget how it goes.

Saturday June 29, 2002

7:56am

. Besides that, I've been good this week! I did Cardio for the last two days 35 minutes each time. Today I'll be going to the gym.. Gotta get back into it.  Besides that Jeff did his first Solo flight this morning! Yipeee, he'll have his licens sometime next month. That means I can plan to fly down to see my brother! Get there in two hours instead of 5!

Thursday June 27, 2002

10:14am

I'm officially 28..  That means in two more years I will be the age where you start forming wrinkles! Ok, no big deal. I am making a commitment to myself. No Sun, no sun, SPF 10 OR MORE on my face, arms and any unclothed area. I'm a white girl and you will see me glow!;) I need to start eating better but that is neither here nor there since I can't stand to eat healthy. Can't can't can't, yuk! I'll get a facial at least every other month. Ok, on with my life. I had a good birthday. Jeff took me out to eat. I went by home Depot and got a new plant that will turn into a pretty bush. One of the plants in my back yard died so I replanted the new one where that one was. I got some Miracle starter grow and gave it some food. I've heard that if you talk to plants it helps. Maybe I'll start to talk to it every day and see if it grows better then the rest.

Tuesday June 25, 2002

11:18am

Oh gosh, I put on my pants and they are soo tight today. I think I've gained a few. No, I know I've gained a few. Jeff bought me a Facial and Massage for my birthday and has made the appointment for today at noon. Thank you!!!!  I need to do Cardio but I've said that a thousand times this week. Hopefully my brain will function properly sometime soon and I will get my ass on that stair master. I'm 27 for another day. I can't wait till I get over this roller coaster weight phase of my life. I feel like my body is a yoyo.

Monday June 24, 2002

11:40am

As soon as Jeff gets that pilot license he's going to fly us to see my brother and we'll go to dogs shows in California so he can get his hours in. He's wanting to get his instructor license as well so I may just end up getting my private pilot license as well.

Sunday June 23, 2002

10:16pm

damn, I feel like crap again tonight. What happened to the time when I could eat a whole plate of Pasta and not feel so Bloated and Turd like! Then there is the issue of getting up in the morning and feeling like your starving to death, because that pasta from the night before made your stomach streach out. I need to do Cardio! Darn, I hate it. I don't hate it, I just get so bored with it!!!  My Birthday is the 26th...... Like I'm getting real close to the big 30. Holy shit, where did time go? I don't feel like I should be making my way to 30!!! NOOOOO NOT YET! I'LL BE DEAD IN THE INSTANT OF A MEMORY!  What happens after this chapter of my life? Nothing last forever. That brings up the issue of my best friend in the world leaving me! What happens if my Mom would die? Who would I have to talk to when I had problems? Oh it's just not very sane to think like that! A person could go nuts trying to figure anything out. Expecially when it comes to, "What is really the point of life?"!! I'M STILL 27 DAMN IT! OH NO! I'M GOING TO DIE SOON!!!!!!!! I'll be 60 only a couple years from now!

Saturday June 22, 2002

8:20pm

I ate to much today. Tomorrow I am starting my cardio! Fuck this. I'm not up to much lately. I did my online show at 3pm pst today. Anyone who likes to try to say my diary is boring can kiss my ass. I can do what most other sites do and make a "Fake Diary".. Love the rest of ya!

Wednesday June 19, 2002

1:28pm

I had to take Jeff back to the Dentist today. He had a tooth pulled on Monday and it's infected and his face is swollen. They gave him some meds for it. I have my show tonight at 6pm pacific time. Not much else going on right now..  HalfShell wrote a Fantasy so I had to post it. It's in the Fantasies link on the left.

Tuesday June 18, 2002

7:15pm

My brother left this morning. How depressing, I miss him. After he left I went back to bed then went to the WallMart Superstore to pick up a few things we needed. I am making my own return address labels and putting a French bulldog logo on them. I like doing projects like that. They came out really good to.

Monday June 17, 2002

9:35pm

I had a fun weekend. My Brother is here till tomorrow morning then he's going back home. They live in Arizona. I'll miss him. We went to Harraha's Comedy Club Sunday night. I laughed till my gut hurt. Besides that we went out to eat and stuff like that. I need to get back to my workout routine. I'm exhausted tonight. We went to Shark Reef at Mandalay Bay earlier today.

Wednesday June12, 2002

4:52pm

I cleaned my house then did my online show today at noon. We had to drop something off at our Accountants then I had to pick up some cans of puppy food. We also had to get a new fax machine.

Tuesday June 11, 2002

5:13pm

 Most of my yard is wall except the gate.. I mad Homemade snacks for them today. They are called Carob doggie Brownies. We went to the gym and did 20 minutes on the Treadmill today. Then we stopped by Wallmart and picked up a few things.

Monday June 10, 2002

8:45pm

My Brother called me last night. He's going to be visiting me this upcoming weekend. It's be so long! I can't wait. Hopefully nothing changes and he can make it. Jeff's been taking his pilot lesson three times a week now. I suppose no matter who you live with, they will eventually get on your nerves and under your skin... So take your dogs for a walk and get away before you decide you want to punch their face in. That is what I do. It didn't help though. I need a punching bag. Not that I would punch anyone! Just the punching bag. I made chicken and dumplings tonight. It came out good, but not great. Oh fuck it. I can tell I wasn't a chef in my former life.  I spent 2 1/2 hours at the DMV this morning. They had to call the finance lady at the car dealership and have them fax a Green slip. So I waited an hour just for them to do that. What a pain. But it's done and over with now. My car is registered for the last time! Hopefully I won't have to go down their until I need to renew my DL..

Saturday June 08, 2002

9:13am

 Yesterday we went and did 25 minutes of cardio on the stair master. I can feel the pounds dropping all ready. The 4th of July we are going to a concert. Jeff wants to go see Meatloaf in Concert so that is what we are going to do.

Thursday June 06 2002

3:51pm

I've been trying to come up with an advertisment web banner to put on other sites. I haven't come up with anything that I like yet. If anyone out there knows how to make them or knows someone that can make a good video type banner let me know! For an adult site like mine of course. I should have a front page design contest. Whoever makes the best logo with button's for the new front page wins a years membership.. I get ummmm, brain farts.. With more then just my pic, something with content I have from the Members area to.. Fart, Fart, Fart!

10:38pm

I did 20 minutes on the Stair Master today. It felt good to. I had to go sign another form for my car then pick up a few things on the way home. I then had to stop by the post office and mail out a mouse pad order. Busy, busy, busy.

Tuesday June04, 2002

12:33pm

I've been sick all this week. Maybe it's something I ate, I'm not sure. So that is why I haven't been at the computer a whole lot. But I'm still answering my mail and all the important stuff. If I'm not working on the computer I'm in bed.  I hadn't done dishes since Sunday so I had to get them done this morning. I am in such a foul mood though.

Sunday June 2, 2002

7:41am

It's June all ready. That means it's my Birthday this Month. Another year older, Ahhh.. I'm climbing that hill to the end. THEN I'LL JUMP OFF AND BE GONE! I have a warped sense of looking at it don't I? Anyway! My Mom sent me this little clip and I thought it was inspiring so I wanted to share it to, Riversong Greeting

Friday May 31, 2002

8am

We are going to see "The Sum of all Fears" today. We have been waiting for it to come out. I called my Mom again this morning and talked with her. She seemed like she was sleeping. So I didn't talk to her for very long.  She stared going through it by herself yesterday afternoon. Now she is doing it without hesitating.

4:31pm

I made dog food today then I made Home Made Lasagna, yum it was so good to. Last night I made home made cherry cheese cake. That turned out real good to. I have a cook book my Mom gave me and it has all the good recipes she use to make in it.

Wednesday May 29, 2002

4:02pm

I just got back late last night. I had a great time at my Mom's and I also picked up the little girl. I named her Cookie. I have her on camera right this moment (the Voyeur Camera).. I meet the Amish people that my Mom is friends with. They are fixing the siding on her home. I went to their home and rode one of their Morgan Horses. It was fun but since the horse I was on was Pregnant I didn't want to ride her to much. I loved it out there. They have a harder life since they don't believe in Modern Convinces. Like Electric, running water. The family I was at had around 15 children. They basically have one every year they are married, almost. They do believe in going to the hospital if they are sick, so that is good. I don't think I would be very good at living like that. The women tend their own gardens and make their meals from Mostly what they grow and the animals they have. My family would starve within the year since I don't know how to cook a whole lot. All my plants would die as well since I don't know much about gardening. Also, I would not want to have a kid every year of my life till I couldn't have any more. I think their way of life is much simpler then ours though. I like them a lot. I actually asked my mom in front of a few of the Amish men we were taking home if I looked ok! At the time I didn't realize that they didn't place appearance like we do. I felt bad for even asking once I was there. The Women and Children go bare foot during the summer, unless they are going somewhere. They don't take a bath but once a week or so. Most of the children and women are pretty dirty from working and stuff. It was different to be around them. I actually liked how simple they lived. I couldn't though. I would never survive. I'd die of Starvation or something. I'd have to resort to eating grass.

Friday May 24, 2002

10:17am

I've been cleaning my house all morning. I go to my Mom's tomorrow for the weekend.

Thursday May 23, 2002

5:09pm

I had to get a new hair blow dryer today. I went up to Target and got it. Mine started having sparks and I noticed that the wire had burned through the rubber cord. So I threw it away. Thank god I didn't get shocked. I also had to go by the Bank and check our P.O. Box today. I go see my Mom Saturday morning. I miss that Women!

Wednesday May 22, 2002

1:16pm

I just finished doing my online show. It went fast since I had weights to lift and a lot of people to chat with me. I am starting to watch what I eat. I am going to try not to eat after 6pm in the evening. It's hard to do at times. I dropped off my car this morning and they put the Stealth Anti Theft system in it. So I need to pick it up now.. I cooked yesterday for us (made snitzle) and also made dog food. Today I'm going to make the dog treats I make for them. I go visit my Mom over the weekend and can't let them go without their treats. While I'm visiting we are going to go visit my dad's grave. It's memorial day so I think it's good that we do.

Tuesday May 21, 2002

4:23pm

I have a show in a half an hour. I think I'll do a nude workout type for the first half at least.

8:10pm

I did my show at 5pm. I workedout and did some very sexy stuff. After I ate dinner then watched some more of a movie we rented "Rose Red". That is one long movie. We started watching it last night and we did again tonight for two hours. I need to go look how long it is. I think it's at least four hours. I'm so happy! My Home and family are my one and only dedication. I talked to my Mom tonight. I really don't know what I'd do without her. She is truly the only person I can speak freely with.

Monday May 20, 2002

9:51am

I redid my schedule and I have five online shows. Monday thru Friday.

7:14pm

I just got done from walking/running Bookie and Nemo. They are so funny when they run. Jeff was taking a nap so I thought I'd go alone with them this time. I love to let them run (on leash) and run along beside them until they want to stop on their own.  I had my show from 5-6pm PST tonight, I used Rocko. After that I made myself a TV dinner. We got in an argument earlier today. About the puppy. I hope that everything will be ok. My head burns with worry sometimes.

Sunday May 19, 2002

9:15pm

Girlpearl left to stay a couple nights at her friends home. We were suppose to go to the Lori Morgan concert las night but I wasn't feeling good. I didn't go.  Jeff dropped her off and picked her up.  I laid in bed most of the day yesterday. I'm feeling better today. I've been reading a book by Judith McNaught. I cleaned up my kitchen tonight. This morning I did laundry and folded clothes and put them away. Tomorrow I'm going to start doing cardio. I have five shows this week. This Saturday I go see my Mom for two days.  I called her and talked to her on the phone this morning.

Saturday May 18, 2002

10:15am

Girlpearl and I will be going to see Lori Morgan tonight. I think this is my first Country Concert I've been to see. We went out to Hover Dam Yesterday evening. It's most impressive to most people who see it.

Thursday May 16, 2002

7:55pm

Well on Tuesday night after Girlpearl got here , girlpearl and I  had a little to much to drink. The next day we had a hangover and I could hardly get out of bed. We drank on camera and chatted with everyone. Got a little naked to. So yesterday was a day of recuperation. Today I went down to the Chrysler dealer and financed my car that I was leasing from them. I am now buying it instead of leasing. That took up most of my morning. Girlpearl and I stopped at Blueberry hill and ate lunch. We chatted again tonight. Tomorrow we have a show but we're going to workout legs during it. She is at least going to think she has muscles when she leaves here.;)

Sunday May 12, 2002

6:00pm

I finished my Book today. I think I'll wait to start on the other after Girlpearl goes back home. This week will go by fast with her here. A few days after GirlPearl goes back home I go visit my Mom for a weekend. I can't wait since I'll be picking up my little girl Frenchie then as well! So far I've sold five books on Amazon. That's good since I will have some extra room in my book case.

7:29pm

 I have been cleaning my house and will as well tomorrow so when girlpearl gets here I won't have much to do. We are going hiking out at Red Rock while she is visiting and I'll get some pictures for the website while were at it.

Saturday May 11, 2002

Noon

I sold two more of my Books on Amazon since yesterday. I'm relieved I can sell the old one's, then I'll go to the used book store or buy more or on amazon. I love romance but I also like Fiction. I'm reading one now called "Whitney My Love" bye Jude Deveraux. It's so good to. I sometimes hate when I get a book that good. I can't put it down and forget things I'm suppose to do.

Friday May 10, 2002

8:47am

Yipeee, I sold two Books on Amazon.com all ready!

Thursday May 9, 2002 -

3:18pm

I went to two used Book stores today and got some more books. The first one didn't do any Book trades or anything. The second one did but were over stocked on most of the books I had so they wouldn't trade. So I collected all my books up and put them on Amazon.com. So hopefully I can get rid of a few of the one's I've all ready read.  My Mom called me and I talked with her for a few. Girlpearl will be here on Monday! Can't wait.

Wednesday May 8, 2002

7:07pm PST

Man I am so down this week.  I have no reason to be either.

Monday May 6, 2002

8:42am

We went to the Super Wallmart yesterday to do some Grocery shopping. I thought they would have more then the regular Store I usually go to, they didn't have any of the meats that I was looking for. So I still need to go to the Grocery store and get those. I'm on my forth book this week. I love how Julie Garwood writes. She is a very good writer. I looked through the phone book yesterday and found a used book store I can go and trade in some of the Novels I've all ready read. I want to get Judith McNight called "Whitney my Love". I was eating my lunch while I read the book I got called "The Whelping and Rearing of Puppies". I then came across a picture of a female giving birth and just about puked my lunch. I don't recommend reading that while eating. Wait till your in bed or something.

11:00am

I was watching the interview with Mike Tyson on one of the News stations today. My god, that man has a brain about the size of a bird seed. He has some serious mental issues to. 

9:17pm

I can feel the clock ticking down to the last hours of PMS. Tomorrow I will have my period! Noooooooooo!!!!

Sunday May 5, 2002

1:24pm

I sleep in very late today. I really need to quit eating those subs I make. They are very good but I'm not doing good at losing any weight eating them. I probably have gained a little bit. I need to go and get some groceries today. I will clean up my house as well. Girlpearl is going to be here next week! We will do a show for you all to. She is a girl I've known online for quit a few years now. We just haven't actually meet in person. She will be staying with me a week.  I pick up the little girl puppy when I go to visit my Mom On May 25-28. I actually get there on the 25, I'll pick up the puppy on the 26th. That way it will give her a couple days to adjust to all the new people around her before we leave on the plane. Then I fly back with her on the 28th.

Saturday may 4, 2002

11:42am

I went and got my hair trimmed this morning. After I got done I stopped by the market and picked up a few things to eat and dog food ingredients. I got home and my down stairs looked like it was ransacked! Oh, but it wasn't anyone's fault but two little rotten dogs.  Thank goodness I don't keep anything harmful in there. Plus, the pillows on the couch were all over the floor. I think they had a party. Anyway, he's been laying around belching ever since I got home. I told him it deserved him right having tummy upset. It was my fault for leaving that door ajar. So I feel sorry for the poor thing.

Friday May 3, 2002

12:36am

 I miss my Mom and my family. Life seems just so futile sometimes. What is the point? The one goal all humans seem born to achieve? Wealth? Hmm, there is something very wrong there. Where does happiness go? In the end it won't matter since we will be dead. All our possessions could all go to the Government if they deem it their wish. So what is the point in owning land? It really isn't ours to own anyway, should be natures. Nothing is very simple.

12:28pm

I laid in bed all moring and read a few chapters of my book. I was up late last night and am starting my own Fantasy page. I write little sexual whims. My Fantasies page.

Thursday May 2, 2002

9:00pm

Well, I cleaned the house and worked on the computer today. I had my show at noon pacific time. I worked legs then got real nasta.;) Since my Mom reads this I won't say. Girlpearl will be here May 14 and we are going to give a great show! Not much else happening.