March, April, May 2001

Wednesday May 30, 2001 - I am glad Jeff convinced me to move to Florida. It took some Coaxing on his part but now that we have Friends that live right down the Street, they are in the same type of business we are, it makes life a little less Isolated. I wanted to move far from Vegas but Florida wasn't exactly what I had in mind at first. More like Kentucky.  It's nice here and we can Dive any time we want. The weather isn't so bad and hot. As soon as Kristina Returns I'll see if we all can find a good spot to take Photo's for more pictures for our photo Gallery.  We are going on a Shark Dive so I am looking forward to that. I may start doing Power lifting Comps again since they seem to have quit a few of them a year in my area. I was looking at the stats on some of the Female Competitors down here (in power lifting) and I could blow them away and I haven't even been training hard. When I was in high school I had all kinds of trophies from Power lifting. Most of those trophies are in Shambles now. Can you believe I still have my Knee wraps from high school?! I'm not a Vain person so Beauty or Muscle type comps don't appeal to me as much as something like Power lifting does. That don't mean I don't like compliments though...:)

Tuesday May 29, 2001 - I feel so much better since I went to the gym this afternoon. I worked legs, that sure helped me workout the stress of staying in and doing nothing but computer work. I am starting a new routine. I'm going to the gym to lift. I'll do my cardio at home. My dogs are so nasty sometimes. They have been catching Lizards and playing tag with them! By the time I found what they had last night the poor lizard was torn to bits! Made me gag. My new name for Bookie is Lizard lips since he had the poor lizards head tucked away in his fat little lips. It fell out a little while after I had cleaned up the lizard they had torn apart. I don't think I'll be giving him kisses for awhile. yuk! I brushed their teeth later in the night. I guess I'll brush their teeth more then I have been now.  I have a show tonight at 7pm Est so I have to make a plan.:) We took some pictures for my picture Gallery tonight and I thought I'd post one of the one's we took during the photo Session. Me 05-29-01..

Monday May 28, 2001 - Holly Shit. If it's the only thing I do, I'm going to start hitting the gym again tomorrow. Boy, do I feel like a couch potatoes who's been sitting to long. I'm going to lift weights like I use to, not for the tedious Cardio which I really hate doing in a gym. If I'm going to do any cardio it will be here at home or outside pounding the pavement. I hate always living Inside. No matter what I do everything is done inside and I'm very tired of it. I got a damn Headache from just being here. 

Sunday May 27, 2001 - I've known a lot of people who are pretty to look at, but empty once you opened the package. That and screwed up.:) I have a show at 9pm Est tonight. I went shopping with Kristina and got a sundress that was on sale today. Since I'm in Florida and I'm outside more I need these cool fitting clothes. I can't wait till we can close on our home. 

Saturday May 26, 2001 - Man, What is up with the Net lately? Slowwww! I could hear my own echo.:) I have a show at 8pm Easter Time tonight,  I will use my favorite Dildo and all that nice kind of stuff. I have to make my dogs food today also. 

Friday May 25, 2001 - Jeff and I went to the movies with Kristina and her hubby. We seen Pearl harbor and I loved that movie. There is a French Bulldog that is rolling a ball in a very small part in the first part of the movie. That was a treat to see. Besides that it made me cry a little. I think it's worth seeing. I usually don't like war movies. I liked Pearl Harbor! My appetite has been outrageous these past few days. You'd think I was pregnant the way my appetite has been! I have to put a handle on it before I start to gain back any weight I lost. I haven't been doing anything but Computer work so I can't say it's been exciting. I won't be dancing again. You have to have a "Dancer Card" from the county and I refuse to get one of those. Forget it.

Wednesday May 23, 2001 - I did my show earlier today. MMM. We picked up our comforters from the dry cleaners. I spent some of the night tonight working on my dogs website. Email me at the above link and tell me what you think if you feel like it. Their site is Bookie and Nemo's place.

Tuesday May 22, 2001 - I'm back all ready! We get bored to easy. Other then scuba diving there wasn't much else to do at the resort we stayed at. Bookie and Nemo were not eating their food either so I was very worried about them. The best Resort we have ever stayed at so far has been Sandals Montego Bay. We will go back there next time we plan to Vacation. Living in Florida now, it will be a lot cheaper to go. We did see some interesting fish around the reef on the dive today but no Dolphins or Sharks. I am so disappointed. We didn't go on the dolphin dive the Dolphin Research Center had because it was 4 hours long and was mostly learning about dolphins. Only about 20 minutes of it was actually swimming with Dolphins and it was expensive. I will get a chance to see them one day.. I can't wait till that happens though. I got a few pictures underwater. I just hope they come out good. If they do I'll post them. I was good for one dive today at least. We went back after that. I was starting to feel the sea Sickness come back when we got back on the boat.

Monday May 21, 2001 - I swear a ghost keeps resetting my buttons on that damn dishwasher. I'm going to the Keys. I just got done doing my show and cleaning up my home. I'm packed and ready. I'll only be gone a couple days. I can't wait to see Dolphins!

Saturday May 19, 2001 - Yesterday I cleaned up the house, then at 4pm I had to go to the Lawyers and pick up my Corporation Paperwork. I gave Bookie and Nemo a walk later in the Evening. We are going to the Florida Keys Next week since it's only a 3 Hour Drive. I can't wait! Only for a day or two. We are taking Bookie and Nemo with us so they can have some fun to. I need to pick them up some harnesses and life Jackets so if they get in the water somehow they will be ok.. I don't expect them to do that though but I like to be safe. We are going on a "Dive with the Dolphins" dive,  I'm so excited I could scream..;) I have shows on here so I can't be away for too long. To bad no one in my family calls me to talk really unless they need something. Maybe just my mom but she don't answer my email. She don't call me at all since she has this new boyfriend. I'll set his ass straight if I even think he's using her. I won't jump the gun. I'll make sure I'm right first. 

Thursday May 17, 2001 - Haven't been on my diet to strict, just eating sensibly. This morning we went diving off the beach and for the first time it was very calm and clear. We only went down to about 20 feet but we did have fun. Here is a picture of me right before we went into the water. Venus Diving..

Tuesday may 15, 2001 - The only thing bad about the home we are buying is the Insurance is going to be high. Since we are only a few blocks from the ocean it's more likely to get a direct hit if a hurricane would come through. I'm not worried though. The house was built in 1950 and is still standing and in great condition. At least with hurricanes you get advanced notice and can get out. I envy anyone with a close Family. Mine isn't all that close. I really don't know anyone who is Really close to their family.. I guess there are too may "Judges" out there for anyone to really be a close knit family.. Seems to me the Mafia is closer then most families... I have been reading Romance Novels way to much and think the Families in those things are so.....perfect. To bad we don't live in a perfect world. My Mother is the only one who I'm really close with. I'm talking about Family as a whole.

  Haha, Someone sent me this and I wanted to post it.

Cinderella is now 75 years old. After a fulfilling life with the now dead Prince, she happily sits on her front porch in her rocking chair, watching the world go by.
Her constant companion is a cat named Bob.
One sunny afternoon, out of nowhere, appeared her Fairy Godmother.
Her Fairy Godmother said, "Cinderella, you have lived an exemplary life. My final deed toward you will be to grant you three wishes.
Cinderella was taken aback, overjoyed, and after some thoughtful consideration uttered her first wish:
"I wish I were wealthy beyond comprehension." Instantly, her rocking chair was turned into solid gold. Cinderella was stunned.
Bob, her old faithful cat, jumped off her lap and scampered to the edge of the porch, quivering with fear.
Cinderella said, "Oh thank you, Fairy Godmother".
The Fairy Godmother replied "It is the least I can do. What does your heart want for your second wish?"
Cinderella looked down at her frail body, and said: "I wish I were young and full of the beauty of youth again". At once, her wish became reality, and her beautiful youthful visage returned.
Cinderella felt stirrings inside her that had been dormant for years. A long forgotten vigor and vitality began to course through her.
Then the Fairy Godmother again spoke "You have one more wish, what shall you have?"
Cinderella looks over to the frightened cat in the corner and says, "I wish for you to transform Bob, my old cat, into a kind and handsome young man".
Magically, Bob suddenly began a transformation. When complete, he stood before her, a man, so beautiful the likes of which neither she nor the world had ever seen.
The Fairy Godmother again spoke, "Congratulations, Cinderella. Enjoy your new life." And, with a blazing shock of bright blue electricity, she was gone.
For a few eerie moments, Bob and Cinderella looked into each other's eyes.
Cinderella sat, breathless, gazing at the most stunningly perfect man she had ever seen.
Then Bob walked over to Cinderella, who sat transfixed in her rocking chair, and held her close in his young muscular arms.
He leaned in close, blowing her golden hair with his warm breath as he whispered,
"I bet you regret having me neutered now, don't you?"

Monday May 14, 2001 - I am back on track and thinking like I was when I first stared my diet. from today till Friday I'm going to stick to it and see how much I weigh on Saturday. I'm going to practice those Tae-Bo tapes this week also. I am making myself some Breakfast (egg whites and Potatoes). I went to the gym and did legs today. We dropped off four kings size blankets at the Laundry to be Laundered. Then went to the Store and got some Tide Detergent for the Laundry. I stopped by Merle Normans and picked myself up some Night Time Recovery Cream for my face. That is the best one I've found. Other Creams make me either break out or are over oily period, or just not Moisturizing enough. But the Merle Norman night Recover Cream makes my face feel relaxed when I put it on. It's expensive as hell but that is the only thing I buy from them. I can wash my face with Oil of Olay and not pay an arm and a leg. I would have never started using them if I hadn't went in and bought something and then they gave me a bunch of Samples of stuff.. After I paid for my purchase I had realized why the hell they didn't put price tags on their products. I about had a cow when they told me how much my one little product cost! I am glad they gave me all those samples. I actually used those samples and found a cream I really liked. I still haven't used all of the Cleanser I originally bought there. But I got to admit I love the Night Recovery Cream they sell. 

Sunday May 13, 2001 - I just got up and it's 7am. I haven't lost any weight  the past few days. I've been out all day and haven't been able to stick with the diet. Today I'm on the diet since I will be at home and not hunting for a home to buy. If I'm not home I can't  cook healthy and we end up going out to a restaurant to eat. I did my show from 8pm last night. It was fun but not a whole lot of people showed up since it was Saturday night. I just got done eating egg whites and Potatoes. I need to start getting ready for the gym now. 

  Oh hell, that is how my diet is going anyway.:) I am trying to find a company to give me a good mortgage rate so I went to lendingtree.com and ditech.com to see who will give me a better rate then my Bank. I submitted my application so they should be getting back with me sometime tomorrow. Gosh, I email my sister and the women don't email me back. Although she does work a lot. I wish she would. I got a tae-bo tape someone (Weaz) sent me in mail, thanks so much! I will have to start doing the Instructional untill I get the moves down. Then I'll move on to the Basic. I think I'll do the Instructional tomorrow night then do it at least 3 times a week. I like having something new, I get bored when I stick with the same routine too long. They accepted our offer on the home so we WILL be getting it (of course they accepted).. Yahoooo!

Saturday May 12, 2001 - Yipee! We found the one!! It's a small cottage type home with wood floors and if we need to, it's in a price range where we could add on if we needed to in the future. We put in an offer for the full price so we will be getting this home. It's a few block from the ocean Inlet and a block away from the gym. I am so happy I could scream! It was built in the 1950's but has been updated and upgraded with new standards. Very nice to. I'm relieved that I don't have to House hunt any longer.  I hope!

Friday May 11, 2001 - We found a home that I am just in love with. It was built in the 1920's but it's made out of concrete and is very well built and very well taken care of. They had a fiber glass pool put in it just last year and it's all screened in with the Patio area. It's out of my price range that I'm looking in and I am not happy that my Realtor took us to look at it. Oh well. Can't have everything in life we want. Were going to keep looking. I hate wanting things though. I got up this morning and had Cream of Wheat with Egg Whites. A few more days of dieting and I should be where I want to be in Weight.

Thursday May 10, 2001 - I haven't been sticking to my diet as strict as I should have been but when I got up this morning and I weighed 139! I will stick to it till I weigh 135 then I'm going to lighten up a bit and just eat sensibly. We did go out to eat with Kristina and her husband tonight but I ordered the healthiest I could and only ate till I was satisfied (not full). I am having a protein drink for my nightly snack. I couldn't eat my proper meals since we were gone almost all day. This morning I had a Fruit and Yogurt Parfait then I had Egg Whites and Potatoes at 2pm. I had some carrots to snack on while we were with our realtor then at 6pm for dinner we ate out. Now I'm having my protein drink. I did my show tonight from 9pm-11pm Eastern Time. Same last night also. I have been singing and dancing and just having a blast.:) Naked of course.

Wednesday May 9, 2001 - I got up this morning and ate Egg Whites and Oatmeal. It's noon and for my 2nd meal I'm having Potatoes with tuna and Carrots. I'm losing weight but I've been cutting out my carb only meal completly. Which is the drink I usually drink during my workout. So My meals split up like this: 

Meal 1- Protein 29 Grams, Starchy Carbs 20 Grams.
Meal 2 - Protein 29 Grams, Starchy Carbs 20 Grams, Fiberous Carbs 13 Grams.
Meal 3 - Protein 29 Grams, Starchy Carbs 20 Grams.
Meal 4 - Protein 29 Grams, Starchy Carbs 20 Grams, Fiberous Carbs 13 Grams.
Meal 5 - Protein 29 Grams, Fiberous Carbs 13 Grams.
Meal 6 - Protein 29 Grams
If you don't know what kind of foods this consist of just click on the link to the left for My diet and It has a list of what I can Eat in my Diet. This diet is only for my body weight.. The diet that is listed in the Diet link is for when I weighed a bit more and I don't use. But you can get a general idea of how it works. I'm eating more protein now and less carbs then I did with that Diet also.

  Man, I just got so depressed. I laid down for a few moments and that is when my mind just thinks. I think about us dying. How life is going so fast and we will all lose those we love and eventually die ourself. What is the point?

Tuesday May 8, 2001 - I added a few new pictures to the members Hall of Fame part 2 yesterday. The three pictures are Griff, Cuzz and another picture of Copter at Disneyland. Anyone else who is a member and don't mind having their picture in the Hall of Fame 2 can send me their picture by Email with "Members Hall of Fame" in the subject area and I'll add it. Don't forget to tell me the Nick Name you go by so people will know who you are when they see the picture. It's just a fun way to get an idea of who you are talking to when in the Chat room. I've been so happy lately! Ever since I moved to Florida.. Just a different kind of environment here. My Show yesterday was great. I had it at 3pm Est and had quit a few people I hadn't seen in a long time. We went house hunting again today and Put another offer on a different home that is closer to the beaches and downtown today. Most these people can't seem to make up their mind if they want to sell their homes or not. Errr! I Found a name that I like a lot and just might name my Daughter that if I have one, "Temperance" it's different and unique. I got it from a character in a book I just got done reading. I need to make up a list of names I like for when I do have a child. I want one, Maybe.. Not real positive yet about when or even If. It will be a few more years at least. I'll make a file and call it Baby Names. I relaxed on my diet some today, but I picked today to do it since we were out with a realtor looking at homes to buy and I wasn't home to cook my meals. I feel better and have been doing great dieting. I plan to be at 135 by the end of this month and I will be.

Monday May 7, 2001 - I know I should only get on the scale once a week, but I did just to see if I lost anything since Saturday and I weight 140!! Five more pounds and I will be to my Ideal weight. I'm really sick and tired of eating Cod now. I think I'll throw up If I eat one more bit of it. I'll stick to Chicken and Egg Whites for awhile maybe a 95% lean Flank Steak once in awhile but I'm not big on Red Meat, the damn stuff gets stuck in my teeth and doesn't feel to good there. This morning my stomach was upset when I got up so I ate Fat Free Yogurt for my first meal. That helped a lot. My stomach calmed down after that and put my system on track. The rest of the day I'll stick to what I'm suppose to eat on my food list. We just took a picture of me today and I think you can tell I lost 5 pounds to. Here it is Venus in Gloves. Oh, I need to make up my mind one day! I want an Exotic Shorthair Cat and I've called a lady who lives in Ft. Lauderdale and said I would come over to her home on Wednesday to look at the Kittens. Then after I hang up, I start really thinking then realize what if the kitten starts using the Doggie Door and gets lost! Now I don't know what to do. Gizzy thinks I changed my mind, which I did not. I will go over there just for the fact that I told her I would. But my dilemma is that I have a doggie door! I don't know what to do and I just don't want to make any rational bad decisions.. FUCK! I don't want to go back on my word since I did call this same lady when we first moved here about the Kittens also. Jeff tries to talk me out of it then that makes me fight against the grain even more, I think. I feel like I'm having a blond moment in my diary so I'll quit writing.  

Sunday May 6, 2001 - I am finally starting to get up early. I just got up and it's 8am. I made the boys their food now I'm making myself some egg whites and Potatoes. Some of you think my diet is Horrid but it isn't that bad. The meals are pretty good. I use Equal with my Cream of Wheat and Oatmeal. The once a week I have my treat makes the treat 10 times better, so I appreciate food.:) I just ordered my mom something for Mothers day. I hope she likes it. I am not going to say what it is just in Case she reads this and I don't know about it.:) I just made out her Card also and will send that out first thing in the Morning. Mothers day is this coming Weekend. At noon I ate Cod, Cream of wheat and carrots. I just got done (3pm) with my 4th meal which was Chicken breast with Potatoes. I've been trying to find Exotic Shorthairs here in Florida also. I'm not sure if I will get one.. I probably should just save.

Saturday May 5, 2001 - Yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I weighed 141 pounds this morning.. Oh, I am proud!! Off to the Cat Show I go... I am going to get an Exotic Shorthair Kitten as soon as I get my own home. I miss my cats so bad. I was such a bad mom to them. I don't believe anyone should give away their pets and I did at that time in my life. All I can do is hope they are taken care of. I ate Cream of wheat and Cod for breakfast. Meal 3 I had Chicken breast with Potatoes. Now I'm having Cod with Oatmeal. I am going shopping with Kristina this evening. I talked to my brother yesterday and he is having a financial Crises. I would help him out but I can't right now. I've helped him out quit a bit. I love the guy but I have to say no this time.

Friday May 4, 2001 - I got up and ate 5.76oz of Cod and .96oz of Cream of Wheat. At lunch for meal 3 I had 9.58oz of Egg whites with 2.92oz of White Potatoes pulp.. Meal two is always a carb drink while I workout and consist of Carbo Max (20 grams of carbs) mixed with my water. I am fixing meal 4 right now and am having 5.76oz of Cod with 1.06oz of oatmeal. I eat every two to three hours. We just got back from Ft. Lauderdale and we went to Fleet Week  to see the Navy Ships. The lines were to long so we just viewed the outside of them. We might go back on Sunday and see if we can get in and see the inside. I am going to a Cat Show  tomorrow morning. For Meal 5 I ate 4.41oz of Chicken Breast, 14.27oz of Green Beans and .96oz of Cream of Wheat. Meal 6 I had 5.09oz of Carrots, 4.41oz of Chicken Breast. My next meal (#7) Will be a protein drink which consist of 29 Grams of Protein.... No Carbs....

Thursday May 3, 2001 - I have to admit even I am not perfect when dieting. I did cheat today. As I remember my first diet when I won the Las Vegas Natural I cheated just about once every two to three weeks on that one as well. I lost more weight when I gave into it. I get to the point where I have to. But then I hop back onto the ban wagen and start again. It not only revived my energy today but I feel good and determined again. It will help me though the week untill I can't take it again. I think I did great on my diet this week and I feel as thought I lost some weight. In three weeks I'll be where I want to be I believe.  As long as I stick to it like I have been. I think one (1) meal of crappy eating in a week does a body good. Just not overdue it. I didn't so I am not going to sweat it. I do feel better. My first 3 meals I did very good. But when I got back from the real estate agent I told myself I'd treat me to a couple slices of pizza since I'm going crazy today. The clean food isn't giving me a saine feeling today. I also dieted so strict my first diet that I would sit down once every two to three weeks and eat a whole cheese cake then diet again. It's better to eat something to keep you saine once a week then sit down and gorge in one sitting, trying not to go crazy on a diet. Being hungry and going crazy are also two different levels of losing weight, lol..  I'd rather be hungry without the going crazy for days trying to be good. I get to be such a bitch when I hit the crazy zone that I go ahead and treat myself to something. Relieve the pain for everyone else. I am still on my diet and feeling good. I had Jeff go get me some Cod from the store tonight. That is beginning to be my favorite protein source. 

Wednesday May 2, 2001 - I got up and ate cream of wheat and had a protein drink. I went to the gym at 10:30am and did 20 minutes of Cardio then worked my legs and Calfs. Kristina did an aerobics class while I did my workout. We talked for a few minutes after. We went and looked at another Home today but it was in a bad area of town. I am not going to log all my meals every day because It is getting long and old. I will every other day or something. I am doing good and sticking to it now. I did have one slip up where I just had to have something so I had a teaspoon of peanut butter at 4am in the morning.. But it wasn't anything major. At 4pm I did 20 more minutes of Cardio on my Pre Core Stepper here at home.  We then went and signed our corporations papers at the lawyers office then came right back home. I took a bath at 7pm then laid down for a nap for about 30 minutes (Bookie and Nemo always sleep and take naps with me)..:) We took a few pictures of me tonight and will do so every week so I can log my progress by pictures. I still haven't gotten anyone to take my body fat. I did my show from 9pm Est, that was so fun tonight. Everyone is noticing my weight loss all ready. I'll tell you how much I weigh on Saturday. I may not weigh any less because I may have muscle gain. But I will be leaner at least. 

Tuesday May 1, 2001 - I got up and ate Cod with some cream of wheat. I made the Cod very good this time. My second meal was only a carb drink during my workout which consist of 20 grams of carbs. For my 3rd meal I ate Egg whites with Potatoes. For my 4th meal I ate Cream of Wheat with Cod again. My fifth meal I am eating Chicken Breast with brown rice.  I am feeling tired today. I won't quit that easy. The one thing that is keeping me straight is that I think, "If I can't do a simple thing as dieting and controlling my weight in life then I am not in control at all "... I AM IN CONTROL! That is what makes me feel as though my diet is easy. If I'm hungry in the middle of the night I remind myself, I only have to wait till 9am.. I have all day to eat my meals tomorrow, it's not like I'm starving or anything.. It's not so much I get hungry, it more a feeling of being Empty. But it's a good empty and I'm beginning to like it. I'm "Lighter".....  Oh god, I just made my Reservations to go see my mom from June 15 to the 23rd... Why am I always so scared to leave...... I think it's the thought of something happening on the trip. I am very excited though.. I've been wanting to go visit her for some time now.

Monday April 30, 2001 - I got up at 9am and feed my boys then made myself some Egg Whites and Potatoes. I went to the gym at 10:30am but they made excuses about taking my body fat (they probably just don't know how!) so I haven't even got that done yet. I'll find a place to take it. I worked out with Kristina. We did 25 minutes of cardio then Biceps and Triceps. It's 12:30 and I just made myself 4.41oz of Chicken Breast with 5.09oz of Carrots and 1.06oz of Cream of wheat for my third meal. My second meal is a Carb drink while I workout that equals 20 grams of carbs. I bought some Flax seed oil to take every day for a supplement.. I had someone write me and tell me it will help maintain my sanity.. I'll do anything to maintain that. I don't think I'll have a high carb day since I'm feeling fine with just high protein. I still have energy so I really don't need it. I talked with my mom two nights ago and her Sister Norma has Cancer and is in the hospital. It's a Malignant Tumor in her colon and yesterday it ruptured going through her blood stream and all. They don't give her much time now.. That makes it 7 out of 8 who's got it. She has one sister left who won't get tested and I can bet you they all are going to have it. That don't make a good out look for me or my brothers or sisters. I refuse to die in a hospital when my time comes. I'm going to call my Mom and see if she is going to go Visit her Sister, if she does I'll go and meet her in Ohio. She will need the support. At 3:30pm I ate meal #4 which consist of 9.58oz of Egg Whites and 3.29oz of White Potatos Pulp.. I just did another 20 minutes of cardio on my Pre core stepper here at home on Camera and also worked abs. For my 5th Meal at 6:30pm I am having Cod, Sweet Potato and Asparagus.. Oh shit, I fucked up that Cod, not that I thought I was a good cook in the first place. It would have been excellent if I would have added the spice to only one side but my god after about the sixth bite I thought I'd probably die from all the salt that was in it. Yuk! So I settled for a protein shake for the rest of my protein.. My 6th Meal always consists of Protein (chicken breast, cod, tuna) and a Fiberous Carb (green beans, carrots). My 7th Meal always consists of just protein which is Usually a protein drink for me.. 

Sunday April 29, 2001 - I got up and ate Cream of Wheat and Egg Whites this morning. We have to meet a real Estate agent in Miami at 1pm so I need to pack my other meals. I'll log all my meals when I have time to log them during the day. It's late and I just finished my show so I'm going to head to bed. We did find a home today and made an offer on it. Well see how it goes.. They might not be able to get cable modem so we can't buy it then.. I need to get up in the am so I can get to the gym. I seen a few local competitions in a few months and if I feel like I'm ready I just may enter them at the last minute. 

Saturday April 28, 2001 - I got up at 9am and ate  My .96oz of Cream of Wheat with 3.46oz of Tuna. I'm full all ready. In a few days I'll feel like I'm starving although I'm eating 7 times a day. I am doing two days high Protein and one day High Carbs.. My high Protein days total is 175 grams protein 100 grams Starchy Carbs and 40 grams Fiberous Carbs. I'll let you know on my carb day what the days total for my carb day is. I went to the gym and did 25 minutes of Cardio and worked on abs. During my workout I have a Carb drink as my 2nd meal. I do the carbo max and mix it with water to where it equals out to be about 20 grams of carbs in the drink. It's 1pm and I just got done eating my third meal which consist of 4.41oz of Chicken Breast, 3.29oz of Potatoe white Pulp and 14.27oz of Green Beans (can), it took me about 30 minutes to eat it all. I had to take a 20 minute break when I was half done so I could let it digest. Jeff made an appointment for me while I was cooking so I could go get my eye brows waxed at 1:45pm. I had to make an appointment for Monday to get my body fat taken so I'll have to wait till then (I weigh 145 though). On the way out of the gym I stopped in and got some Designer Protein for my nightly protein drink "Meal".. For Meal number 4 I am making 4.93oz of Lobster (boiled ONLY, no butter or topings that have fat or carbs) with .92oz of Brown Rice (spices only, boiled). I'll eat it around 3pm maybe a tad bit later then 3.... I didn't eat all of my 4th meal. I just about barfed on the rice. I don't cook well. That's ok I feel full so it's not going to kill me to eat a little less. I ate most of it anyway and drank a protein drink after I threw away the rest of the lobster I didn't eat. I just got done (4:30pm est)doing 20 Minutes on my precore stepper here at home on Camera. I forgot but I don't like Designer Protein (taste bad to). Now I'm racking my brain on which one I used that I liked..

Friday April 27, 2001 - Ok, I feel much better today and I'm getting over being sick so I don't hate myself any longer.:) We are hunting for a home in Miami. It's Jeff's Idea. I don't care as long as I have a big yard I suppose. It's not to far from where we are now so it won't cost us but the labor we put into moving. The houses down there seem to be better priced. I thought they would be more since it's in the city of Miami. Too many murders down there if you ask me. We are just looking though so it's not anything we are sure of. Since we do plan to buy a home before the month of June and I will be going to Visit my Mom, Sister and Grandparents in Mid to late June, I won't be dancing till the end of the summer. My diet don't start till TOMORROW so I'm spending my free time getting all my packed spices out and finding my equal sweetener and preparing my list for the grocery store. I'm psyching myself up for this one! I am determined. To help me out and to let you know how I'm progressing I'm going to log my weight and body fat in here tomorrow as soon as I get my body fat taken.. Each week I'll log it. I'm also planning to make my Camera's positioned to where you all can watch me at all times. I'll be doing cardio at night on cam also. 

Thursday April 26, 2001 - I hate myself today. I just do so I'll leave it at that.

Wednesday April 25, 2001 - I've been in bed all this week so far with the flu. Tonight I am just starting to feel well again. At least I'm getting better. I'm not going to start my diet till Monday but when I do start it I'm going to keep with it, that means I'm going to have my log book and log each and every meal and what time I ate, so I don't forget and give up. If I don't log it like I did for my competition then I don't end up sticking with it. I haven't accomplished anything being sick. 

Monday April 23, 2001 - God I hate being sick. My throat is so swollen today. Make me just lay in bed all day. I have a plan now.:) Day after tomorrow or when I feel at least 70% better I am going to start to diet down again. I want to be 12% Bodyfat by Mid June and I will be if it takes all the will power I have left. Anyone want to send me some daily Motivational help tips or inspiration? Please...:) Even I need help and motivation. We seen a lawyer today and are Incorporating in this state. I am making a Weekly deposit into my Savings and did that also today. I didn't get out of bed and take a shower till 2:30pm. I'm sick so I'm allowed. 

Sunday April 22, 2001 - What a lazy day I had today! I took some night time cold Medication last night and couldn't even get myself out of bed or off the couch today. Geez! There was a report on MSNBC today about Female Bodybuilders and Wrestling. They did a pretty good story but tamed it down a bit. I did a show at 7pm Est (4pm Pst) and right after Jeff took a few pictures of me in my Boxing Shorts with my Gloves on. Here is one of the Pictures he took of me tonight. Venus in Boxing gear. I had to laugh at that one. My hair is always having bad days anymore so excuse the dew... I'm reading a book at the moment called "Carolina Moon" by Nora Roberts. I can't put it down. It's really good so far and there is even a Character in it Named "Hope", just like me..:)

Saturday April 21, 2001 - I think I'm catching whatever Jeff has. I don't know if it's the Flu or what. I ate some chicken Noodle soup for lunch so maybe that will help out some. I was invited over to Kristina's for a cook out today but I don't think I'll go since Jeff is sick and I am starting to get the symptoms of the same thing. I have been wanting to go and do things with them but since Jeff has been sick this week we haven't been able to. Last night during my show I did a workout then Shaved my legs and everything on my Coochie..:) I haven't been able to contact my Mom for weeks. I really want to visit her in May, June or July. I really miss her and wanted to visit. She is seeing someone now and hasn't been staying at her own place any longer. My Brother called me this morning and I was thrilled to hear from him. He left his wife right before we moved here to Florida. He seems to be happier and not so up tights so I guess it was a good thing for him. As long as he is happy. We went and seen some houses with the Realtor up in Port Saint Lucie yesterday. We are not going to move up there! There really isn't much up around that area at all. We didn't know that until the Realtor drove us around for awhile. We are going to stay put,  live here and settle down. 

Thursday April 19, 2001 - Wow, It's Thursday all ready. Jeff has been sick since yesterday when he got up, so we canceled our appointment with the Realtor and rescheduled it for Friday. I did my Pre Core Stepper again last night on Camera. I did my show before that at 8pm EST. I stayed home and did nothing really. Jeff was sick so... I have been doing crunches during my shows and then doing my Cardio on my stepper at nighttime and I can tell I'm loosing weight. We went to the Beach again on Tuesday and while I laid out on the Beach Jeff got instructed on how to Wind Surf with this Wind Surfing boat thingy that held two people. We wind Surfed for about 30 minutes or so after he got done then went home. I was starving by then. We stopped by McDonalds so I could get a Fruit and Yogurt Parfait. I love those things. I'm starting to see my abs come through. I pray that we will find a home to buy soon. I hope it all works out. I feel like I don't have any security without my own home. Like we could be uprooted in the snap of a finger. Plus, I hate having a land lord. I like decorating my house like I like it. I feel like my privacy is an issue, lol... I know that is a funny thing coming from someone who basically lives on camera. It's a different kind of Privacy.:) Since I've had my own home I don't want to rent. Maybe it's more in my mind then it is with anything else. I want to live out from the city or town a bit (my own Acre of land) but Jeff wants to live close to things. So we are having a big issue with that. I am the one giving in to him. I will live close to things as long as I have a Big Yard. I've wanted a horse for awhile but it's not a big deal so I will compromise and live in the city. 

Monday April 16, 2001 - I went to the Bank this morning and put some Mullah into our Savings account. We went to Port Saint Lucie yesterday and ended up going out towards the beach. Oh how beautiful it is up there. That water is so clear. I am wanting to go a little north now. I couldn't believe how clear the water was there compared to where I live. Only a little south. I have been calling about homes but it's a real pain since we have to live where there is high speed internet access and can't if they don't have it. I am starting to use my Precore Stepper at night for my Cardio, I do it on cam so everyone can watch. I'M IN A VERY BAD MOOD RIGHT NOW! FUCKIT!

Saturday April 14, 2001  - I didn't get up till late again today. We are going to the Lion Country Safari today to see the animals. I haven't worked out all week. Kristina pulled a muscle in her neck or something and she hasn't been able to go. I have been getting up late and then I start thinking of everything I have to get done then I don't end up going myself. I have been trying to call my mom all week but she hasn't been around at all. I want to go visit her this summer but I can't get in contact with her for a good time to go visit. We are still looking for a home. I called a Real Estate agent yesterday who is looking for home in our Search Criteria. She is suppose to get back with me by Monday. I am really wanting something on an acre of land and hope we can find something. I laid out in the sun for a couple hours yesterday evening (topless) and I don't even think anyone was watching on my camera. 

Friday April 13, 2001 - I just finished watching "Remember the Titans". I seriously didn't think it would be that good of a movie. I think it's a great movie now. I actually missed playing Football after all these years. I've had a twinge of missing in now and again but I got tired of the fight back then. I had played football since I was in the 4th grade. When I moved to Cambridge Ohio I had a wonderful coach who coached my team even after I got to Jr. High School. It was never about proving anything like some people ask me. I was a little girl. Little Girls only think about having fun.. In third grade my mom put me in Cheer Leading and I thought that was the most boring thing and I hated ever minute of it. I'd watch my brother play while I sat there with stupid pom poms and a skirt outfit thinking he was having all the fun. I remember very clearly what I was thinking to. So the next year I was determined to play football, of course my mother let me. So I played football right up till the 9th Grade. We moved to Ft. Polk Louisiana my 8th grade year and when we moved it was a big joke to the whole school, "especially the Coaches". All though my Coach in Ohio did Wright a letter of Recommendation with his phone number and everything.  I really never got to play after we moved, so I ended up quitting. I wasn't having fun anymore. Some people think I should have toughed it out for the sake of being a girl, maybe. I probably would have never gotten to play again so why should I. I had all ready proved I could play, but you just can't change some people. The coach didn't really want me out on the field and he didn't help me with plays either so I never knew the system he ran very well.  I loved it when I lived in Ohio. I didn't feel like I was any different from any of the other players on the team. Except I was a girl, WOW.. It wasn't a big deal with my team in Ohio either. I had played with those boys for a few years so they thought of me as a team mate.  It sure was different when I moved to Louisiana. I can relate a lot to that movie. My coach in Ohio was a lot like the coach "Denzel Washington" in the movie.. He was fair and he played me because I could play..  To bad there are so many Close minded people in this world. I've ran into a lot of prejudice since I've grown up. When I was a kid we didn't even think like that. At lease not the kids I hung around. The only judgments we made was/is based on attitude. I've been watching the News on TV lately and I think we're seeing the rolls being reversed with the Blank and White Issues. Why can't everyone just act Civilized? Violence has never solved a damn thing and it never will. 

Wednesday April 11, 2001 - I didn't do shit today. I took a sleeping pill late last night and that was a bad idea since I was tired all day. Jeff and I gave Bookie and Nemo a walk at 7pm, then I made myself some Fried Green Tomatoes tonight. They are good, yum..

Tuesday April 10, 2001 - I didn't end up going to that second aerobics class yesterday. I need to go get bookie a New Collar for his tags today, he goes through more collars. I took some New pictures of Bookie and Nemo and put up on their website last night.  Here is one of them they  Bookie and Nemo are smiling in!:) I need to go to the Adult Store today and get some New toys for my web shows. Something different. I get bored of the same toy. Well see what they have. I think I'll get one of those Rocket Vibrator thingy's. You know what pisses me off? I have been working out and doing aerobics (I know I even stress "Muscle weighs more then fat!")  but god I still weigh the same and I want to be smaller! errr... I have even been getting up eating a healthy Breakfast. Even though Peanut Butter and Jelly Sandwiches don't help me any, lol.. For some reason that is what I've been craving lately. Jeff and I took some new Pictures out by our pool today and I thought I'd post one in here for you all. Here is one of the New Pics of this Series from today.

Monday April 9, 2001 - I went to Aerobics class this morning. I am going to go back and do a high Impact Aerobics class with Kristina this evening. The first class was a total body conditioning class. Anyone who is interested in just sitting around shooting the Shit with me and can't make it to my scheduled show can stop by around 9pm EST or around that time and chat in my chat room with me. I am usually on at that time chatting and it's usually only a couple of us chatting so don't be shy to join in. 

Sunday April 8, 2001 - We went to a couple strip clubs over the weekend. Thursday night we went to one in Palm Beach Called Rachel's. That place was real nice but they try to hard to rip you off so I don't recommend anyone going there. After my husband and I were both charged $10 a piece we order a coke for $9 dollars then the waitress never brought them to us. She acted as if ordering a coke was a crime. We Figured if she needed the money that bad she could have it so we just got up and left. I'd never work in a place that thrived on ripping people or even needed to rip you off. Friday night Kristina and her husband went with us and we went to Diamond's in Palm Beach. I liked it there and the Girls were Very nice. Most of them were between 1 and 6 though if you wanted a rate. We went to Lunch (Applebee's) then to a Flea Market type of Show with Kristina and Hubby Friday Afternoon. I got two Swords for my upcoming Photo's (where I dress up as a Valkerie Warrior) and some Boxing Gloves so Kristina and I can have a play boxing Match for you all. All I need now is some kind of Animal Coverings or Metal type coverings to get that Warrior look. We are going to see what the clubs in Ft. Lauderdale are like sometime. Friday Afternoon I went to a Step and Sculpt Aerobics class at my Gym, then Tanned for 15 minutes.. We went Scuba Diving again Yesterday and I ended up Getting very sick again and after I jumped in and went down 30 feet, I still felt Ill so I went back up and didn't dive at all and let Jeff go down with the group. I think that is the major factor of why I haven't been able to dive. I get too sea sick and I can't recover from it like most of them can after they get in the water. I can dive fine most of the time unless I get Sea Sick which is anytime there are waves, which seems to be 90% of the time lately. I took 1 Dramamine but that didn't work. I get so weak and sick that I can't function. I am just about to give up on going out on boats and just go off the Beach when the waters a calm. The bottom part of my legs got burnt from the sun yesterday. I did have fun laying out on the front of the dive boat while everyone else dove.  I felt fine while I was laying down and the air was hitting me. As soon as I got up I wanted to puke though. So I laid out on the Front of the Boat on the whole trip and didn't move. 

Friday April 6, 2001 - I am losing more weight everyday that I do my Aerobics. In a few Weeks I will start dancing in a local Club down here in Florida once a week, so anyone who wants to come and meet me can again. So I do hope to meet a few of you that I have talked to on here. I will dance at one of the bigger clubs in Ft. Lauderdale most likely. Lets wait and see, I'm going to try my hand at this diet again. I don't want to until I am at the weight I feel like is best for me. I do lap dances if the clubs down here allow that but I don't Prostitute or anything of that nature so don't be expecting anything more. I know some peoples minds run wild because I do sexual stuff on my site but put those breaks on.. 

Thursday April 5, 2001 - Kristina and I had a workout show and it turned out pretty darn good. We are thinking Oil Wrestling for our next show together. Oh man Oh man! Someone wrote me about the Manatee snorkel and dive trips down here and I am going this month now! Once I'm in the water no one is going to be able to pry me out of the water with all those cute Manatees.. I'm soo excited to go! I wrote a dive Charter tonight. It's 2:30am Thursday Morning. I love those animals. ok, ok I love all animals.. lol. The only thing I don't like are bugs. Talk about freaking out last week when some kind of bug I've never seen in my life landed on my arm! People in the store thought I was having a a spasm or something. I was almost on the verge of screaming, it looked like a mean bug..  I missed my workout this morning. Kristina went by herself. I had no energy when I got up and just couldn't get up to go with her. When I start my Period I always loose my energy, for the first day anyway. Seems like it wipes me out. If I don't stay up the rest of the night I should be ok and get my butt to the gym first thing. Midol does wonders. I haven't been able to sleep at night and when I do get to sleep the sun will be up soon. 

Wednesday April 4, 2001 - Kristina and I will be doing a workout show together in a couple hours (8pm Estern time). If you want to catch it. Kristina is the one who own's Kristina's World. Check us out on the Video.:)

Monday April 2, 2001 - We stayed home and cleaned up the upstairs today. The DSL guy came and fixed the line upstairs so we wouldn't have cords all over the house. I went to an Aerobics class with Kristina at 4:30pm and that just about wiped me out.  Sometimes I open my big mouth, when I should just shut up. My family has their own problems and I sit here and write down my opinions when I really don't know what is going on in their lives. All I know is what I hear and that isn't the whole story most of the time. I am the last one that should be talking about anyone. Even if it is only my opinion it could be that I'm miss informed. I need to wait to write anything down about stuff when I'm having a mood and wait a few days. Non of use are perfect so I shouldn't even involve myself in what family matters are brewing, unless asked. What happens is I get upset, then when I write in here the same day I blab my mouth about what I'm thinking at that time, and that's not always right. Just like blabing about my Niece and all the other day. I just need to wait till I think about everything for a couple days before I write it down. 

Sunday April 1, 2001 - I went to Target today and got myself a few things I've been needing. I took my back drop over to Kristina's so she could use it for her Photo Shoot. We went to Breakfast/Lunch with Crash (Kristina's Husband) yesterday afternoon. We then went and looked at some more houses but didn't find anything that we liked. I will be doing a workout show with Kristina on Wednesday Night at 8pm Eastern Time. I feel tense lately. I hate that, I need a punching bag on days like this. I'm tired to so that don't help. I got myself a cheapo watch today but I'm not a big Jewelry person so I don't need an expensive one, I'll end up breaking it like I seem to do with any Jewelry I acquire (exception is rings).. It seems like if I don't break it I lose it so I don't recommend any of my family buying me any expensive Jewelry. I would have a gold mine if it wasn't for me losing or breaking. I could kick myself for it to.

Friday March 30, 2001 - I have actually had someone email me about what I said about raising kids and raising Puppy's. Some people read to much into what I'm saying. The concept of "Teaching" is the same. If I read about how to raise children then I know enough to know it is a lot more demanding on time and so forth. I wasn't talking about that though. I was talking about how to raise with praise and love in a healthy way so they grow up being healthy minded, it's the same basic concept on how to raise a puppy to know where to go pee, poo and all the other fun stuff. I'm not from the backwoods.. If I were I'd throw my dogs in a wood box and have them try to survive the freezing winter by them self like a lot of dumb ass kin folk do. I don't think that way and never will. Anyway, I went to the gym with Kristina and we did an aerobics total body training class. My lord that was hard. We need to do that one once a week to get Variety in. We went to a movie and seen, "Enemy at the Gates". That was better then I thought. We looked at some more model homes after the movie and are still deciding on what we are going to do. "To build or not to build", that is the question. Jeff and I took Bookie and Nemo for a walk this evening. They just love to do that. Although they are tired after about a block. But that is why I have Frenchies, they are couch potato kind of dogs. I have had a person bash my dogs and call them ugly and everything else just because I talk about them in here. I don't care but that is mean, rude and just plane selfish. If you want someone who only talks about sex in their diary then you want someone who owns a site that is pretending to be a girl who is actually a guy sitting there doing that for your enjoyment. That isn't real life so if that is what some sites do then that isn't the girl talking in the diary. This is a "Diary", not a fantasy sex write up. If you want to get sexual then watch one of my shows. 

Thursday March 29, 2001 - I went to the gym since Tuesday of this week. Yesterday I went with Kristina to Lowe's Home store and also to a couple clothing stores before she had to do her show. I bought 3 casual shirts at Ross.  She dropped me off at home on the way back. We all went out to eat tonight at Spanky's sports bar. That was nice.  I have been doing all my shows 4 days a week now. I plan to do a workout show with Kristina in the next couple weeks. So be expecting that on the schedule. I drank some wine with GirlPearl during my show last night and boy was I in a  mood. That wine just made me feel so bloated and depressed for a short time so I don't think I'll be drinking (it's not good for a body anyway).. I emailed my mom and she finally e-mailed me back the other day. She is having her boob reconstructed, yipee! Good for her. I am happy that her insurance is paying for half. She had breast cancer about 7 years ago and had one breast removed because of it. She has been seeing someone (a boyfriend) lately and has decided to get the reconstruction done. She also said she lost a lot of weight so I am so happy she is feeling good about herself. I miss her so bad and have been thinking of going to visit her this summer. My mom said she has been staying with her boyfriend so it wouldn't be a good time for me to visit. She don't like to go to her own home that much. That makes me mad and I know I am not the one that can do anything for her. Oh! Can you believe there are Manatees in the ocean here! They look like over sized Bookie Dogs!! I want to go diving and see them.

Monday March 26, 2001 - I will be working out by myself today. I tanned yesterday for 15 minutes and my butt got a little on the red side. I'll start tanning outside once I get a base tan down. Jeff is suppose to call our Mortgage company today and see about financing our Home we are going to have built. Hopefully they offer a discount or something if we use them again. We are not going the VA route since VA has a higher Interest rate. We were locked in at 8.3% on our last mortgage. That is high. Tomorrow I'll be doing 45 minutes of cardio each day now. I need more cardio since I need to lose about 5-10 pounds of body fat. I need to eat right to but I like my food. I go crazy trying to eat good. I will start eating a healthy breakfast and dinner but I'm going to eat what ever I want at lunch. Life isn't fun without some sugar.;)

Saturday March 24, 2001 - I have been working out with Kristina every morning now. My soreness isn't so bad this week. We all went out to dinner on Thursday night and had a great time. I got my eyebrows waxed yesterday evening. They needed it bad! I went to Target last night and got myself a new bra with matching panties and two shirts that I liked a lot. I also got some lotion and lip stick. We have been hunting for a home and went into a Model home yesterday that we feel in love with. We might just go ahead and have it built for us. We can afford it but was looking for something a little less. I don't know if any house will look good now that we seen that model. I am going to tan for a little while today. I haven't been out in the sun since my competition 2 years ago. So I'm looking very white. I don't like to tan to much because it will make you age. So I don't do it very often.

Wednesday March 21, 2001 - We got a print out of all the houses in our range and are going out to look at them tomorrow. There is a spec that looks real promising so lets hope we fall in love. With the interest rates this low we need to go ahead and buy now.

Tuesday March 20, 2001 - We did lunges yesterday and boy am I sore. Today we did 25 minutes of Cardio and bicep, triceps. We went to a beach to go diving but the waves were very big and bad.:) So we decided to test out the equipment in our pool. Thank god we sold our home! They lowered the interests rates again today, that is good if your buying a home!!! We will be soon. We're not sure if were going to build yet, we want to. I am calling about lots for sale but no one has gotten back with me on it yet. I wish Minna would move to Florida from Finland. I miss that girl. She was one of the best people I've ever been friends with. We like going to cat shows and there are quit a few down here. It isn't as fun going by myself. 

Sunday March 18, 2001 - I moved my Friday Show to Thursdays since it seems like something always comes up on Friday and I have to do something. So My shows will be Monday, Wednesday, Thursday, Saturday at 7pm Est. That will make it easier for me and hopefully work for most people. I am not doing anything today but clean my house up. It gets messy fast. Never ending chore.

Saturday March 17, 2001 - Today was so horrible. We went diving with a dive boat and everything was going great. We went down to about 100 feet when I started to feel like I wasn't getting any air. At first I felt like, " Man it's hard to breath", then after a second or two I didn't feel like I was getting any air into my lungs at all.  Even though my Pressure gage said I had 2800 pounds of air I didn't feel like anything was coming out. I singled to Jeff that I was out of air then grabbed his spare, I still felt like I couldn't breath. I really thought I was going to drown at that point since we were 100 feet down. Jeff had a hold of my arm and we went straight up with out a safety stop or any sort of slow assent. Thank god we didn't die or get deathly Ill of Decompression Sickness. I do feel if we were under any longer I'd have blacked out. That kind of thing has never happened to me before. Talking about two shitty trips in a row now! Last time I got sea sick and barfed all over the side of the boat. I got sick this time on the way back but I didn't throw up, that was the least of my problems this time. This isn't a good thing. I'm not going on a shark dive till my dives start being good experiences. I laid in bed the rest of the night when I got home tonight and canceled my show, I just didn't feel all that great. I don't care what Jeff says, I could not breath!!! What an awful feeling that was. All I could think about was No one would take the kind of care of Bookie and Nemo that I give them. 

Friday March, 16, 2001 - We went driving around by the coast yesterday and boy there are some mansions out there. Like fairy tail castle homes. We drove around for a couple hours then came on home. I cleaned up a little after we got back. This house needed it. I am having 4 shows a week now. On Monday, Wednesday, Friday and Saturday from 7pm Est. I had to Cancel my show for tonight though. We have some plans. We got an offer on our home in Vegas today. We dropped the price and someone wants it. So I'll be buying a home here in a few months! I want my own home here so bad. I am getting something on a little over an acre of land.

Thursday March 15, 2001 - I've been going to the gym every day this week with Kristina. Yesterday I was exhausted and just felt wiped out. We have been doing 25-30 minutes of Cardio then 25-30 minutes of weight training. I can all ready see the changes. Just a little but I am getting there. The cardio helps. Today we are just doing 45 minutes of cardio then coming home. Jeff and I plan to take a drive around today and get to know the area. We haven't did that yet. We went out with Kristina and her husband this past weekend but they drove downtown so we aren't real familiar with this area. My house is a disaster but I don't want to unpack all those freaking boxes if were going to move 8 month to a year. So I've been stuffing them in the garage. Jeff and I found a Scuba Center here that does Shark dives once a week. We are going on that in a Week or two. I'll get footage of that so maybe I can put on here and show. This Saturday we are going on a two tank dive with them.

Monday March 12, 2001 - I started working out with Kristina today. We did 25 minutes of Cardio then Legs. We took it easy since we are just getting back with a routine. I might not be able to walk tomorrow if I overdue it. I like this gym a lot. It's not as big and Glitzy as the "Big" gyms but it's homey and Family Orientated. I did my show from 7pm Est. to just about 9pm Est. tonight. I am getting back into the swing of things now. This past weekend I went to a Dog Show and seen the French Bulldogs and stuff. When I got up Saturday morning I heard the dogs go out and after a few moments I thought It odd I didn't hear them come in again. So I went out back to check on them and the Gate was wide open. I ran out front calling them and they weren't anywhere, that is when my hysteria set in. I ran in the house and yelled at jeff and starting sprinting down my street calling them. Jeff hopped in his truck and backed out. The next street I looked down I seen two ladies walking their dogs (way down the street), I started running toward them calling Bookie and Nemo and as I got closer I seen them following them.. Jeff's truck went by me and the ladies were pointing to the yard of a house. They had run into the yard as I was sprinting down the street. Thank god I found them and checked on them in just a couple of minutes. They are microchiped but they didn't have their tags on so it would have been awhile before they would have gotten returned or they could have gotten hit by a car! I put a pad lock on my gate now. Both sides of my house has gate openings so I need to get a pad lock for the other side also. There is a pool guy who comes every Monday and uses the side we don't have a padlock on, he left the gate unlatched and open today. No one is going in the back yard unless they come to the front door first. I don't know how or who opened that gate but I check the gate every time they go out now. Talking about Nervous breakdown, if I wouldn't have found them I would have been in the hospital. I was almost on the Verge of crying when I was running down my street. To some dogs are dogs, but to me they are my responsibility to protect and keep safe "my baby's". They are my Family.

Thursday March 8, 2001 - Oh it's so good to be in my own home and live online. Hi everyone!!! I am not unpacking everything since we will be looking for a home to buy as soon as the one in Vegas sells.  Forget it. I figure we can keep a lot of it packed since we don't use it all the time. I stayed with Kristina from Kristinasworld while we waited for our furniture to get here. I am glad I know my dogs. The first night I was at Kristina's house I went out to make sure Bookie or Nemo didn't go near the pool.  They have never been near water or a pool and French Bulldogs don't swim all that good anyway.  Bookie was so excited because of Kristina's dogs that he started to run after her dog and ran right into the pool!!!!! He never paddled and didn't come up so I ran and jumped in after him, clothes and all. He was about 2 feet under suspended there, I put my hands around him and got him out. He caughed a little but he was fine. I don't know but Kristina told Jeff, "Hey Venus just Jumped in the Pool" they had no idea what was going on outside since we had JUST got there. I had no other shoes so I had to borrow a pair of Kristina's for two days while mine dried.  I have a pool here also so as soon as I locate my bathing suit there are going to be some swimming lessons and I won't let them out the doggie door if I'm not home either.  We have been going out to dinner and doing things with Kristina and her hubby when we all feel like it and have the time. It's nice to have another couple to do stuff with. We don't live to far from the Ocean and will be finding some good places to take pictures this spring. I am hunting for a home with 1 to 2 acres of land on it. I found this in a e-group I am in and thought some of it was humorous. 

>EXPRESSIONS FOR WOMEN ON HIGH STRESS DAYS
> 1. You - Off my planet
> 2. Not the brightest crayon in the box now, are we?
> 3. Well, this day was a total waste of makeup.
> 4. Errors have been made. Others will be blamed.
> 5. And your crybaby whiny-assed opinion would be...?
> 6. I'm not crazy, I've just been in a very bad mood for 25 years.
> 7. Allow me to introduce my selves.
> 8. Sarcasm is just one more service we offer.
> 9. Whatever kind of look you were going for, you missed.
> 10. I'm just working here until a good fast-food job opensup.
> 11. I'm trying to imagine you with a personality.
> 12. Stress is when you wake up screaming and you realize you were not
> asleep.
> 13. I can't remember if I'm the good twin or the evil one.
> 14. How many times do I have to flush before you go away?
> 15. I just want revenge. Is that so wrong?
> 16. You say I'm a bitch like it's a bad thing.
> 17. Can I trade this job for what's behind door #2?
> 18. Nice perfume. Must you marinate in it?
> 19. Chaos, panic, and disorder-my work here is done.
> 20. Earth is full. Go home.
> 21. Is it time for your medication or mine?
> 22. How do I set a laser printer to stun?
> 23. I'm not tense, just terribly, terribly alert.