July & Aug 2000

Thursday Aug 31, 2000 - I went and got my Nails done at 11am this morning. I then went to the home store and got some very pretty curtains for the kitchen and also some sheer white canopy fabric for my bed. It's getting to look more and more like a home since I'm decorating my new house. I also got a mat for the kitchen floor in front of the sink. I had laid down for a few after I decorated. When I got up I was putting my dogs on the floor and I think I just about ripped of my nail on my pinky finger. I was in serious pain for at least a half an hour after that. My lord that fucking hurt. It was bleeding pretty good and I put a band aid around it. I'm not going to attempt to look at it until it's healing. It hurts way to bad to even mess with the nail. I'm going to leave a band aid around it. I had to go to Low's and get me a cordless power tool so I can put up the hooks for my curtains. Now all I have to do is wait six hours for the battery to charge. I am starting to do longer shows on the weekend now. I'll be doing two hour shows on the weekend instead of the hour I have been doing. There isn't a lot of girls doing shows those days so I figure it would be a good thing to do. I'm on a mission to lose weight and I have been doing a good job so far.

Wednesday Aug 30, 2000 - I got a book yesterday and finished reading it today. It is called "Granny Dan" by Danielle Steel . I do recommend it if you like Drama/Romance. I was more then touched by it. I got up this morning and went to my Eye brow wax appointment. Then came home and worked on the computers for a while. Nothing else exciting has happened..:)  Teri Weigal is one of the Girls we host Video for and she is having a live Face lift on Sept 5. I'm going to have to watch that. You folks might want to tune in also, this don't happen all that often. I'm making my French Bulldogs my LOV Mascots so I'm trying to think of ways to put them in  images to look cool. If any of you have any idea's or suggestions let me know. If anyone sends me some freaky animal sex idea's I'm gonna put you on a Sicko's of the Web list and tell eveyone about you.:) I don't mind jokes but I'm not into the sick stuff. Unless it's having a gross conversation about body fluids (for fun of course)..:)

Tuesday Aug 29, 2000 - We were outside rinsing off our scuba gear Yesterday and Nemo was with me. Jeff came out to help and I went in the Garage to hang my gloves up and when I returned Nemo wasn't anywhere to be seen. We hunted for him then Jeff hoped in the car and went around the block to see if he could find him. He had run after the people on Bikes that had passed by! I am in the process on teaching the meaning of Sit, STAY. He knows them now, but he is going to know and obey them better and I am going to keep a very close eye out on that little turd brain. He could have gotten killed by a car or dognaped! I am keeping his collar on him at all times now. I even ordered Bookie a new collar and Identification Tags because I can't find his. They have the Avid Micro Chip but that don't matter if the people don't see some form of pet tag. They might just keep Them if they don't see Tags. Someone asked if I edited my pictures. No, I don't edit my pictures. The only edited done to them is if I cut them out of a background to make a Logo from a picture. Like my main page logo. I worked hard for that Body and Editing would take away what I had worked so damn hard for. I have gained weight since then and don't look half as good, but hey I'm only human..:)

Monday Aug 28, 2000 - We went diving in the Channel Islands off the coast of California Yesterday and it was a very interesting trip. I didn't take motion sickness pills before we left because I was feeling 100% that morning. The Islands took an hour and forty five minutes to get to, and about an Hour and forty Minutes into the trip I was Vomiting over the side of the boat. I would not survive on a Live a Board. I did go on the first dive after I laid down for about ten minutes after the boat stopped. We went on two dives and it was a four dive trip. We had fun all together though. It was the first part of the trip that was worst for me. Here is some pictures Channel Islands. I am spoiled by the Caribbean and didn't think that that Pacific Ocean was as nice as the Caribbean waters. After diving in the Caribbean I don't think I'll be satisfied unless it's Australia.:) We didn't see any dolphins while diving but we did see some by the boat on the way back. I got some picture of them. California Divers are the most destructive underwater divers I have seen yet. A lot of them were chopping at some of the Sea life area's collecting things. I don't even think they should be allowed to touch the bottom.. At least not destroying the life and dwellings of the Ocean. We even seen one guy with his knife try to catch a fish with it. How stupid! There is some people that just don't need a Certificate to Scuba Dive. We should be preserving things not destroying them. I was determined to get a decent picture of Bookie today and I did. Here is Bookie...

Friday Aug 25, 2000 - I would tell you all what I'm getting my Mom for her Birthday but I won't just in case she gets net access some where and checks out my diary..:) I found a female show quality French Bulldog which is absolutely beautiful (black masked fawn), the only reason I'm not getting her is because I respect how Jeff feels about having more then two dogs. I suppose I can wait till my Baby's get old.:( I'm not going to like that. I mowed my lawn today and shredded dog dookie with it, so I believe my grass is going to be fertilized fairly good. I'm getting my down stairs rec area tiled soon. Bookie knows to go outside but at night when he gets out of bed to go he isn't making it past the doggie door and doing it instead in front of it, peeing not pooping. I guess i'll have to start putting him in the crate again and have to make him learn better. We go Diving in the Channel Islands soon.. 

Thursday Aug 24, 2000 - Someone wrote me today and said my website was confusing. I just about had to laugh. If most of you can see I strive to make my site very user friendly. When you get to the members area it's even easier since everything is listed on that first Members Page. The Pet Sitter was here today and is going to take care of my Baby's while I'm gone scuba diving for one full day. 

Wednesday Aug 23, 2000 - I sure am down a bit today. Makes me want to lay in bed in the dark and have no one interrupt me while I sulk in it. I called my Mom last night and talked to her for a bit. Not much going on. For any of you who always try to tell me what kind of spelling mistakes I have made. Well, this is my Diary and that is just my human error, I don't mind. It is my Diary and if I make a mistake then so be it. Not a life threatening situation so don't be so picky. I did cook today! I made homemade chillie and it turned out really great. It was a recipe my mom left me. When my mom was here this spring she help me learn how to cook. I've messed up one meal so far but the rest have turn out well.

Tuesday Aug 22, 2000 - I took my car down yesterday and dropped it off at the dealers to have the 22,000 mile work on it. They were done and even had it washed for me this morning. Had the House cleaned yesterday by the lady's who come to clean the grime.  I called the NY Time and talked with a guy who had contacted me through E-mail and is doing a Story in the NY Times about streaming video. I'll try to find out when the story's published. He found that I was the first "cam" site to use streaming video and that is why he wanted an interview. He was real nice and very professional. I don't like it if someone acts like they are wanting to talk to me for some kind of mental thrill. I always make sure it's a legit email and call the place that the person is doing the story for. You never know who is going to try to pull something on you (especially on the net). The net is a very "unsafe" place. Seems like everyone is trying to pull a scam, even the big corporate adult sites try it. It's easier to be honest and have a secure future then to run scams or be dishonest with people and loose it all "Jail Bait". Example: the Adult and even non-adult site who try to re-bill your credit card over and over even though you've canceled it in every way possible. That is so very disturbing. To bad we don't have built in honesty sensors when were born. I was looking around at some Amateur porn sites today and wanted to gag on a couple of the pictures I came across, yoww.. 

Sunday Aug 20, 2000 - Ok, I'm over it. I held out on the little Girl Puppy. Like they say, "Good things come to those who wait".. I did call though. I would want a Cream or Pied color anyway and all she had was Brindle. I'll wait hehe (rubbing my hands together). I don't think I could afford her anyway right now. I just bought a SeaQuest 6,5,4 wet suit and they cost more then I wanted to spend. It'll be in next week. I'll need it for the Colder water we'll be diving in. My brother called Wednesday but didn't really have much to say. I haven't talked with my Mom for awhile and need to call her soon. I didn't sleep worth crap last night so I'm tired today. I got a program called Easy CD Crator 4 Delux by Adaptec. It lets me make CD's from MP3's. I made 3 CD's so far and it's awsome, So easy. I have got to admit that it is Wrong for Napster to let us all trade Music. Even though I enjoy the hell out of it. I have a lot of Songs that I can make my own CD's out of with the New Software I got. So in the end I guess the Musicians do have a right to shut them down even though I don't want that to happen. I wouldn't buy most of the songs I have though, if I couldn't get them from Napster. I'm not that big on Music to buy half of them. I'm not sure if most people are like that. I really don't think they are loosing money from me. I'd just much rather spend my money on the finer things in life like "French Bulldogs", okok, stuff for my house..:)

Saturday Aug 19, 2000 - I was shaking holding the Classifieds today. The first add since I bought my dog Bookie for French Bulldogs puppies. If it weren't for Jeff and asking if I really needed a 3 Frenchie (which I think I do) I would be meeting the lady tomorrow.:) Maybe I'll wake up at 8am tomorrow morning and forget he said that and meet her so I can see the Female Puppy. Then maybe I'll make up some long speech, on the way home, about how rough it was for the lady to find a decent owner and all the abuse there is in the world and who knows where the little girl would end up so ultimately I was the best owner for her. Then well have a little girl baby Frenchie, I'll always be thankful to him for. I want to cry. I want to start stomping around because I can't even go see her without Jeff giving me that look. Can I scream now! We are going diving in another week and I get to see some Seals (hopefully). California Channel Islands is where we'll be diving. Puppy sure would be a great addition to the Family (little girl one)..

Wednesday Aug 16, 2000 - I had an appointment for my Annual Pap this morning. I really don't like getting those. But they might save my life one day right.. I guess.  Makes me shiver every time I know it's coming up. I'm glad it's over and it was painless this time. One year I went to a place where half the staff were Doctors "in training" and I had a student doctor doing it while the "Real" Doctor observed. I think that was the longest and worst pap I have ever had in my life. Talking about Hurt! Thought they were trying to give me a hysterectomy without any pain killers.:) Let me tell you, I never went back there. It was actually a Biopsy because they found that first stage of pre cancer cells (not cancer), not sure what you call them. That's besides the point, I had to drive my self home and there was blood every where when I got up, then on top of that I was sweating so bad and hurting that I just about past out. I thought It was going to be just like a pap just a few more areas checked. I had no Idea they were going to not give me anything and take big old chunks of tissue without anything to ease my pain. I was also in those damn stir-ups for nearly an hour with that big old thing in me spreading me apart! That teaches me not to go to places for low Income Folks. I make sure I make enough money to pay for better doctors.  Man, I can still remember that pain like it was yesterday. I don't think I had sex for a year after that, my husband wasn't to satisfied at that time. 

Saturday Aug 12, 2000 - I am in need of back surgery or some shit. I can't stand for more then an hour without my darn lower back hurting like hell. I even do lower back exercises to strength it and it does not help. When I go to sit down I have to do it real slow or I feel it will break if I sit to fast. I think it got worse this year. Then again it has always been a pain when I stand to long. We went to the New Shark Reef exhibit at Mandalay Bay yesterday and looked at the Sharks and crocodiles. We are planning a Diving Trip to the Channel Islands off the California Shore line later this month. It will be on a Liveboard for two days so it will be very exciting. I have been wanting to see the Seals there. It's only a few hours away so that's wonderful.

Wednesday Aug 9, 2000 - Jeff and I have been steam cleaning all morning. My dogs have a bad case of Diarrhea and one of them didn't make it past the Doggie door this morning. There was a trail of it from the bottom step to the Doggie door. I feel sorry for them though, they aren't feeling good. I am taking them both to the Vet later today so I can get some pills for them to harden their stool. I want to barf when I clean shit up though. It's not their fault they popped, so I told them it was ok as long as they don't make a habit of it.

Tuesday Aug 8, 2000 - I put a link to the Plastic Surgeon I went to for my Breast Augmentation on my Favorite links page, at the top, today. Jeff and I went to Diana's last night and helped her figure out what was wrong with the Video she was running to her computer. Usually it's the smallest things that your not aware of. Which was the case. I went to the gym this afternoon and had a good workout. I am tired now. My show is at 7:30pm so I'll need to be getting ready for it soon.

Monday Aug 7, 2000 - Last Wednesday night I attended my 2nd KISS Concert this year. Jeff is a big KISS fan and is turning me into one. They put on a good Concert. On Thursday we went to San Diego and also went to Sea World. I took Bookie and Nemo with me and I think they liked the trip. They love traveling with us. We got back from San Diego Friday night and I wasn't feeling that good over the weekend, so I took it easy. Today Jeff and I went and saw the Movie "Hallow Man" and it was better then I had thought. I will be going to Visit my Mom in October but nothing special is going on till then. Seems like life is too short and we never will have time to do all we want in life. I am great full I have been blessed with a successful website and people who support me in my efforts to keep growing and getting better.. Even if I (myself) haven't been all that spectacular. I don't know many people who are as fortunate as I have been and I don't plan to take that for granted.

Sunday July 30, 2000 - Before I got my Dogs I read 3 books on training and the best one was called, "Mother Knows Best, by Carol lea benjamin".. I've been reading a lot on the net on how people just dump their dogs at the pound because they are to uneducated or just not wise enough to know they are to busy to raise a animal let alone smart enough to Read and train him/her. It astonishes me how many of these people has kids. If they can't raise and train an animal properly how the hell are their kids going to be raised?! I found this Poem and thought it was well written, poor little guy. I wish that we could all by pass Youth and know all the smart things that should be done. I went and got a eye brow wax today and bought some face lotion called, "BIODROGA" which cost me 33+ whatever tax. It's a good lotion, but I think they could cut cost by adding more lotion and less packaging.. It's really a rip to get a very small amount of lotion for 33 bucks if you ask me. The little round bottle is snazy enough.

DO I GO HOME TODAY?


My family brought me home cradled in their arms. They cuddled me and smiled at me and said I
was full of charm. They played with me and laughed with me and showered me with toys. 

I sure do love my family, especially the little girls and boys. The children loved to feed me; they
gave me special treats. They even let me sleep with them - all snuggled in the sheets. 

I used to go for walks, often several times a day. They even fought to hold the leash, I'm very
proud to say! These are the things I'll not forget - a cherished memory.

I now live in the shelter - without my family. They used to laugh and praise me when I played with
that old shoe. But I didn't know the difference between the old one and the new. 

The kids and I would grab a rug, for hours we would tug. So I thought I did the right thing when I
chewed the bedroom rug. They said I was out of control and would have to live outside. This I
didn't understand, although I tried and tried!

The walks stopped one by one; they said they hadn't the time. I wish that I could change things; I
wish I knew my crime.

My life became so lonely in the backyard, on a chain. I barked and barked all day long to keep
from going insane.

So they brought me to the shelter but were embarrassed to say why. They said I caused an allergy,
and then they each kissed me goodbye. If I'd only had some training as a little pup. I wouldn't
have been so hard to handle when I was all grown up. 

"You only have one day left", I heard a worker say. Does that mean I have a second chance? Do I
go home today? 

Sandi Thompson 

Saturday July 29, 2000 - I took some pictures with my digital camera today of Nemo and Bookie and thought I'd put them here. They are so sweet. Nemo and Bookie.. I called my Grandma today and was glad to hear her voice. I miss those days when we were kids and I use to stay the summers with them. My grandpa can't hear all that well so I don't get to talk with him. I think back and regret the times when I was a kid and didn't have money,  I didn't appreciate the home made clothes my Grandma had made for us.. I might not have had all that much back then but I had a lot of love from my Mom and my Grandparents and that's worth more then anything. I would say my Dad to, but there were a few years when he just wasn't around for us. I love him and forgive him for that. If I could wish him back I would. He went to Heaven 8 years ago. I wish he didn't have to die that way. He had a malignant brain tumor and it was a slow death. To slow...... I regret not being there for him. I would be there now but it's to late. When your growing up and trying to find yourself you don't want to face it... and I didn't. Now I think back and think of all the, "I should have's".

Friday July 28, 2000 - My Niece Amanda had an 8 pound Baby Boy this Morning!!! yeaaaaa! It was a very fast delivery from what I hear. That is good. I am going to Visit my mom on her birthday so I'm very excited to see him. Last night our Servers were down all most all night. That is getting old. We are having a Server built right now and should be finished by the end of this upcoming week. We are co-locating it with someone and having them take care of the head aches.

Tuesday July 25, 2000 -  I got my 3 books I ordered from Amazon yesterday. I started reading "Born in -- Series by Nora Roberts" Yesterday also. I got my car detailed and also bought my dog a car seat harness today. I've been jogging all most every evening now and going to the gym in the mornings. I'm getting so much better going the Mile and a half and don't have to stop at all any more. Those hills around here kill you at first. I won't tell anyone when I'm going to diet down for a competition because it seems to Jinx me. You'll just have to watch and wait. Don't even ask. I was watching the news earlier and feel for all those people who were on the Concord when It crashed in Paris. I just about hyperventilate when we are taking off anyway. If the damn plane started having trouble, I'd have been hysterical! I know how those people must have felt those last moment.. I feel like that ever time I fly. My God, and then if it would have happened I think I would have a heart attack before we hit the ground (that would be a very good thing)... I'm very sad that all those people died. I don't want to fly anymore. I know it's safe but the feeling of being so helpless if something did happen overwhelms me.... but I know I will fly again so it's really useless to say that. 

Sunday July 23, 2000 - Ariel Took the Mukkula Beach Fitness 2000 Yesterday!!!!!! I am so happy for her. That re motivates me.. Oh, my lord.. Girl_Pearl has been expecting an email from me and I have been a bad friend and not done it! I blame Gizzy since he don't get off my Email Server till late in the night most the times. But then again I should not put the blame on anyone but myself.. The Girl is gonna think I'm out there. Well, I think she all ready does by now..:)

Friday July 21, 2000 - I called Ariel today and talk with her. I'm making a website that will feature her and will be more of a picture type website. She is doing a fitness competition tomorrow in Finland. I'm so excited for her, good luck Ariel!!!!  She will be sending me a bunch of pictures at the end of the week. God, I miss her! I have had a bright streak the last day or so and have came up with a lot of Idea's I want to put to work. I will be writing them all down in a Note Pad I'm saving on disc. I think I'm reading to many romance novels.:) I just don't want to leave the dream of those damn books.. I actually have a real life dream for a husband but the books just bring a different....emotion.. I feel like throwing down the book at points and tackling my husband, In a very good way. I am reading one called "Forbidden Fruit by Erica Spindler" at the moment and I like it. I have signed up for one of those books clubs and they sent me this and another one. I have to admit I didn't think they were going to be that good but this one is. I've also finished a Novel by Nora Roberts (The Donovan Legacy one) "Captivated, Entranced, Charmed".. The first chapter of the first book "Captivated" didn't grab me all that much but after that it got interesting. I'm not usually into the Fantasy kind but I am now. It's a great Series.. *****...:) okok, Maybe 4 1/2 stars, since the first chapter didn't immediately hold me.

Thursday July 20, 2000 - I had Nemo Neutered yesterday. He acts like he's happier without them today.. He's running around my house like a crazy guy. I was thinking if it made him that happy maybe I should drug all the men I know and get them done to...rofl.. Maybe all that testosterone is the cause for all Mankind's problems. I wouldn't doubt it on the way Nemo is acting today.:) God, the cure for bad attitude is chop off them balls! I went and got a deep tissue massage today and god was that good. I have found the massage women that I'm staying with now. I've also been editing all my Meta Tags the last few days and I am hoping that helps with the search engines.. I change my mind a lot but I don't think that's anything new. Jeff and I did squats at the gym this morning and my legs are feeling the effects now.. The massage after loosened me up though.. My neck and shoulders has been tight as hell lately and I can't seem to get the tension worked out. I ordered three more romance books from Amazon and I think that's where I'm going to buy all my books. I couldn't find them at borders when I went and it's easier to do a search then to hunt them down in a book store. I've read the one that is currently out called "Irish Hearts by Nora Roberts" and it's very good. I've read a lot of Romance Novels lately and I'll tell ya which one's are really good in some of my future entry's.. Anyway, that's all folks!

Monday July 17, 2000 - I've been unpacking this past weekend and half ass cleaning my house here and there. I got a call from my brother Yesterday and he is on his Two weeks with the National Guard. That boy is so Unhappy and I wonder if there is anything that will Settle him... I think it's a curse over the Family. I am happy though and I am settled as I'll ever be now, thank god. I do know how he feels in a way. That Sad not sure of the meaning of your existence wanting to run kind of feeling. He has Children to worry about though and I wish he would think and be a good Father and not want to run and do his thing. What ever thing men and their ego's have to do. In one way I feel for him and in another I want to slap him straight. I've been doing a lot of thinking and I am embarrassed to admit it but I want children in a few years. I know that at the end of a persons life the only real meaning is your Family and how you treat others. What kind of family would I have if I don't have a child or two anyway? Don't get me wrong it won't be in the near future but I do plan to have a cute little girl who I can dress up and let her lead a wonderful life, someday.. It will have to be after we move most of the business out of the home though..:) I do have my other baby's.. My Bookie and Nemo! I'm going to be calling the Humane society and the News station tomorrow to see about that damn Kennel getting looked into. Nothing burns me more then thinking there is nothing I can do.

Friday July 14, 2000 -  I want to sue the place that took care of my baby dogs. When I picked them up first thing this morning they were filthy and looked as though they were left out in the heat for the last 4 days and hadn't sleep a bit because all the dogs barking and they were shaking like they were scared to death and didn't know what the fuck those people were doing to them. I even inspected the kennels myself a few weeks before I decided on that place and thought it was run very clean and had air conditioning in all the damn kennels. I want to get a lawyer and go back where only employees are allowed and see if there is some other place they kept them. I'm sure it wasn't in the air condition with their own kennel. They looked as though they had been in with other dogs because of the filth on them and they smelled of urine so bad and I really am thinking about going and punching someone's lights out for giving a false impression of the facility. The Boys acted like they didn't have human contact with anyone and I was off on a vacation living it up while my poor baby dogs were miserable. I am not going on another vacation unless I can take them with me or someone close to me can take care of them like they deserve!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For god sake, those people need to get another business and not take care of things that are living! I'm in a real good mood to put some worthless money hungry sob's out of business. I really think they were left outside in a caged in area with a bunch of other dogs just on the way they looked (heat, filthy, miserable).. I did worry about them the whole time I was gone and I had every right to . I bet they have to many for that facility and are putting the overflow in some damn caged area!!!!! I'm so mad I could go hurt someone down there real bad, right now.. Besides that I had a great time scuba diving for two days until the electricity went out and shut down the e-mail server and domain server, so we had to catch an early flight back and get them running which I'm relieved. I wouldn't want Bookie or Nemo in that place another second. I got a picture of the Nurse Shark we seen and also the Sea Turtle, you can click on the name and see the picture of them we got. There was an underwater Thunderdome (Like mad max and the Thunderdome--same theory but under water) at a spot called Northwest Point in the Providenciales and is old and collecting coral on it, they used it as a French Game Show or something of that nature underwater and we dove there and this is a picture with me in it, Thunderdome.. I also have one of me and Jeff at about 70 feet down where there is a crack in the wall and drops down to about 200 or so feet, we only went to about 90 at that time. Jeff and V..

Saturday July 08, 2000 - Oh, Girl Pearl is so funny! She sent me some Fake "shit" in the mail, roflmao.. I thought when I saw the brown it was candied chocolates, until I stared at it for another moment. Thank you for the Gift Girl Pearl! It was a late birthday present and I liked it. I'll have to use the fake shit in one of my shows, I'll call it the nasty shit show or something of that matter.:) Thank you for the Macy's Gift card also, I will have to do me some shopping and head toward Macy's when I return from Vacation! We took Nemo and Bookie on their first long walk, all the way around the block, which is about 1 mile and they made it last night. I have to laugh, bookie likes to run when we get outside now, so I'll let him and run along with him. He looks like a little cartoon dog when he runs and I can't stop laughing, by the time he wants to stop I'm about out of breath from laughing so hard. Once in Awhile someone will turn their car around and look at them. I'm having one of those nights where my stomach is a big black hole and I could eat everything in the universe. You know what else I hate. 

Friday July 07, 2000 - Can't wait to go scuba diving! I am going to work real hard on the website when I get back from Vacation and also workout every morning at the gym. I've been reading books way to much and not working as hard and I need to now. After the Vacation I'll be nice and settled. Sunday I have the interview with Carol on 720am and the interview should air around 9pm pacific time here in Las Vegas. I'm packing for our trip starting tomorrow. I took some pictures with my puppy dogs after I got up this morning and I'll post one of them here. The pups are getting so Big.. Me and pups.. Here is a good picture of Big Nemo, he's gotten so big!!-  I've been meaning to call my Grandma but I have been putting it off for more then a year now. I know her and my grandpa don't have a whole lot of years left in them and I love them so much. I just don't like calling them and having to lie. They are very religious. My Grandpa is/was a preacher. He don't preach now (he is way up in his years).. I feel so dishonest but they could not accept what I would have to tell them, if it were to be. I think my whole family would drop dead if they knew what I've chose for a career, for the exception of my Mom, Sister and Brother. I talked with my Sister and Mom on Net meeting today and that was way so cool. My sister needs  a camera and I will then be able to see her and I can't wait. 

Wednesday July 05, 2000 - Oh my gosh! Sunday night I have an interview on a Las Vegas Radio station (720am). Carol (a friend) is a sports host DJ and is interviewing me from when I played football. They are trying to put together a Women' s Football league somewhere and are just wanting to know what it was like playing for a guys team since I was one of the first females to play football. I have been talking with the girl who is taking care of my kids (Bookie, Nemo, Tiggy) while I'm on Vacation and have everything set... I feel better since she will be here most of the day to take them out to play and make sure they have company and are feed good. 

Monday July 03, 2000 - There are some pathetic people in this world. I get some fucked up people E-Mailing me. It's a shame but half of the blame is the parents trying to make these men/women feel bad about sexual feelings and ultimately they end up having some kind of fucked up mental problem with sex (I think most the serial killers have this problem).. Sorry but if "God" meant for us to be able to control our hard-on's or not get  turned on,  he wouldn't have made hormones and have us "breed".. 

Sunday July 02, 2000 - Next week on the 13 will be Jeff and my 8th Anniversary. If most people can make it through the 7th year I think there isn't anything that should stop you after that. Unless that wasn't the hardest years for you. If your married and are together for at least that long then there should be no reason you shouldn't be together the rest of your life. That is what marriage is all about now isn't it.. If the Love for that other person is strong enough then you should do everything to fight to keep your marriage and to fall in Love again and again and again..